is this the way it is supposed to feel
taken but never more alone
never meeting someone who could even come close
to comparing to you.

yet everyday I feel as if the space between you and me grows and I am falling through those cracks that were once sealed shut

I struggle to muster the courage to utter six words as the space widens

Do
You
Even
Want
Me
Anymore

I guess I’ll never know.

I want to find it.
That one thing.
That one thing that makes my very flesh crawl with passion,
That one thing that makes my very soul want to sing.
Life has been kind of down, and quite frankly,
I am so sick of downs.
I want someone, or something,
To bring me back to life,
To make me want to live.

I feel at peace.
For once my mind is not screaming at me,
telling me to up and run.
It's telling me to stay, and to trust myself.
Yes, this is different,
and yes, this is not what I had before.
But maybe what I had before is not what I need anymore.
Maybe I'm due for a change,
maybe good things are coming to me.
And that feeling brings me peace.

Soon everything will be different.
The place you call home won't be home anymore.
All of the ones who hurt you will soon be a distant memory,
the scars no longer visible.
Letting go of all the pain will be easier,
as new friends and new memories take the place of pain.

The spot in my heart that was always dedicated to you is now vacant.
The leaves that fell from the trees at our hiding place are now dead and colorless.
You're gone.
You're walked away.
You walked farther
And farther
And farther away
From what we knew as forever.
You're still everywhere I turn.
I see you in my dreams.
I see you in my nightmares.
Remains from what was still linger.
How can you tear me apart?
You tore me into shreds.
Piece by piece, I fall deep into the void.
And all you do
All that you think to do,
Is walk father away from the one you ruined.

If you love life, life will love you back, you said to me.
But you took my life with you.
You took my trust with you.
You seem to be doing just fine,
But I'm sitting here crying.
I'm sitting here with high hopes.
Hopes that'll only bring me down.
The one thing that was always certain and set in stone in my life,
Has now crumbled and broken.
Where do I turn?
Where did I go wrong?
You're gone,
And so is my world.

The world can't do any harm
My demons can't touch me
You act as a shield
Protecting me
From the darkness that I fear most.

In a life that seems to be tainted and cold
You are my clarity
pure and innocent
Showing me that a world with you isn't all black and white.

A journey through life by your side is bright and full of warmth.

Breathe easy
Life will love you
If you love it back

Breathe easy
Peace will come
If you make peace with your past

Breathe easy
Existing will become living
If you enjoy every experience
Knowing that wisdom comes with it

Breathe easy
Every mistake that has been made
And every thing that is worried about
Will soon become forgotten
And the joy of life will shine through
If you just breathe easy.

Sometimes in life

You have to leave the harshness behind,

All of the pretending and Critical judgement of yourself.

You have to open your eyes,

And see that when you are true and authentic,

Doors open, opportunities come through,

And companions to trust and keep around forever,

Come around, showing you brand new perspectives,

On what can be created with your mind.

You act as a map,
giving me constant directions,
guiding me through twists and turns,
with clear view of what is to come.

Holding you, I can never be lost,
only encouraged and inspired.
Inspired to discover the undiscovered, create my own adventures and to take chances.

Guide me through this maze.
For you are the only one
Who can relieve me of my pain.

Hold my hand in the dark.
For you are the only one
Who can help me clean my messes.

Speak your sweet words to me.
For you are the only one
Who can make me feel at peace.

Never leave my side.
For you are the only one
Who can reach me
Before the monsters do.

He is the melody
that I can't get out of my head

He is a favorite sweater
That I can never get tired of

He is an old classic movie
That is timeless and never forgotten

He is the keys on the piano
That are always there to inspire me

But more so than ever

He is an anchor
That keeps me stable

I was completely engulfed by you.
Every move you made.

I was utterly captivated by you.
Every word you spoke.

I was entirely fascinated by you.
Every tune you hummed to yourself.

I was absolutely enchanted by you.
Every breath you took.

I was irrevocably in love with you.
No move you make, word you speak, tune you hum, or breath you take could change that.

Smiling  
Hand in hand, eye to eye.  
 
Laughing
At jokes that only we understand.
       
Promises
To never end this journey.

Strength
That you promise to give me.

Hope
Provided by your words.

Warmth  
Given by your touch.

Unconditional
Are my feelings for you.

Eternal
Is how long we will last.

If there was only one day left

One day left to live, one day left to love

I would spend it with you.

The last day would be filled with the sweet sound of your voice.

Experiencing all the little things that make people see what life is about.

But it wouldn't matter where we went, or what we saw

The only thing that would matter is the
laughter we shared and the moments we had.

Because any moment with you is all that would be needed to make that one last day count.

I want to be your first,
Not your last.

Your compassion is all I'm asking for
On my lowest and highest days.

When I'm falling apart late in the night
Can you be there to put me together
And make me whole?

When i'm feeling happy as can be
Can you be by my side
To make my smile even brighter?

Because I would surely do the same for you.

I want to be your only,
Not just another one.

Your love is all I'm asking for
Bad times and good.

When we have fights
Over the dumbest things
Can you be there to forgive?

When it's a lazy summer night
And we are laying together
Can you be there to savor the moment?

Because I would surely do the same for you.

I want to be your sun,
Not just another star.

Being without you
Is like being without food or water.
Or without air to breathe.

You're essential.
Because without you
There's only a void.

Your absence brings emptiness.
A feeling of crushed hope,
And broken hearts.

Because when you're absent from me,
The only thought that comes to mind
Is if you feel the same vacancy.

The most comfortable silence
Is the silence shared with someone          

Someone who your heart beats for,  
Someone who only has eyes for you.

When you're with that person  
And things are quiet

Words aren't needed
But when you desire words
  
They can be spoken,
Heard and understood.

Silence can mean many things,
It doesn't always mean you're alone.

The silence represents a connection,
A deep connection with someone

That can't be recreated.

Have you ever had a hero?
Someone to swoop in and save you,
Steal your heart,
And open your eyes.
They open your eyes to a new world,
A world with happiness and love.
Your hero makes you realize things.
That you can be loved.
That sadness is temporary.
And that not all heros wear capes.
Some heroes just have a kind smile,
A warm, genuine heart,
And plenty of love to give.

Over the past few months
I've realized where my home is
My home is in your arms
Safe and secure
Guarded by your warmth
Home is where the heart is
And my heart is with you.

It's 1:03 am
I'm half asleep
But my mind is wide awake
Thinking of you
The way you speak
The way you smile
And how you move me
In ways that no one else can.

I lay in bed and wonder
If you're half asleep
With a wide awake mind
And if you're thinking of me too
They way I speak
The way I smile
And if I move you
In ways that no one else can.

We all have that special person,
who has the powers to do anything.
with that contagious smile,
that contagious laugh, that goes on for miles.
That can light up a whole room.  Similar to an applause.
Once one person starts,
Everyone follows.

It's funny
how we do these things
to seem cooler
to appear prettier
or more perfect
all for someone
who doesn't even glance twice at you.

I used to walk around
with my head held high
untouched and untainted
by the ugly side of the world
I was so innocent
so pure
but now
I see the tainted,
rough and harsh
side of the world.

It is a blessing and a curse
    to want everything too much
to feel everything so deeply
    and to dream vividly and big.

Come as you are
  no accessories
      no extras
         they are simply distractions
             make your mind bare
               vulnerable
                   I want to explore your mind
                     make flowers grow
                        make smiles sprout
                           in even the darkest
                             saddest parts of you