so i considered, pictured
every person who i thought
might take the time
to listen

to let me vent
and cry
and scream
until it stopped hurting

my album
remained empty

i'm alone

The nightmare has awoken,
The demons are back.
Where am I headed?
I'm on the wrong track.

Darkness looms over me,
Threatening to break me again.
I have to fight it.
I can't let it win.

The demons they are strong,
What can I do now?
I don't know how I can win,
I feel like I'm drowning.

Take a deep breath,
Take back control.
Find the fight within you,
Don't let it go.

Wipe away your tears,
Hide away your fears,
Don't let the darkness take you.
Hold on to the light,

Stand up tall and proud
Smile to yourself and say
You didn't beat me this time,
I live to fight another day.

My darlings pull your sleeves down
No one has to know
With all the pain you’ve gone through
Your scars don’t have to show
With cuts and scratches and tears
You death is nearly here
Blood stained towels cover the floor
Everyone’s hoping you’ll walk out the door
Throw up honey you’re to fat
Blame your cuts on the cat
Sliding a blade across your skin
Getting sick to be thin

So here we are again computer,
Sitting side by side one night more,
For once things looked up, looked like they changed,
But guess what life, it's back to being torn,

Those hopes were so ******* high,
It seemed reasonable this time,
and what do you know,
life just laughed,

Took away something I thought was finally going to happen,
Something I finally felt was going to be mine again,
But you took it,
Along with my hopes,
And left me with even more pain,

No matter what she says to me,
I crumble and wait,
Because within sometime, who knows,
She may be mine once again,

"I still have feelings for you",
A thought said by her,
I can wait all I want for this, and pray that it may be mine,
But lets go back to where I was before.....

Lonely

Here's to the broken hearts,
The sewn up seams,
The beaten up good guys,
And the many shattered dreams,

This is for all the people who tried and tried again,
Just to bring happiness to those they loved,
Yet....
Never quite seemed to do it just right,
Those people who were beaten and shoved,
Because what they did was out of sight.

You do many crazy things for those you love,
Do everything their current won't/can't,
They begin to see it,
As you hope for them to see you,
And you wish for nothing but pure bliss,
Something that's soon to be threw,

(S)He will be yours,
Never give up your hope,
Because if fate perceives what it's ment to entail,
Then by god,
Stay upon that golden trail.

You seem like the stars in the sky,
the moon of the night
the first drop of rain,
the antidote to my pain.

It could have bled forever,but you stepped in,
breathing life into those far off dreams;
starlit eyes, i had not foreseen
just like fresh air ,when i was drowning.
not a desire,but a necessity.

You were my need, I was your want,
Baby, I expected a turnaround
And all my nights were spent
in vain hope of your replies that never came
I loved you with a red flame
your condescending behavior turned it into ashes.

Maybe I was a foolish dreamer, maybe you were supposed to be just a daydream,
but maybe I hoped I would be the one...
.but I became one of the ones

not every story has an end
and i loved you enough to walk away.
i could not make you love me when we were together
maybe my absence'll make you appreciate my love a li'l better.

And I could have wait forever, but it seems in vain,
one and one makes two, but one looks the other way,
and it could have gone forever, and maybe we were meant to be,
but goodbye is now, all I see.

so for now all words have been said.
this is my final farewell.
come ,let the two of us be strangers again.

And one again
The beautiful liar
Has deceived the fool

But this time
It was I
Who was the fool

And you are
By no means
Beautiful