I want to feel your body on mine so that were moulded together,
One becomes two,
You’re every breath, every heartbeat,
Your presence is ecstasy .

How perfect every movement you make,
How I’m mesmerised by each motion,

And I no love is a drug because I’m addicted ,
And I’m vaguely aware I’m heading for disaster
But,I don’t care I’m at your mercy.

I don’t try to fight,
I don’t want to fight.

How boredom grows and wraps like vines around you, suffocating in its nature,
restricting my every movement.

My thoughts become disturbing
darkness becomes terrifying
so I sleep with the light on.

I know I’m stuck,
bonded to nothingness
I need to gather the strength pull myself out

but for the moment I won’t
I’ll just carry on nice and safe
safe from the world.

I’m a hypocrite fighting the wrong battle
On a vicious cycle of repetitive behaviour
It’s shameful to admit that nothing in my life has evoked such passion in me as jealousy

I’m a logical person but love is insanity and insanity knows no logic
I see her hands on him and before i know it im ripping that ***** ******* ****** hair out
Yes jealousy is a ***** emotion,but its power should never be underestimated.

Sick, twisted ***** ***,
Building and building to sweet release,
too hot showers scouring skin,
The stench of regret is not so easy to cleanse.

Dreams are for the foolish
A soft touch,
A sweet word,
A tender kiss,
How the day comes fast
dragging back 2 reality.

Then there was him,
The boy who seen right through me,
so softly he kissed me, tears fell from my eyes.

But dreams are for the foolish
Too good to be true,
silly little girl don’t you know you’re a ****
silly little girl you only get ******.

it’s crazy how I’m waiting again
just can’t get my head around it
i’m no longer anxiously chewing my lip
no more nauseating  summer saults in my stomach
i no longer kid myself that i won’t answer your call
i am resigned to my faith
pathetic girl so silly so needy
i am defeated just sadly tired accepting that i’m waiting again
routinely checking my phone.

No I don’t want a kiss
A sickly formality
Nauseating to the stomach

I want to feel your rage
Intense, primal, magnificent
Oh the thrills I get to feel your fist upon my cheek

Your harsh words are music to my ears
Your jealousy is my source of power
Oh how i bask in it

Until the rooms a blurr
Until I can no longer see your face peculiar, twisted with rage
Until I can no longer feel the sensation of gushing blood from my nose

Finally, I can sleep
Sweet, unconscious, dreamless sleep
Drifting drifting content in the knowledge that you care
you are mine and i am yours.

Struggling all her life it strangles and overwhelms her every existence
a constant tug a war, walking the tip rope
moderation a foreign concept
desire runs deep in her veins
to let go
to lose your mind
but the consequences WILL hold her back
she knows fine well it will be her demise and only fear will save her.

I miss you.
Your not perfect far from it in fact,
your kiss was an acquired taste of alcohol and stale tobacco,
strange how I came to love that taste,
strange how its the taste I miss most now,
strange how now I would die for you, **** for you my love.

Uno I still dream of you each night,
remember how scared I was when i dreamed of killing you ?
suffocating you in your sleep,
how strange that was,
but now I only dream sweet things,passionate *** and happy endings

You used to hurt me,
i didn't  understand ,
why hurt the one you love so much,
make my face ugly,putrid,purple,
i still don't understand you my dear love,
all i know it that love it strange,
and the pain of your hands wrapped around my neck is nothing compared to the pain I feel now.