last night was exciting, tussling through the covers. i remember the covers moving smoothly over my body as i gently play on my kitten.
soft touches i began to moan i realize that this is better fun then with someone it seems that i can really get the cat to purr.
my favorite music in the background cheering me on thinking i'm not stopping ill have to play another slow jam as the beat speeds up i move my hand faster i'm in the zone.

mysterious lover hidden in the darkness , with  that sad look on your face that I remember when I think of you.
beautiful lies said to each other to become closer.
when was the last time you danced acapella .
dark rose im taken by your essence, its amazing how you continue to pull me in with strings of deception but the illusion is making me want the honest you.
I cant give up on us, I have tried and I just keep coming back for you.
why do I call you dark rose, its because you been beaten by love drained from trusting and left with sad images that you cant seem  to let go of.
dark rose you re still a rose to me .

Sometimes a open heart leads to heartache,
A open mind gets you through the pain.
Thoughts of not wanting to be alone.
People say be patient with love,
I find myself rushing into relationships.
Thinking they will love me better than the last.
Disturbed details about your experience with old lovers,
Keeps me grateful you haven't given up on us.
He's left with shadows of old lovers,
They follow us broken,secrets only we know.
I try to run they haunt me with remembrance of how i used to feel while in love.
I guess this is why i call this love broken shadows.

I'm African American , a chocolate covered brown .
My sister a deep dark.
We may all be African American but we all are different shades this isn't to make war within the race but to ignite a passion for our differences .
Your beautiful no matter what color
I'm strong minded , my thoughts are set in stone
I'm a long kisser.
I'm bold.

im captured by brilliance,
your intelligence pulls me like rivers ever flowing.
i indulge in your company.
beautiful lady why are you hidden from love?
is it because youve lost hope while i remained a hopeful romantic.
driven by the thought.
im here like a knight in shining armor ready to devour your thought of deception and mis guidance.
you ask me do i need you.
Yes i need you , i want you and im only persuading you to stay.
knowing you youll read this poem thinking its all game and im lame for not saying this to your face.
maybe your right but what i feel words cant express.

those who are content , with those that lick they lips.
and switch they hips.
gets girls that are superficial.
give you headaches like a menstrual.
so teach the young men principals,
but with this pencil i intend a break through, hopefully i can reach the youth,
theres more to life than a hand bag, i see old hags trying to keep up with the fads.
we need more moms , dads to look up to.
we seen what slavery does to the mental keeps you closed minded and fearful.
but with this pencil i intend a break through.
mothers raise your daughters to be more than glamorous and trendy.
give them vaules that will honor them and build there communities.
then people would see how pretty its the sprit that glows with in you that makes you beautiful.

die stress caused by old lovers, that remind me of heart ache.
unlike the deceased i feel your touch soothing me like a mother, to her new born.
with every lie i morn forgiveness this relationship is unhealthy.
die agony from lost words our conversations are uneasy, you lie to me instead of the truth.
i have to bury us and what was once shared. even though im living prof of excactly what love can do if its not with someone who cares about you.

How beautiful .
Your eyes I mean.
they can see the real and right past the fake.
Your eyes dreamy.
yet looking in them all i can think of is thoughts of lust.
Must you look at me that way eyes that say come ****.
How seductive.
Are you from a island ?
can you tell me.
where?
so I can meet a girl that has eyes just like them.
Well boys and girls wonder nomore I'm from a place like heaven where the sun never stops shinning and the waters warm. Where woman are queens draped in jewelry.  
Animals run freely.
But don't be content .
I'm homeless when there's no one to look upon .
That's when days grow long and lonely.
See I'm a strong believer that eyes are the window to the soul.
So lets gaze into each other eyes until there is nomore secrets, read me like an open book but as you turn the pages make sure your gentle.
you might just see my Skeltons.
**** it we all have sinned.
But unlike you I don't care who sees them.

Frustration the agony of being alone
Ever since you left there has been a empty space in my home.
Lost for words I find myself able to still say I love you.
Mom its been hell I never knew just how strong of a woman you were because you kept me sheltered.
Thanks that was your way of protecting me.
I remember being afraid of growing up not wanting to get old,My biggest worry now I'm slumped with worries,
not knowing where my help will come from so I treat people right just like you taught me.
being a big girl takes more then saying your grown.
I realize every day I'm growing.
I wish I had you here to hear you say change is coming.
I  tell you, shes brave and I'm trying to be just as brave .
Oh I talked to dave he's doing alright not drinking I guess he found the light.
I've changed too not that little **** that kept  on embarrassing you.
Not much to say I know your watching from heaven saying that's it she's finally getting it.

So thoughtful in the choice of his words not to hurt anyone feelings,
Why can't you stop beating around the bush.
So humble with everyone and thing always understanding things could be worst.
Why not see situation for what they are . ive come to realize that your the type of guy I can't stand your so one sided not letting my point of view in.
I just want to kick you . Telling you  how I feel is giving me a rush,
Better yet being with you is like having a rash one that you scratch until the skin cracks.
And your ******* cuddling drives stevie wonder to see,
to  be or not to be was the question whenever we were togather.
Your behavior was unbearable always complementing and asking of my welfare. Even if I told you I didn't care you would just try and fix it another one of your conversations about work it out .
So **** quite you could hear the **** birds cherp when asked any personal questions .

i know your pain i over dig your struggle. but you have to evaluate and seach your heart and do better .
men lie and so do women. that doesnt mean that  money only matters.
cause gods coming back to clean up this disaster.
remember your worth become something.
strength lies within you. you are beautiful. its something about you.
i to have a song to sing no longer have thoughts that no ones listening,
obama in chair that was a wonderful year the hood knew now they can do anything.
but it starts with you cant wait for another malcom or martin luther king, just keep your dream .

you wrote  me  a letter with you signature
in that letter was lines of lust. this lust was deep you talked about .. curves ,breast , lips
i read on and thought **** he moves me with so much passion i sworn it was because he loved me
because i was the only woman that feed him songs of freedom . freedom from the chains of pain
late nights of running through each others  minds.
you wrote  me a letter with your signature in that letter was lines of secrets you talked  about  your past i read on
then understood i couldnt be your little secret anymore. i would have to leave you alone you wrote me a letter with your signature in in that letter was lines of mysery the paper wet from your tears  and in bold letter was the reason why. you said the lost of compassion kept you up late. tossing and turning in bed. and that you havent ate .
you wrote me a letter  with your signature in that letter was lines of love. deep love that you wanted to experience. love that wasnt judging  but  forgiving . i read thet letter thinking we could have done better. grab my hand i can take you back to your begining when you and i were kings and queens
at the bottom was a p.s. stating that you have moved on.
and what we shared had been lost.
that time was wasted being with me. you needed space to breathe. and thats when i knew that the writing was not about me.

its like a summer day when i see your smiling face
who grabs my attention like you. that even i cant slow the pace of my heart rate
the taste of your lips rich wine that i can get drunk. and never become sober
its like a day in fall when you and i talk laughing until the tears run down , as the cool wind brushes against me
i look at you then say know that no one can take your place  you have established our relationship
and spring comes around when you and i lay in bed no *** just a simple how was your day? and i reply with a smile it was okay
sometimes winter days come  when we are mad and i cant seem to get through to you
cold touches strong winds of unkind words that ice my soul but none the less you are loved these are the seasons of us.

its like a summer day when i see your smiling face
who grabs my attention like you. that even i cant slow the pace of my heart rate
the taste of your lips rich wine that i can get drunk. and never become sober
its like a day in fall when you and i talk laughing until the tears run down , as the cool wind brushes against me
i look at you then say know that no one can take your place  you have established our relationship
and spring comes around when you and i lay in bed no *** just a simple how was your day? and i reply with a smile it was okay
sometimes winter days come  when we are mad and i cant seem to get through to you
cold touches strong winds of unkind words that ice my soul but none the less you are loved these are the seasons of us.

to take you back would be more than telling you i love you
it would be telling you i would drink your bath water
yes ive been a ***** diana but youve been a t.o.n.y
talk weve talked im board with that lets fight
cause what you say you tend to not mean
ive dreamed of the white house and picked fence with me as your wife
dream is now a nightmare me in your life was a waste of time
i remember when i would call you would sing ill roll up
now the songs are dark and filled with gloom cause you didnt appricate
me better yet my love
whats wrong with my love was it not keeping you.holding you when it was cold
did it not need you. did it not tell you you were the only one
i except you and your son a better mother then she was
encouraged you hell matured you mr im 32
matter fact youll miss me when nights are drunk with sadness and you turn to my side of the bed and im gone
youve missed behaved love

hey handsome with african features that brought me home
i used you for what its worth. hearts that never twined togather
kissing you was a pleasure of mine. growing weak with every moment
loving you never experienced. *** with you was me comparing
hey handsome with african features that brought me home
confused wanting to trust, love.  as i try to let go only pushed you further
we held each other hostage that night your hands touched my soul
hey handsome with african features that brought me home
its good bye for now until the stars line up and you are found

Love is kind
I wish To be so kind
Love is forgiving
I wish To be  so forgiving
Love is protection
Love is like a river flowing that you can drink from
I learned that your love is My peace of mind
My joy and pain My hope
Love is correction
Love is you.

i notice you
and i know your type
smooth brown skin that can light up the night
long thick hair, yeah i notice you and i know your type
to go on about the outer would be a waste of time
to bad you didnt notice you to bad you didnt know your kind
your wisdom is inspiring you are of knowledge
i notice you and i know your type
you had to be a queen in your past life while dealing with peasents
that kept you from your present
dare to be differnt, be bold in your decisions
to bad you didnt notice you to bad you didnt know your type
men dream for a woman like you to be their wife
i notice you and i know your type
smile they need to see that you stayed strong when pain striked
to bad you didnt notice you to bad you didnt know your kind.

there it is again that first hit
its like an ******* that takes me to a place such as heaven
drugs why do you have me against my will
wanting to stop but you your like just take your pill
mind boggling how when i leave you alone i only want you more
friends say go to rehab i say hell nah
drugs youll be the death of me, maybe then ill be at peace
i just want the pain to cease, pulling me
the relationship was good at first , there when i needed you
had me on cloud nine my first impression was **** friends, **** men even my mom
not that you failed to do your job
its just that im always high
i dont club or go out to dine, i just sit in my boom boom room and gaze at the sky
thinking could i get as high
nighttimes are the worst stuffing feeling in the dirt
waking up is as dull wishing id died the night before
drugs ******* and what you've done to this mess of a life that i have to clean up
there it is again that first hit.