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May 2013 · 3.2k
Astronaut
T May 2013
My Sweet Spaceman
where are you now?
Trying to see between
those little glows
that speckle the sky;
similar to those
no longer in your eyes?
I just want to see
the world in which you're lost,
so take me please,
I'll pay the cost;
I'm sure it's less
than the price I pay
for the half-assed smile
you gave today;
I miss you babe,
it's been too long,
so let me save you
from this wrong,
because believe me when I say
I'm alone in this crowded room
while you run around the moon.

*And you said you never wanted to be an astronaut
May 2013 · 395
Stay Dry
T May 2013
Falling
falling apart
and not knowing
never knowing
how to help your heart
Or how to heal
heal your mind
not even trying
never trying
for fear of what you'll find
Those shadows dance
behind your eyes
frighteningly similar
oh so similar
to those of thunderous skies
So you listen
And you can hear your pain
***** your skin
your delicate skin
like cold acid rain
Caught in your own tears
lost
so lost
in your hurricane of fears

It's time
to go inside.
May 2013 · 1.0k
Four Letter Word
T May 2013
I'm hopeless
-ly
hopeful
that this
will
last
longer
than
my
last
forever

because
infinity
has never seemed
so enjoyable
and
I
have
never known
the unknown
to be
a
desirable
destination

I'm hopeless
-ly
hopeful
that someone
will
hold
my
hand
because
I
can't see
with all these
stars
in
my
eyes

And blind has never been better
Apr 2013 · 468
Fighting Insomnia
T Apr 2013
I think that
the only reason
I fell asleep
that night
was because
your breath
became my lullaby
And the rhythmic thump
of your strong heart
was louder
than anything
my head could conjure

I think that
the only reason
I stayed asleep
that night
was because
you were all I could dream of
And you are
the farthest thing
from a nightmare

I think that
the only reason
I wanted to
wake up
that morning
was because
I knew
you would be there
And I was
right
Apr 2013 · 318
Only Sometimes
T Apr 2013
Sometimes I wish
that holding hands was enough
for both of us;
I wish I didn't need more talking
and rarely
I wish you didn't want more "walking";
I like walking
I just wish that we talked more

Sometimes I wish
you hadn't made
all those friends;
I liked when I was your world,
actually, I was so much your world
that I didn't like it;
funny

Sometimes I wish
that it didn't seem like
you need my friend to come too,
because I guess me being part of 'us' isn't enough
sorry
Maybe if you weren't always with him
we wouldn't need another girl for "balance"
He doesn't want to third wheel?
Neither do I

Sometimes I wish
that I was stronger;
So that silly things
like my wishes
didn't make me feel this way

..But only sometimes...
Apr 2013 · 551
Scare Tactics
T Apr 2013
Push my back against a wall
and yell until you're hoarse;
Slap me around,
knock me to the ground
and kick me 'til you're spent
Pound through my thick skull
and tell me how I'm blessed

Now shoot me
with an empty gun;
Scare me into remembering
what I've got to live for;

*everything
Apr 2013 · 1.5k
Flustered in Gumboots
T Apr 2013
Flustered in gumboots,
No way to compute
The full weight of the drops
That saturate her scalp
And seem to soak right through
To her clouded brain,
Where thunder roars
And lightning scours
Until she smells burning flesh;
While she spins, confused
The sky seems quite amused
For there is nothing
But sunshine and blue.
Mar 2013 · 384
Hello Poetry
T Mar 2013
Hello Poetry
my friend
and yet my foe,
with you I learn things,
things I don't wanna know;
about myself and others
and the things that we can't touch;
the things we hate and love
like life and lust and such

With you I learn the truth
about what's deep inside,
learn to stretch my boundaries
and reign in all my pride
because words hold strength;
a new power, unrestrained
not in size or length
but in the simple way
they pour from brain to page.
Just a thought..
Mar 2013 · 885
Suffocating
T Mar 2013
I wish to extinguish
this self destructive
cigarette

I'm getting tired
of the stale
taste

The smoke that pours
from my pouted lips
is clouding my
vision

The residue is building
in my lungs
I feel it

It's crawling rather quickly
up towards my
heart

I know I should quit
but it's hard
when it's not nicotine that I'm
addicted to.
Mar 2013 · 350
Treading Dread
T Mar 2013
Here comes the tide
eating at my edges
washing away my resolve;
each wave taking more than the last
and I sit here
anticipating that one wave that will take me away;
pull me under,
swirl me around
and eventually let me sink
to the bottom
of that ******* ocean,
that I have tried so hard to stay away from,
I built my walls tall and thick
high up on the shore,
because I have discovered
that I no longer know
how to tread water.
Mar 2013 · 517
Define "Missing"
T Mar 2013
It's like someone took away my shirt
Or moved all my furniture around
Something's not right

It's like I misplaced my keys
The one's I was just holding a second ago
My hand's shouldn't be empty

It's like feeling you forgot something
Like you're not prepared
Like you're not entirely whole

I guess that's why they call it missing someone
Because one key component
Most often your heart
Is some place else
Some place
Far away
It's a strange phenomenon to me, why do we attach ourselves?
Mar 2013 · 349
A Perfect Afternon
T Mar 2013
A perfect afternoon
spent on the beach
and within each other's reach

A perfect afternoon
climbing trees
and touching knees

A perfect afternoon
making wishes
and stealing kisses

A perfect afternoon
that ended all too soon
Mar 2013 · 464
Yours
T Mar 2013
Tap tap tap
went your chewed up pen against your wall
while I mindlessly twisted the corners of your blanket
into a lovely knot
Tick tick tick
went your clock in the comfortable silence
and we turned to see the how many more minutes we'd have
when our gazes drifted to each other
Thump thump thump
went my heart
as you leaned in
closer
Grabbing my palm you uncapped your pen
and proceeded to draw two curved lines
that shaky as they were
somehow made a heart
"Yours" you said
And the silence was never the same
Mar 2013 · 303
We Slept Together
T Mar 2013
Wrapped around each other
that small couch became the perfect size
we lied so close and calmly
I didn't need my eyes
and so they closed
and yours did too
making it the first time
I ever slept with you
Perfection.
Mar 2013 · 521
Driving Lessons
T Mar 2013
Too fast
It's going too fast
and it's not the same as it used to be
when you were young
speed was fun
and fast could always be faster
but the days are slipping
from the life you're gripping
and soon
you'll hit a corner
slow down for the turn
so your guts won't churn
lose your race mentality
and learn to love reality
and please
just drive safe
Feb 2013 · 7.6k
Such a Small Town
T Feb 2013
such a small town
has built such broad shoulders
and such strong arms

from holding each other up

such a small town
has endured such heartbreak
and such loss

because of things we can't control

such a small town
has cried too many tears
and lived their biggest fears

because life is unfair

such a small town
has learned such ways,
the value of their days

and that makes life a little sweeter

but such a small town
could never forget
those we miss

because our hearts
are not so small
Too many losses, far too soon. You are missed.
Feb 2013 · 2.2k
Ugly Umbrella
T Feb 2013
Oh dear
oh darling me
how did I come to be
so completely
stuck
under this ridiculous umbrella
of ideas, plans and everything
the world throws
like bricks
and stones and sticks
that crack my bones
dissolve my morals
and break my heart
   my
        little
               beating
heart
I can only scream so loud
and can only listen so close
but one of us is going to have to
try
      harder
because I'm losing
all thoughts that strike a heart string
to my tears
my fears
and my storm is still too steady
for me
to
    put
          away
                   the
umbrella
Feb 2013 · 707
Endless Night
T Feb 2013
her hair was the dark sky
splashing over the edges of her pillow;
waves of black velvet ink,
spilled by reckless writers
while writing their love story
all over the cotton sheets of paper

her laugh was the moon;
shining a path through the hours of their shared whispers
and comforting him, the weary night traveler
who no longer felt lost

her eyes were the stars;
so bright and breathtaking,
behind them hid so much mystery,
he wondered how she could see

he soaked in every moment
and wished for an endless night
Feb 2013 · 510
Sidewalk
T Feb 2013
I've tried so hard to build these walls ,
make myself stronger,
make my skin thicker;
I've tried so hard to learn my faults
and avoid stepping on the cracks;
I bend over backwards
to keep them safe from heavy footed pedestrians;
pedestrians like him,
like you,
like me,
I'm just as guilty as any other;
stressing my fragile concrete until it eventually
breaks;
I can only hold off for so long,
until I crumble;
I need you to find a different path
or learn to tread lightly;
so I ask you
if you love me like you should,
like you claim you do;
don't ask why the sidewalk is grey;
It was just made that way.
Feb 2013 · 489
Fight Club
T Feb 2013
I'd said I'd never seen it
you dropped your chin
"We're watching it"
We did
until our close proximity
was more than you could handle
and your breath found my hair
and your lips met my neck
and now I still can say,
I don't know how it ends.
Feb 2013 · 720
things they don't teach
T Feb 2013
Oh it's just the little things
the way she hummed
and the way he sings
the warm tea
that tickles my nose
the wet dog tongue
that tickles my toes
that look you throw across the hall
that gut wrenching feeling
when you fall
the warm breeze
that envelops the night
the millions of stars
that twinkle bright
the moment at the top of a slide
the feeling that follows
a really good cry
the kind of laughter
that makes you hurt
the comfort you get
from that old ugly shirt
the moments you forget to count
that all add up
to
being
   happy
Feb 2013 · 1.0k
Salad Spoons
T Feb 2013
We lie there
on that awkward ugly couch,
laughing so hard that I would roll off
if you didn't have your arm
wrapped around my waist;

not close enough

We press closer
and I trace the invisible hearts and swirls
that tattoo your arms,
while you search for my heart
between my shirt and skin;

not close enough

We press closer
breathing in tandem,
soft rise and fall
of our two chests,
now one;

not close enough

We press closer
and your breath dances in my hair,
while pieces of your story sneak into my ear
until I am every bit as full
of you as I am me;

not close enough
Feb 2013 · 436
Blind
T Feb 2013
So you see
time has played a trick on me
and I am made the fool
That dances just as strings would command
oblivious to the big grand plan
that constructs my destiny
It's gone so fast
moments dashed past
and I'm alone in dust
That stains my clothes
smells of woes
and leaves me rather lost
In the big blue world
strange secrets unfurled
and I am none the wiser
Of all the things yet to come
and all fun
I've yet to enjoy
But the hardest bit is
I don't know what I think of this
And the thing that gets me
the thing I can not see
is right there, in front of me

silly girl,
*open your eyes
Feb 2013 · 1.8k
Candles
T Feb 2013
This feeling flows
like an unobstructed stream
starting deep in my heart
and bubbling out
to my extremities
happiness
in it's purest form
saturates our words and laughter
and soon the room is soaking wet
as we dance and sing
taking hold of our youth
and our freedom
we are
loud
rowdy
drunk on
our love
and wine
we are
infinite
and in these moments
I am
complete
content
*alive
nothing better than celebrating another year with friends
Jan 2013 · 2.0k
Something Interesting
T Jan 2013
Tell me something interesting
because there's lot's that I don't know
It's like meeting the actor
without ever seeing the show

I want you to be familiar
like the backside of my hand
I  want to get to know you,
learn about your plan

I want to know how you feel
when we're really close
I want to know what you think about
when we're nose to nose

I want to be
your confidant
But I'm not so good
at nonchalant

So tell me something interesting
T Jan 2013
Music thumps
bass booming through your feet
into your heart
and out to your fingers
that grip your flimsy red cup
filled to the brim with froth
like the room
filled with people
and lots of air
that's filled with sweat and voices
that smell like the alcohol
that no longer sits in the bottles and cans
you see covering every surface
you walk from group to group
taking and adding to each conversation
that passes through your clouding mind
that is still watching
that girl flip her hair
as she talks to the boy
that has his hand
on the *** of another girl
who's laughing with the people
she would never talk to
if she wasn't holding
that cup
that matches yours
and his
and hers
and theirs
that slosh over a little when they
dance all close and grimy
because our culture promotes
flippancy
which feels a lot like
fun
and you're not quite sure
how you've noticed that
everyone is leveled
because they're so
high on life and love
and drinks and drugs
and it doesn't quite make sense
but you come to the conclusion
in your mildly impaired state
that all that stuff in movies
isn't all that fake
No, it's just High School
Jan 2013 · 421
Pinch Me
T Jan 2013
I think you should know
I stood out there, in the snow
and watched you walk away

it wasn't sad,
only too bad
because I wasn't finished

wasn't finished kissing you
and goofing off, like we do
there aren't enough hours

the way you make me feel
is so **** good, it can't be real
but believe me, I was there

I was there
when you touched my hair
and whispered away my worries

I was there
when you proved you care
in all those little ways

I was there
and it's not fair
that you won't be,
in a few months time

Don't leave.
Really difficult to have a relationship on a deadline.
Jan 2013 · 710
The Fruits of Language
T Jan 2013
The ripe fruits of language
call to my greedy tongue
I inspect each morsel scrupulously
all so delectable
I make my choice
and pluck it from the branches of ether
breaking the skin
I indulge in the sweet sound
as it rolls off my tongue
tumbles past my lips
and lands neatly at your unsuspecting feet
Jan 2013 · 415
Flying Lessons
T Jan 2013
Alone upon the precipice
you expand your feathered wings
You're right and ready
strong and steady
So jump, let's hear you sing
But you stop short
and tumble back
bruising your behind
It is those ropes
your dashed dreams and hopes
the confines of your mind
So, flightless bird
you may have heard
that the only way to see
Is to open your eyes
look to the sky
and let yourself free
Jan 2013 · 673
Five Fingers
T Jan 2013
I can hear you speak through your calloused palms
You soothe my mind, erase my qualms
With just one touch to my right cheek
You take my breathe, make my knees go weak
Then lift me up, make me strong
Wrap me up in a hug so long
Then we break
and there's no need
For me to fake
A smile
Jan 2013 · 449
Time Bomb
T Jan 2013
It was as if someone had pressed ‘mute’
On the universal remote that ran his life
Mouths opened and closed
Quiet birds in the trees
Even the kids and the bees
Not even his footsteps made noise

He trudged along in silent wonder
Hearing only the rapid thunder
Of his beating heart
As it rattled his ribs

His thoughts turned to cynical
As he worried he’d reached the pinnacle
Of his dreary, lonesome life;
In rushed the regrets

Was this all life had to offer?
Someone played prince while he played pauper
And not in the material sense;
He lacked luster

He gazed confused
At the watch he used
To count away his days
And he promptly removed it

With one good toss
It was lost
In amongst the trees
With the singing birds and bees
Jan 2013 · 666
Beautiful Disease
T Jan 2013
Inspiration blossomed
Between the layers of experiences
Cataloged in the folds of her mind
It extended down
Rooting itself behind her deep eyes
And brightening them until they outshone
Any star that graced the evening sky
Pigment leeched into her cheeks
And pulled them back revealing a brilliant smile
As the tendrils of thought unfurled into her body
Her shoulders slumped
Her arms relaxed
And she wrapped her infected fingers around the paintbrush
Which began to dance
And the only sound heard
Was the bristled feet scuffing the white canvas floor
Leaving tracks of royal blue, rich purple and green
After hours of their tireless dance
She released the brush and stepped back
Her imagination had splattered her clothing and hands
And slowly she allowed her eyes to roam
The workings of her mind
Jan 2013 · 1.8k
Infatuated Fools
T Jan 2013
Infatuation
Complete and utter
Saturation
Blurs the lines between like and love
Faster than rain wrecks a sandcastle
A new drug
Another pill
Take some more
Just to fill
Your moments with magic
Make the train wrecks less tragic
But take too many
Now you're hooked
And wishing you had looked
The other way
Because the high was unreal
But now all you feel
Is the ache, the need, the pull
You're no longer full
Withdrawal *****
That's why love is for fools
And that's why fools are the happy people
Jan 2013 · 339
My Question
T Jan 2013
If it's the thought that counts
Then how can actions speak louder than words?

And what are you saying by leaving?

You walked out that door
But I'm really not sure
Why you didn't close it

Is that because,
I think it was,
You don't actually mean it?

Are you asking me to follow?
Or to stand up, swallow
my pride and shut the ******* door?
Jan 2013 · 991
Buzzed
T Jan 2013
The buzzing starts,
Like incessant bugs
Toying with my ears;
They zip and fly about my head
And my beauty falls away in small clumps
Which then lands on my shoulders and at my feet
Until I am wading in my femininity

The buzzing stops,
The bugs leave
And my head now bare
Glows like some beacon
That illuminates my flaws

I have been stripped of my shield,
My insecurities lay defenseless in the open;
I am ugly

Then I am lighter,
Nothing to weigh me down,
My safety blanket
Had been smothering me
Now, I can breathe

And I breathe in,
Sweep up my insecurities
And face myself
My feminine self
My raw self
My real self

And I see beauty
Shaving my head was the best thing I've ever done for myself.
Jan 2013 · 347
More Than a Dream
T Jan 2013
I must confirm my existence
I grasp and hug and pinch and feel
Anything I can get my hands on
Just to prove it's real

Everything is vibrant with
Breath
In and out
Right and left
The colours expand
Contract
Disappear
Come back

It's all too surreal
Must be my imagination
A little of this and that
A total compilation
Of everything
That was and is
All that's bad
And all my bliss

Life's too short
To not just be
There's so much to do
And so much to see
And everything
Is so **** right
I'm terrified
That at the end of the night

*I'll wake up
Jan 2013 · 446
First Snow
T Jan 2013
Oh the words evade me
Like snowflakes that melt at my touch
So many to grab
And yet they won't ever find my palm
Or my lips
And so I spin in circles
Open mouthed
Waiting for that moment
When I taste the labor or the clouds
And the way you make me feel
Jan 2013 · 379
2 A.M.
T Jan 2013
I'm pretty sure you could
feel my heart
beating
through my coat
as we stood outside my house in that long
embrace

The air was
brisk
and our breath poured out like
mist
from our smiles

You leaned down to
kiss me
And twas so well received
I hugged you tighter
A silent plead for you to never
leave

So we stood there
A little mangled from the
night
Kissing ourselves silly
Because it felt so
right
Jan 2013 · 357
A Visit
T Jan 2013
There are some days
when you can see the Moon
in broad daylight
It's a ghost of it's usual self,
peeking out from some invisible pocket of baby blue velvet
I don't know why it does this
and I'm sure there is a scientific answer to explain
but I don't want to know that
I would rather go about thinking
that maybe the moon gets lonely and comes out to visit with the Sun
Their shifts are always clashing
and it's pretty hard to keep a relationship when you're working nights and they work days
The Sun and the Moon work to balance the Earth
Pretty demanding work
I bet they miss each other
I find that you can only see the Moon
on really beautiful days
Maybe it's because that rare visit
is making the Sun very happy
Or maybe it's chance
Jan 2013 · 462
Master Plan
T Jan 2013
I just don't think you'll understand
That this was never
part of my plan

I was to get over him
only to later get under him
And you weren't ever supposed to show interest

But you did
And for the life of me
I can not see
why

You knew I was warped and distraught
But you dropped everything and caught
me on my way down

That's actually not true
I hit the ground long before you
even unpacked

But you helped me up
And gave a ****
And proceeded to pay for dinner

Now here we are
I've come quite far
And I'm not sure if you've noticed

That I've fallen for you
my intentions now true
I know that plans can change
I've learned a lot in the last year.
Jan 2013 · 415
New Years In June
T Jan 2013
Do three hundred and sixty five days have to pass
Before I can start anew?
Things are changing
And my time is waning
No longer can I wait
To erase mistakes and wipe out hate
That has marred my inner self
So help me to grab right now
And hold it as my own
I've seen my ways
In older days
And am horrified at best
So as a favor
Be my savior?
It'd be best if you said yes
All I ask is this
Be my New Years kiss
In June
Jan 2013 · 392
Infinite
T Jan 2013
It's the times when nothing goes
right
And so we cry
together
We let it happen and wash it away with
laughter

It's the times when the stars come
out
So we must follow
suit
And traipse about on our fruitless
missions

It's the times when we're all a little
silly
or a lot
And we're all content to just
be

It's times like these when I discover feeling
infinite
I'm pretty sure you remember (or have) those nights with your friends; those nights where everything just feels right and you can't be bothered with the thought of it ever ending.
Jan 2013 · 1.7k
Eat Your Fill
T Jan 2013
i'm hungry       brought on
and eating                    by lack
    your words                     of nutrition
in attempts                                       so i'm
to fill                                            asking you
my empty                                                 as my
lonely self                                        human mother
but those                                                         to chew
words you                                      and regurgitate
spit like                                         something a
mother bird                               little more
do nothing                           satisfying
for my                       something a
screaming aches     little more
and pains           like love
Total work of fiction. If anything, I'm over-fed.
Jan 2013 · 447
Just A Crutch
T Jan 2013
Just a crutch
You're nothing much
only everything I lean on
If you're not there
I might not care
only topple to the ground
Where I'd lie
But wouldn't cry
only because you're watching
So you see
I'm good and free
*only when I'm with you
Jan 2013 · 300
Reasons for Running
T Jan 2013
Some say
That running is
For scared people

But I don't think they know
What it feels like when you go
As fast as you can

The wind whips your cheeks
And you forget about your week
Where nothing went right

You're breathing hard
Your heart was scarred
But now you can't feel it

So you go faster
In the hopes to master
The power behind your legs

It's become a task
How long will you last
Before you have to stop?

The pain comes back
Your face goes slack
And your breathing regulates

You feel the hurt
It's the sweat on your shirt
And so you go to change

You weren't scared
You only cared
To go and stretch your legs

They don't have to know they're right
Jan 2013 · 395
Walking
T Jan 2013
They walk along in silence
Hearts thump like horse's hooves
Their knuckles touch
It's nothing much
But neither hand will move

So fingers reach and lock
In an awkward, clumsy grasp
Sweaty palmed
They're somehow calmed
By the hardest, simple task

They grip a little tighter
Neither deterred by the sweat
They turn and smile
For the longest, little while
Silently placing all their bets

On who will be the first to crumble
And indulge in a kiss
On who's bed
On which day they'll wed
And how much they'll miss

Each other

When they reach
Her doorstep
Jan 2013 · 376
The Storm
T Jan 2013
She stood atop that little hill
Where she popped that little pill
The one that brought the storm
The thunder rolled
And the birds did scold
The girl for all her wrongs
But she  ignored their calls
As she began to fall
Into a sort of trance
Lightning flashed
Her mind then crashed
Onto itself in oblivion
The world was white
She lacked all fright
*For there was nothing awful
Jan 2013 · 391
From Where You Sit
T Jan 2013
Do you suppose
From where you sit
That you can see the stars?
Way up there
Up in the black
Above the smog from cars

Do you suppose
From where you sit
That you can see the truth?
Way out there
Out passed what's known
And muddled by your youth

Do you suppose
From where you sit
That you can really see?
See the world?
See yourself?
Or even see me?
Jan 2013 · 343
Sealed with a Kiss
T Jan 2013
Something so few can see
A secret between you and me
That glimmer in your eye
And the wink I send right back
Best forget our words
Before our lips go slack
Jan 2013 · 394
The Recipe
T Jan 2013
I'm choking
                                          On nothing really
                                                 Just emotions and air
But it's awfully uncomfortable
                                                   The thought
                                                     Of trying
                                     To stomach it all
                                               Digest it
                          And make it work
                                       For me
Is enough to make me gag
Again
             It doesn't taste very good
                  And I'm sick
                          Of having it forced
                                Down my throat
                                  But if I don't eat it
It won't go away
                            I can't throw it out
But I might throw it up
                              I don't know
     How much longer
                     It will sit
It's an invisible struggle
     I'm the only one who feels it
I think
             Chances are
                                   I'm "overreacting"
Could we change the recipe?
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