I miss you so..
you'll never know,
all of my feelings
I cannot show
for if I do
I couldnt bear
the thought of once again
feeling my heart tear
you ripped it out
and others knew
they saw the hole in my chest
ripped out by you.
you ate my heart
and said those three words,
and then you left...
like we never were.
each moment was perfect.
each one better than the last.
The one thing that I cannot bear
is that you are part of the past.
I cannot believe
that we are not together.
it was never supposed to happen
what happened to forever?*

Always,
        Tameica Hammick

You know that feeling
Where you’ve waited all day to talk to the one person
and you’ve been so excited
but you compress that emotion into a simple “hey”

But you discover neither of you have nothing to say
and the conversation slows to a hault
And you can literally feel your stomach drop
and your heart ache
and the tears creeping out
one
by
one

Yeah, that feeling *****.

Your clumping words together,
and just making a paragraph.
I sit here and I read them,
I sometimes manage to laugh
Im not trying to be rude,
but if you have the time.
you type your feelings up,
and it doesnt even rhyme.
you throw these words together,
and call it poetry.
Why  dont you click on my name,
and see how a poem  should  be.

<3 Always
        Tameica  *Hammick

I can't grasp the words,
For the things I couldn't tell.
This can't be heaven,
Feels like I'm in hell.
The explosion in my chest,
Lit by destruction around me.
Felt inside a girl,
Whose emotions Will soon be free.
For nobody truly knows,
the anger kept within.
The ashes of a her heart,
Will bring her to an end.
she screams for help,
She screams for someone.
To come and save her,
But the damage has been done.
The explosion of her heart,
And the ashes are all that remain.
The last thing you will hear,
Is her blood dripping like rain.
You will never truly know,
What she couldn't tell.
She's not in heaven,
For earth is **hell.

Always,
  Tameica Hammick
               7-13-14

Alone and unwanted is how I feel.
Writing these words is how I deal.
I guess it's better than any other way.
Like the one that takes me far away.
To the land of dark and nothing,
But it's better than here where my heart is crushing.
The future is scary but the now is worse.
I don't want to continue living out this curse.
Alone, alone, It's all I think.
It's here, It's there, It's when I blink.
I feel it in each and every bone.
Alone, alone, alone, alone.

just one thing
on my bucket list -
to feel
your hand,
to hear
your voice
when it’s time
to face the dark

I slit my wrist to erase the pain,
you look at me, and think I'm insane,
my eyes turn red, bleeding my tears,
and still you try to protect me from my worst fears.
Look at my scars then you will see,
why I can't seem to go around and fake happy,
yet you tell me you love me, that you'll forget,
for I'll soon be gone, and I'll be your greatest regret.
So let me die, broken and scarred,
I can't deal with life, it's getting far to hard,
everything's gone wrong, it's not worth trying,
so leave me alone because I feel like I'm dying,
I don't want you to worry,
because my life is ending in a hurry,
I'll be fine, and happy you see,
for death is what I wished for and soon it will be
T.L.H

Give  PEACE,
Spread Love,
Stop    War,
Rise  Above ^

6/26/14
<3 Always,
     Tameica  *Hammick

You were you,
and I was I.
and we were two,
before our time.
I was yours,
before I knew.
and you have always,
been mine too.

Tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,
all those things I want to hear.
Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
take away my pain and fear.
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.
Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my armor tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.
Release my soul held deep within . . .
I'm ready now, let love begin.

When i hangout with you,
the sky is not gray.
I walk around,
and think about my day.
But then i stop,
to look down at my feet.
and slowly realize,
theres no more heat.
i spread my arms wide,
but i pull them back in.
my body's so cold,
my head starts to spin.
I could barely feel my heart,
when i imagined him here.
with warm arms around me,
i whispered in his ear.
Listen  to these  words,
cause my heart is beating slow.
This could be our last hug,
so dont ever let me go..

ALways,
        Tameica Hammick

I tried so hard.
I tried my best.
I gave you my all,
and now there's nothing left.

You stole my heart,
then tore it in two.
Now I'm falling apart,
and don't know what to do.

Divided by decisions,
burned by the fire.
Confused by your words.
Tempted by desire.

I'm living in the present.
My mind is on the past.
Not knowing what I'll lose.
Not knowing what will last.

Blinded by fear.
Drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free.
Looking for a way out.....

I care for you,
and it was not intentional.
But I know my feelings,
will always  be perpetual.
I want you to know,
you will soon be sated.
By the time im done with you,
ill be close to being hated.

Day by Day,
night after night.
You're on my thoughts,
and everything I write.
Word for word,
it's always you.
I hope you know,
I miss you Drew.
You make me giggle,
you make me laugh.
take my hand,
lets make our path.
Life's a ***** ,
let's go explore.
We'll open up,
the dungeon door.
We'll fight off zombies,
and rip em to shreds.
Cant wait to play halo,
and cuddle in my bed.
Ill tear off your clothes,
and take you to the moon.
You left me alone today,
But I know you'll be back soon.

<3 Always,
        Tameica Hammick

Today I had a thought,
Today was something new.
Your eyes steal me away ,
Every time I look at you.
You ask me what I see,
I see the details of your heart.
When I travel into your eyes,
It tears me a part.
Im not quite sure what happened,
There's things I still don't know.
Details I fail to mention,
Then the world begins to slow.
Down but not stopped,
Dark but not forgotten.
The details of your eyes,
Are something I get lost in.
The rare feature ,
The reoccurring feelings.
Falling for a man,
Whose eyes constantly steal me.
And every time I wonder,
If the man inside your eyes,
Knows I'm trying to save him,
Does he know I won't let him die?
But suddenly it speeds up,
The world no longer slowing.
The man stands on his feet,
And his strength suddenly growing.
Today was something new,
You tried you did you can.
Be better than the memory,
Of a corrupted neglected man.
So when u ask me what I see,
Every time I look at you.
I wish to say the same,
Today was something new.
You ponder your thoughts ,
Wondering what I see.
Today was something new,
Today you were with me.

read my words, hear my thoughts
let them flow through you,
like a river of raindrops.

read my poems and
they may surprise u,
enter ur head,
like venom inside you.

<3 Always
    Tameica  **Hammick

Walking through the rain,
I try to forget the pain.
I try to ignore,
the sting in my eyes.
Because I know,
a strong girl never cries.

Always, Tameica Hammick.

Since the day we first met,
i knew it was love.
God answered my prayers,
you came down from above.
You gave me your heart,
and taught me to trust.
And for the first time ever,
it was more than just lust.
Your sweet loving words,
are not to be compared.
I am forever your partner,
my soul i have bared.
Everyday i wake up,
with a smile a mile long.
I know that we are solid,
I know that we are strong.

So never put into question,
my feelings being true.
Because, I have found my one and only,
and i will always  love  you.

Enemies at first,
best friends the second time.
She's so much like me,
a couple years back in time.
Advice i give to her,
i know i should be taking.
for me its hard to do,
i guess cause id be faking.
The things we've both been through,
the feelings and the lies.
the choices that we made,
the times we both cried.
Attempting to help eachother,
get past what has begun.
just trying to get through,
what's already begun.

Always,
              Tameica Hammick.    12-14-09

You held me when I was born,
but let go after I grew.
still trying to remember,
cause you're the man I never knew.
The only memories I have,
are from the pictures I see.
the ones covered in  dust,
the few of you and me.
I can never remember,
the event of when it was took.
Each picture was a mystery,
as I flipped through our scrapbook.
It hurt me deep inside,
The little girl you left long ago.
The one you once held onto,
until she started to grow.
I know now fifteen years later,
what I didn't know then.
Every girl needs her father,
from beginning to end.

Always,
    Tameica Hammick.

Your heart may be broken,
your tears may run dry.
But remember that whoever it was,
who had made you cry.
That it is their loss,
That they don't deserve you.
So just remember that,
whatever you do.
Love hurts,
but its worth the pain.
The loss is  never greater,
than the gain.
Be strong now,
things will get better.
Its stormy now,
but it cant rain forever.
The sun may set,
the sun may rise.
they are the sun,
you are the skies.
They enter your life,
and temporary dazzle you.
Then they leave and reveal,
stars that are loyal and true.

If only the sun was out,
to brighten up my day.
Bending the bloomed flowers,
as the sweet scent comes my way.I cry to show my pain,
and close my eyes to hide.
So nobody can feel,
how I truly feel inside.
They can see my tears fall,
but can't feel my pain within.
Hoping everything will be over,
when my eyes finally open.
I look out the window,
and sweet flowers fill my nose.
I dream someday someone,
will present me with a rose.
I lay thinking on my bed,
whenever we start to fight.
but when I go to sleep,
sweet dreams through out the night.
I decided to close the window,
cause nothing is what it seems.
That's why we close our eyes,
when we kiss, cry, or dream.

Always,
       Tameica Hammick.

Read* my thoughts,
let them flow into your mind.
For there are no flaws,
in these words u can find.
So click upon my name,
and read these words so true.
For it will be a decision,
that I think you should just do. (:

When I look at life,
so happy and free.
Sometimes I see that,
but sometimes I just see me.
I look in the mirror,
so far from perfection.
I look at myself,
but there's a different reflection.
The image of a girl,
who has a lot of friends.
Likes life the way it is,
and knows how to fit in.
But, if you look closer,
you'll see what I see.
The image of a girl,
who has been hurt repeatedly.
Her past has consumed her,
made her cry about her life.
So caught up in her lies,
she cant find the path that's right.
Somewhere in my journey,
I took a wrong turn.
I made bad choices,
and hurt others in return.
Looking at myself now,
With tears streaming down my face.
The image of a girl,
not making those same mistakes.

Always, Tameica Hammick.

As I sit her with little to do,
My mind is filled with thoughts of you.
As I work hard throughout the day,
I miss your smile that's miles away.
As I lay down and try to sleep,
It's memories of you I always keep.
You must know my love is true,
I spend all my time missing you.

When im around you,
I have no regrets.
And the look in your eyes,
I could never forget.
When I said " I love you",
my heart skipped a beat.
My mind went racing,
and I could hardly breathe.
My mind said Run,
but my feet said stay.
When you said it back,
everything was okay.
But, now it seems different,
these past couple of days.
I feel like you're starting,
to push me away.
Writing this now,
feeling ready to cry.
Not knowing what I did,
and wondering why?

Always,
     Tameica Hammick. 11-16-09

This is what I feel,
having hate in my heart.
I got told nobody cared,
and it tore my life apart.
I appreciate my mom,
she did the best she could.
Giving me the gift of life,
and being there when no one else would.
I didn't know I was loved,
by more than just her.
But by the family I didn't know,
the one that's just a blur.

Always,
    Tameica Hammick.

Can't you see I'm hurt inside,
Hope that fell, love that died.
Words unspoken, left unsaid,
And as you know that's how it ends.

Unbreathed air left hanging there,
With love like this it seems unfair.
The truth is shattered ,
The silence sealed.
My candle burned out my tears.

My head held high, but no one looked,
I held my ground, and there I stood.
One look my way that's all it took,
To finish the page of my own book.

Do not look back for it's the past,
Just look on straight for there's your path....

Winter is coming
Fall is near
Each as inevitable
But together quite clear..
Leaves are turning color
The trees are during slow
It's colder every day
And it's only began to snow
Winter is coming or so they say
We've yet to see and already snowflakes
Drop all over and it can't be just me
It's cold, quiet and yet I feel assured
I know flowers will bloom and everything will be warm .
Occurring every year is what the seasons have in store.

It's almost dark,
I think I might burst.
I don't like to sleep,
waking up is the worst.
Ill fall asleep,
thinking of you.
Dreaming of things,
that we would do.
But as I wake,
I shed a tear.
because I awake,
without  you  here.

Always,
      Tameica Hammick. date unkown

Standing on the edge
Water at my toes
I look at you and think
I wonder if he knows.
I look at you
You look at me
Nothing is said
But you're all I see
Your eyes consume me
I swim in them forever
I'd rather be here with you
No matter the weather.
Holding my hand
Pulling me in your direction
Silently I wait
For all of your affection

Eleven : Eleven
make a wish
for this is a time,
that no one should,
ever miss.

Do you see my eyes,
when they water up?
Can you see through my heart?
When it starts to hurt?
Can you feel my pain?
From all your hurtful words?
Do you even think twice?
Or give a second look?
Do you see me flinch?
When you raise a hand?
Can you even try to understand?
Do you see any good in me?
Other than when I do chores?
Do you even recognize,
me as your daughter anymore?
Your love it hurts me,
causes me pain deep inside.
That I don't even have a dad,
and you constantly make me cry.
You're barely my mother,
cause mom's love their daughters.
You should just give me up,
so you'd never have to be bothered.


Always, Tameica Hammick

Read and Reread a page in a book,
Each and every line.
Memorize every letter,
Until they intertwine.
Take a little break,
Then do it all over again.
Until the tears soak up the words,
And you can't find where you begin.
Though blind with tears,
And haunted by fears,
Every thing starts to clear.
You can not put in,
What does not fit in,
Or unwrite that which has been written.
So back to the book once again
Remembering  the damp crumbled words
To know how it will begin,
To tear you apart just at the end
To constantly remind yourself as you have been
rereading a page will not become unwritten.
Will not change the words ,
Or make them listen,
Go on skip ahead
Read from the heart
This is where you wanna begin
This is where it should always start.
**** the begining **** the end
Let's just meet half way.
But even this of course would be
Just not the proper way
Even when you chose to start
You took the time to reread every part
Even the pieces that broke your heart
And  even knowing when you start again
It'll never be possible to rewrite the end.

You may see me struggle
but you won't see me fall.
Regardless if I'm weak or not I'm going to stand tall.
Everyone says life is easy
but truly living it is not.
times get hard,
people struggle
and constantly get put on the spot.
I'm going to wear the biggest smile
even though I want to cry.
I'm going to fight to live
even though I'm destined to die.
and even though it's hard and I may struggle through it all.
you see me struggle...you will NEVER see me fall.