Tatiana Lasky

Tatiana Lasky Jun 2015

Void

Something's missing
Some sort of void that can not be filled
What's wrong?
What's bothering me?

It's you, daddy
I miss you
Your laugh
Your warm embrace
Your smiling face
The language you created that few can understand
Your heart of gold
The many memories that I hoped would never end

It is no more
You promised you would never leave me
But you're gone
Nothing remains
Except me,
A carbon copy of you

Come back
Why did you go?
I'm so alone

Something is missing,
That something is you
There is apart of me that is so empty

I'm just a shell of a human being.

Tatiana Lasky May 2015

Lie to Me

Tell me I'm beautiful
Tell me I'm smart
Tell me I have a good heart
Deceive me
Make me believe you want me
Make me feel worthy
Make me feel loved
Understand me
Pretend to listen
Pretend to empathize
Pretend to be my friend
Tell me some more *******.

Tatiana Lasky May 2015

Grievance

Melt my memories
Let's transcend time
Never forget history
If only I could escape this pain
Bring me back to this harsh reality
Help me to overcome this misery
Why can't it be you and me forever?
I wish we had spent more time together
Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me
I would give anything to see your youthful face
There is no trace
I'm so blue without you in my life
I sing myself a lullaby
Good-bye
I guess this is good-bye

Tatiana Lasky Feb 2015

Unformate Erroribus

I try to be a good person, but I'm really just a ****-up
You read it right
I unintentionally sabotage everything
Everything important
Everything sacred
Everything real
Yup that's me
The person who always says the wrong things
Does the wrong things
Some self loathing
Maybe a little punishment
Then everything will be ok
But I'm just a ****-up and that'll never change

Tatiana Lasky Feb 2015

Tainted

Your scent resinates on my skin
The image of you staring at me naked
"I feel so violated" I said over and over in my head
I told you "no"
You kept going
I didn't stop you, because I thought it's what you wanted
"I cared about you. How could you do this to me?"
No answer.

Please free me of your restraints
You're done using my body to soothe your desires
I want to take a shower
Let me wash away all the lies you told me
Let me wash away the pain

I allowed you to bring me here
I followed you into your bedroom
Preventing this from happening was all I could think about
The possibility of you fighting me
or
not allowing me to leave was stronger

So I laid there
Motionless
Worthless
Distraught
Forced friction
No emotional protection

"Go ahead," I thought
No escaping you now
You sweat profusely
I'm weeping internally
You know something is wrong
You say nothing

Text: "I need you"
Text: "I'm sorry"

Tatiana Lasky Feb 2015

Potency

I have refuse to stumble through life
unaware,
uninvolved,
impaired

Through sickness
I have discovered the function of being
Through numbness
I have discovered the absence of unity
Through hardship
I have discovered the importance of strength

I refuse to be amused by satirical death
I will not to be confined by the silent lapse of time
I will not be a prisoner to my own mind

I speak only to the passing tides,
with a mended broken heart and honest lies