Tales of a Broken Girl

Tales of a Broken Girl Nov 2013

It came back
Haunting her
She tried to hide
But it came back
What does she do now
What can you do?
Give up

She thought it was over
It was supposed to be over
Why isn't it over
They said
They told her
It would be over
And she believed them
So stupid
Because she later found out
When you dance when the Devil you never escape...

Tales of a Broken Girl Nov 2013

Good Enough

I am the diamond you left in the dust
I am the future you lost in the past
It's all your fault
Your fault
I just never compare
With no receipt I disappear

You stole the love
That I saved for my self
Tore it up
As I watched you give it to someone else
Why would you do that to me
You put out the light I had in my heart

But these scars
I no longer hide
I found the light
That you tried to hide away
You couldn't love me if you tried

But I'm still not good enough
I am still not worth that much
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
I'm sorry for the smile I'm wearing out
Because I'm still not good enough

Does it burn?
Knowing I used all the pain
Does it hurt?
Knowing you were the wood to my flame
Don't look back
I really don't need your regrets
Because you're not sorry
You never were

So its time
To release your curse
Because I know my worth
And I never win
But that's ok

You want the best
So sorry
That's clearly not me
But this is all I can be

So I'm sorry
Go
Please
Just leave

Tales of a Broken Girl Nov 2013

Bad Boy's II

I guess I'm the one who set the tone
I have to stop that
Fight back
You're not getting away with that
You think you just get to leave
While I'm the broken one sitting at home

Oh now you're ringing up my phone
And I want to call back
But I leave it
Because I don't have the time for that

It's so funny how the tables turn
When you're the one that gets to be left alone
Telling me you love me
The next day you leave me
Is that how you think this works?
You get what you want
And then leave
You just leave me

You tell me
"I'll do anything baby"
Yeah sure you will
You'll do anything
To get in my pants
When are you going to learn
To be a man
Not a ****

And my friends tell me
You need to go forget that boy
Just forget that boy
You know a bad boy isn't good enough for you
He put those tears in you're eyes
And he says he going to fight
But I never see him fighting for you
You need to realize what you're worth
And maybe you'll see
That he's no good for you

And maybe they are right
You are no good for me
You're like a drug
A curse
Toxic
And I'm addicted
And I have to face the fact
That when I leave
I'll still be broken
I'll still have a little piece of you
Haunting me
*Forever

Tales of a Broken Girl Nov 2013

Bad Boy's

Do remember what you said
I do
You told me
You were never going to hurt me
Here we go again
Break up
Make up
It's time for me to wake up
I guess its time to call you out
Look how many times you've let me down

Were you the one who said I was beautiful?
That I was perfect
Amazing
Worth fighting for, Yeah totally
When you wanted something.
And please
Don't say one more word
Or I might go crazy

Things used to be different
What happened to that?
It just stopped
Everything just stopped
Because you saw how weak I was
How vulnerable I was
You knew that if you could get me to trust you
You could get anything you wanted

I'm here to tell you that **** is over
Because I finally opened my eyes
And I need to forget you
Because a bad boy isn't good for me
I'm holding back the tears in my eyes
And you say you wanna fight
For me
But I never see you fighting it through
And I guess you'll never realize what you've got
Until it's gone
Because I am not a charity award
And I am definitely no ones
******* toy.

Tales of a Broken Girl Nov 2013

Prince Charming

One day
I'm going to meet a boy
And he's going to see
How badly I dance
Why I only eat popcorn
With orange juice
And how out of style I am
He's going to hear
My loud
Annoying
Singing voice
When I think nobody's home
My crying
When their words get to me
And
All the dreams
I hope to accomplish
Before I die

He'll be there
When know one is
He'll be their
When those thoughts come into my mind
But most importantly
He'll be their
At night
To lay next to me
Whisper in my ear
Wrap his arms around me
And tell me
He loves me
But until then
I'm on my own
And the scary part is
*I don't know if he will ever come

Thoughts that come to mind when police sirens wake you up at 12am

Tales of a Broken Girl Oct 2013

Remember

If any of you feel ugly
Just remember
At least you don't look like me...
Have a nice day

I'm just saying

Tales of a Broken Girl Oct 2013

In between

I found out today
That reds my color
Especially when its on my arms
In lines that nobody can see but me
Because
Oh yeah I forgot...
They're not really there
Because I decided a long time ago
That the razor makes more pain
Then what I already go through
So I'll just ******* my way through life
Always in between
Self harm and being ok
You see
What they're missing is the middle
Where's the in between?
Oh yeah thats right
You can't be
Its one or the other
Black or white
There is no in between

So what happens to me?
I just get to suffer
Because who wants to help someone
Who can't make up their mind
So uncertain
That they can't even decide if they want to live or not
No one
No one wants to help them
So no one does
And I do this alone
Just like everything else
Always teetering in between life and death
As if its that hard of a decision...
But it is
They just don't understand...