I'm sorting all this **** out
For those most caring of them all
So I can love them on deeper levels
Without having to down a whole bottle
Without having to undress
Just so I can impress
Their watchful eyes
I want to imprint on their beautiful minds

Press your mind into my spine
Kiss the bones you made your own
Let me drown in your  drunken frown
and break the ice in your eyes

forever stuck in our home town mind
so we'll forever be home town bind
digging beneath the thought of being alone
till we become the roots that made this home

blank your icy eyes and confuse my melting heart
entice me with words that could tear me apart
just put your lips on mine and make me breathe you in
so I can taste the fear that you hide deep within
paint your hopes with hands and a purple palette
on a canvas like mine that's used to being target
to all forms of hurting and substance misuse
don't show me your love just your love of abuse

why is being content
not filling me at all
its fulfilling a future
but my tear ducts are empty

not a tear shed
cause not a heart has been bled
when I know through real eyes
that CONTENT is a lie

I haven't met the eye
of passion in a while
but I know she's begging
to confuse that shy smile

and SHE is also lust
because only HE knows
that her body is a trust
leave her and feed her
with love like money
needy but falsely accused as greedy

for HE is not simply a man
who is lusting
but two arms that are both
caressing and engulfing

and when I'm released
and he finally claims me
I'll be able to portray
a love that saved me
from untamed desires
that spread like fire
but only leading to
a life living to die

I'll hide you the truths
In this tormented mind
cause your eyes won't see
when you're already blind