#stayed
hold space for me-
the floating
dust
and you must forgive me
first before i say this
foremost and disorganized
that i miss you-
did you forgive me?
did you read this?
did you see my note in the margins?
i grew up with you and i stayed
the same without you
now that you're gone;
i changed for the worse with you
but i can't bring myself to move
on
so i kept your scrapbook
under my bed
and i collect the gray dust
settling on top
and i put the floating particles
in a silver box.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 3:53 PM UTC
The shadows stretched across the floor,
A silent weight against the door.
I watched the world through glass and rain,
A master of the numb and vain.
I felt the pulse beneath the wrist,
A hollow beat in morning mist,
But found the truth in a bitter drive:
"That living is not being alive".
The thunder came to claim the sky,
To ask the soul the reason why
We weather storms we didn’t choose,
With everything to gain and lose.
I held my ground while mountains shook,
Beyond the words in any book,
And though the fire scorched the clay,
I found the strength to simply stay.
I walked the halls of my own ghost,
A silent guest, a hollow host.
I wore the mask and played the part,
While silence settled in my heart.
I chased the sun to feel the heat,
But shadows followed at my feet,
A truth I struggled to survive:
"That living is not being alive".
The seasons bled from gold to grey,
As I watched the years just slip away.
I stood amidst the crowd’s loud roar,
Yet felt as lonely as before.
The air was thick, the path was wide,
With nowhere left for me to hide,
Still trapped within a static drive:
"That living is not being alive".
I reached the edge where spirits break,
And felt the earth begin to quake.
I looked into the mirror’s stare,
And saw a stranger standing there.
I realized then, through grit and pain,
That breath alone is spent in vain,
If soul and spirit don't arrive.....
"For living is not being alive".
I chose the climb when the path was steep,
And kept the promises I had to keep.
Through every ache and every fit,
I stood my ground!
I stayed through it!
"Living Is Not Being Alive"
Michael Powers
"STYXX ON FIRE "
Feb 5
Feb 5, 2026 at 7:50 AM UTC
i hoped you would change just a bit
i was naive to think it would stick
you said you would get better if i stayed
but you never gave me space to think
i watched you drink on anti depressants
i watched you smoke joint after joint
i wondered if you were happy here
or just filling a void?
i wondered if love was founded here
or something you avoid
you said you didn’t like me
burn and then ice me
you said you loved me
but your words aren’t sufficing
Oct 23, 2025
Oct 23, 2025 at 7:27 AM UTC
Doesn't matter who
came first in your heart
as long as I was the one
who stayed
true to my love
for you.
you were never
alone...
Jul 13, 2024
Jul 13, 2024 at 2:55 AM UTC
I told her to leave.
I am miserable .
Wont be able to give you anything.
But she stayed...
Now I am more miserable.
Jun 4, 2019
Jun 4, 2019 at 9:59 AM UTC
She come with beauty
She goes with unhappy
As she takes the hearts
She has no mercy
Her heart knows any kindly
She was very smart
She passed and looked
With the end of her sight
The hearts become imprisoned
She ordered ,they obeyed
She talked ,they listened
She pointed ,they raced
She stood ,they stood
She moved ,they followed
She went , they were gone
Who returns that run?
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 7:37 AM UTC
I opened my door to someone
who I thought won't leave.
I was torn apart.
Then you came.
You let yourself in
through the window and stayed.
And I feel alive again.
Aug 21, 2018
Aug 21, 2018 at 11:18 AM UTC
Now I see
What I should have done, what I should have been
I don´t hate you...
I won´t hate you!
I just saw in you and him
What you and I didn´t had
And I´m sorry if i, me, myself was not capable
Of being as good of a ridding angel as he is
i just feel so small right now
As if my heart is about to explode out my chest
it all hurst so much now
how could i waste so much time
in someone who doesn´t even love me
Now I see,
But you don´t see me anymore don´t you...
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 8:39 PM UTC
When you see her
She looks perfectly fine
Look closely into her eyes
You'll see a hundred reasons
No, a million reasons
That you should have stayed.
Jul 23, 2018
Jul 23, 2018 at 8:24 PM UTC
Doesn't matter who
come first in your heart
as long as I was the one
who stayed
true to my love
for you.
you were never
alone...
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 7:22 AM UTC
I still reminisce about that night, that we stayed up
And laughed, joked, and loved each other one more time
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 8:32 AM UTC
W*rapped in silk and satin
she has been waiting
long.
She doesn't expect him
not anymore, but habit
stays.
She nor grins,nor frowns
standing at the end of her lawn
alone.
The day count lost numbers,
lost many days and slumber
hours.
Hope faded, love went,
only she stayed
so far*.
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 5:52 AM UTC
She stayed,
Not because she's
strong.
Because she's
still scarred of
being left.
-HIY
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 5:33 AM UTC
summer's golden orb
stayed for many a long day
its heat so intense
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 7:06 AM UTC
1. Imagine you’re in an oil painting, hung up by just threads of string
This painting is of a beach, off the coast, sea breeze smells of wet sand
Everything’s magical here, the sky burns brighter and his smile seems more relaxed
Here is where I first met his demon
1. They say “it’s **** when he’s rough.”
So, it’s **** when his fist seems like it’s about to break my nose like glass
Or is it hot when the grip on my arm will be a small
Unnoticeable bruise tomorrow
His lips drip toxins like absolute ***** that I’m forced to drink and
His eyes no longer shine like the oil painted sky,
They look like two pits of blue flames burning down a church.
1. When I was backed into a corner, I pretended the walls were cylindrical
And the corners were curves
Matching the body, he presumed I didn’t want and
“make sure to write your food down.”
1. It was the first time I feared my prince,
Of the one who said “your hand is only fit to hold mine” and
Morphed my brain into a puzzle piece for his game.
2. A time when new beginnings occur
The sky lights up like a child in front of birthday candles and
A midnight kiss starts the year off right.
Another brawl, more angry words,
I told him to get away but his ears must have been deaf since all
He heard was “come here”
2. His nails scratched marks into my skin and
my stomach turned in anguish against his chest
when your angel sheds its wings and
the horns appear, don’t pretend they aren’t there.
2. Fear.
My tears streaked down on my evening look but
His eyes singed them up,
Licking each one like sun flares on Mars
And I found myself curled up in a ball of doubt
2. “it’s over. I’m done. I won’t deal with this anymore”
but I made him this way, I turned his baby blues into
terrible twos that grew into his teens.
I made his smile turn to an upside-down rainbow and his arms
into steel gates.
3. Winter wonderlands, where children play make-believe games and
throw harmless snowball blows.
He, wrestled my arms and bruised my heart,
Snatched it from my chest and gnawed it with barred teeth.
I think, demons come in many shapes and his was icing on a
Birthday cake.
His was the ring on my left hand that curled around my finger like
Barbed wire and held snug like a chain linked dog.
3. think of a mother’s whisper, a dad’s sweet song, imagine the sounds of laughter
now ignite it gasoline and you’ll get his voice.
Cutting deeper and deeper into my torn up, ****** up mind.
3. It’s hard to hide in a car with seats greased by leather
Find somewhere to avert your eyes while his
Hands clutch your chin but,
Not in the way that’s “endearing”
No, the way that makes you turn away if seen in public, if seen here,
If seen anywhere.
3. “This won’t happen again”
“I’m here till the end”
“I love you baby”
“Please just come here”
“I would never hurt you”
3 times it happened, 3 times I stayed.
Oct 10, 2017
Oct 10, 2017 at 4:03 PM UTC
In another life,
what if I didn't take
the joke so seriously?
What if I would have been
your friend?
Would I have been
the one to hold
your hand?
Would I have been
the one who you'd
hold in your lap,
a kiss on the cheek,
and a quick 'snap'
from the camera?
Would I have been
the one with a
tattoo on my hand
similar to the one
on yours?
In another life,
what if I hadn't
broken your heart
and cheated from the start?
What if I didn't ruin
your trust issue's and
just had let it go?
Would I be the one
you'd marry?
Would we have that
white picket fence,
big house to match the
big family we dreamed of?
Would I have been
the one to
make you so proud?
In another life,
what if I
was a little nicer?
What if I was a
little braver?
Would it have
made a difference
if I gave you those
booklets of highlighted
places to go visit?
Would it have helped
if I was a little
prettier?
What about if I
was a whole lot more
thinner?
In another life,
who would we all be?
Would I have met you all,
and would you have
let me fall
so dangerously
and cruely?
And would you
make up the three ghosts
that haunt me and
know me the most?
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 1:04 PM UTC
I knew there was someone else
But I stayed
I stayed because you did
If you still loved me why would I leave?
It didn't bother me that we argued like lawyers in bed
Or that my anxiety rose when you came home
I thought that I had nothing to give you but love
And I gave it away willingly
Because I loved you
Anything you wanted I made it my life to get it for you
My sadness only made you angrier
My desolation began when you gave up on us
I wanted you to be happy
And I wanted to be the reason why you smiled
I knew there was someone else because you were happier without me
While I was lost in a world without you
Holding on to the single thread that still held us together
My only hope in life
You let go, and I went flying
Did you even notice when yours eyes began to freeze over when you looked at me
I wonder if you love her like you once loved me
Would she have stayed through all of the pain as well?
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 3:19 PM UTC
i wish you stayed
i wish you didn't push me away
but you did
and i eventually gave up on trying
trying to make you happy
trying to make you forget
i gave up on us
but you? you didn't even think about us
A.C.
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 12:14 PM UTC
**I wait for you to message me everyday day but that one little text from you never comes
I stay waiting for you to see me as more than a friend but you never do
I confess my feeling to you but you don't care because all you see is another girl who is going crazy over you
But what you don't see is the girl who has stayed at your side through thick and thin
And the day I leave will be the day you see what I truly meant to you.**
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 4:30 PM UTC