Dear Taylor,

     Things are not the way they used to be.
Don't get me wrong I do love you
     Just not the way that you love me.

     I've never had a friend like you
     One I could tell EVERYTHING to
but you, you keep secrets
Things about you
     You say I can never know
It hurts me
     That you don't let your full self show

The first time you told me you liked me
I didn't know what to think
     Or what I should say
So I told you the truth
     That I'd never thought of us that way

I confused my feelings for you after that
     Because when my mom walked out and life got tough
You stepped up to bat
     You where always there for me
Day or night
     Whether my issue be money
or that my dad and I got in another fight
     You were there for me
And my little brothers too
And for that I sincerely thank you

I didn't know how deep your feelings for me ran
     Until I split us apart
You then told me you loved me
     And that I'd broken your heart.
It was then that I decided
That we had to be divided.

     I chose that in this world
There was a you and a me
     Because I knew that an us
could never be

I never wanted to hurt you
I love you
     I did what I did to keep our friendship together
But that wasn't possible
Because things between you and I
      Have changed forever

I usually write **** down
On the pages of a notebook
But I am in My home town
and I am drunk as ****
and its dark as hell
So I guess all is well

I can only type this
Out on my kindle fire
In hopes that someone may read it
And that my words will inspire

I don't know if this
Is going to make any sense
And honestly whether I post it
I am on the fence

I keep you a secret.
I talk about another boy
who will also.never
Be mine

Pretend this is pokemon.
I'm Ash Kechum
You're Pikachu.

I CHOOSE YOU!!

Relaxing in the front yard
Peering up at the sky
Mesmerized by the sound of the leaves dancing in the breeze
Watching the clouds sashay by
The shapes they made entertained my cerebellum.
The warm summer sun bakes the smell of lilac into the air
My best friend relaxes beside me, mimicking my every move.
living in our minds
Not a single care
This was ours
Our moment
Our time
The grass was frigid and plush beneath our backs
The sweet breeze kissed our faces
This was one of my favorite places.

Will you be
my Asian persuasion?
I don't care if you're Irish Vietnamese
be my guy?

I am so ******* happy for you
really I am
so happy I could be your starter girlfriend
So happy I could teach you how to love again
So you could find her
And tell me how perfect she is
how you've never been so happy.

I'm so ******* happy for you!

No really I am.

They tell us hundreds of "don't"s
But few "Do"s
They tell us all
They tell me
They tell you
"Do as I say, not as I do."

When it comes to their actions
That's where they fall short
They don't comply
So tell me
Why should I?

Don't smoke
Whether it be tobacco or herb
Do they fallow the siermen they preach?
No. That would simply be absurd

Don't drink alcohol
Steer clear of the *****
You will never gain a thing from drinking
you will only loose
Especially if you drink and drive
if you're lucky enough to survive

It is great advice
For if you drink and drive
You could end up paying the ultimate price
But who gets more DUIs?
Is it the "all knowing responble adults"?
who are "mature" enough to drink
Or is it us "reckless irresponsible teens"?
Take a guess. Which do you think?

"I'm the adult, I know what I'm doing."
Do they? Do they really?
Should there be this double standard?

If you ask me, that's a question with an answer worth pursuing.

I am from band-aids
    From scraped knees and Neosporin.
I am from the gravel
    That seperated my feet from the hard ground.
    (Covered with the color of gray,
    But felt red hot under the sun's rays)
I am from the backyard,
    From the lilac bush,
    Whose roots are still buried deep
    in the earth.

I am from the Hundred Acre Woods,
    From Pooh Bear and Christopher Robin.
I am from knock-knock jokes,
    And non-stop giggles,
    From water colors, markers, and cayons.
I am from Cherios
    With sugar,
    And early fall mornings.

I am from my grandmother's embrace,
    With watered down coffee
    And the Sunday newspaper.
I am from my mother's eyes,
    Who's deep brown pigment matches mine.

At 6512 Orbit Way, you will find a house,
a home. A capsule of memories,
Laughs and giggles,
moments of peace and heated debates.
I am from that capsule.
Where I'm from is woven into
every thread and fiber that is me.

Will we always be this way?
Will we forever pretend and play?

This isn't real
We are just acting out what we feel.

You're not my boy
And I'm not your girl.
but still our love continues to unfurl.

Will we always be this way?
Together at night
Alone by day.

Well. . . I'm alone
you're at home
living your life
Playing with your baby girl
And asking her mother
to be your wife.

I'm alone
until the sun sets
In the sinful darkness we make our bets.

I bet I can make you beg.
you promise to make me scream.
Working against eachother
But still as a team.

We have the same conclusion in mind
New triggers to ecstasy
we seek to find

You pull may hair
I bite your neck
You grab my ***
Why can't this last

Will we always be this way?
Spending the night together
but at dawn forced to say
goodbye

You have to rush home before you're found missing.
If your girlfriend finds out. . .
Just tell her it was my mouth you were kissing

You said that you loved me
When we were sitting on the swings
We were in the 4th grade
it meant so much to me
I gave you my first kiss
I'm sure it was yours too

It was 5th grade when you met her
That's when I became just a friend

Now I say to myself
If only I could make a single wish
I would take it all back
There would be no kiss
No bliss

The talks that we had
Thinking of them makes me so sad
The times that me shared
Never for a second
was I scared
You made me feel so safe

Now I say to myself
If only I could make a single wish
I would take it all back
There would be no talks
And no times to remember

The looks that you gave me
Don't mean a thing now
Its hard to see you two together
When I see you with her

I say to myself
If only i could make a single wish
I would take it all back