I wish I could go back
Back to the days where there was no black
Black was just my backpack,
A backpack filled with dreams and love
There was no fear
It was all clear
There were no demons,
Only hope and dreamers
We were happy...
I was happy...
It was geniune...
Now it´s only a mixed feeling of emotions that i cannot explain,
And will never be able to do so...
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 6:26 PM UTC
If we fight
Let the words fall on their own
Cause deep inside us
The only place to hide
Is in each others heart
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 6:49 PM UTC
A Quiver Of Hope Stabbed My Heart
When through the dark of my soul
Your purity teared me apart
Where is my soul, Where is my bliss
I´m floating in the pain river, I´m in the abyss
Can´t control myself
What the **** am I supposed to do
Walk along with the others?!
Study,
Work,
Sleep,
Cry all night cause I´m the black sheep?
We live our lifes through a loophole
A tunnel that tears our soul
Do you wanna stand here and just wait?
Or do you wanna go and hate?
Cause I can´t stand myself if I stay here alone with all of you
Cause that´s what we are doing right?
We´re together but alone
cause the loop won´t end
and I just want to comprehend
How to not get myself blown
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 12:09 PM UTC
Now I see
What I should have done, what I should have been
I don´t hate you...
I won´t hate you!
I just saw in you and him
What you and I didn´t had
And I´m sorry if i, me, myself was not capable
Of being as good of a ridding angel as he is
i just feel so small right now
As if my heart is about to explode out my chest
it all hurst so much now
how could i waste so much time
in someone who doesn´t even love me
Now I see,
But you don´t see me anymore don´t you...
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 8:39 PM UTC
If I **** myself now
Will you be there to feel my own self anyhow
If I lose myself now
How bearly will you feal when I'm gone and not found
I'm gonna **** myself somehow
I just hope you can couope
With my demons, with myself
The self that died cause he never felt held
I ruined my life as I ruined yours
Now I'm doomed to live in a abyss
My kingdom of infinite pain
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 2:30 PM UTC
How can you feel?
if you don´t feel at all
How can you live
if you don´t live at all
it´s not my fault I´m like this
or is it?
I can´t feel I can´t live my life
I tried everything from singing
to dancing
even doing drugs
but nothing touches my heart
do I even have one?
do I even exist?
Do WE exist?
i hope so
Cause you´re the only thing that makes me feel and be alive
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 5:13 PM UTC
i´m scared
i´ts not fair
i got into you
but you left me in there
is this hell?
wait a minute?
it´s your ******* heart
now i remember why i left you
and traded you for a new start
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 6:31 PM UTC
Lost is just a vage word to describe
Were we are right now
Cause being lost is not being able to find
Something you know it´s good for you
But where´s that for myself?
Where do I find what´s good for me when I cannot even get lost
Where´s me?
Myself?
My soul?
Will I die tomorrow?
Will I get old?
I cannot get lost in me....
How can I get lost in this world?
I cannot find myself in me....
HOW CAN I FIND MYSELF IN THIS WORLD?
The feeling of being dead it´s what I think being lost is
Because dying is not knowing what to expect after
And right now I don´t know what to expect
I hope someday I can be lost...
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
I saw someone die the other day
Someone talked to me,
said he was gone,
there´s nothing we can do now
but in my mind never I tought
that his soul was lost
cause he was stil alive in our minds
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 6:12 PM UTC
I just saw god,
not your god
not mine either
it was our god
the good god that makes us gooder
outside the licor store,
he was catching some air
after he was done killing with is stair
he told me i was lost,
I said the only lost soul here
was his
cause god is fake
and he lead me and us to our ending
he traded love and peace
from war and vengeance amongst us
he was the reason we hate
he was the reason we take
and he was the reason i wrote this poem
cause god should be written with a minor g
as him should not be more important then we
Jun 15, 2018
Jun 15, 2018 at 8:06 PM UTC