#heartbrake
I lay wanting to have you in my arms
I lay wondering what we would’ve have
I lay in distress
I lay
I wanted to meet you
Nov 1, 2023
Nov 1, 2023 at 12:38 AM UTC
Do you know how love
cloaks with a magic coat.
When it suffocates
the human heart
we know
she's too fat.
Jun 6, 2020
Jun 6, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
I can feel you
but not as I once did
Absent is
the intertwining passionate
euphoria of two
minds, bodies, souls,
uniting
in energy, in ecstasy
I sense you withdrawing
piece by piece
Your essence, your brilliance
growing dimmer
I struggle to hold you
grasping wildly
for any shred
I can catch, and feel, and hold close
Conversations and innuendos persist
but in them lies a hollowness
A new space between us
our depth moving upward to the surface
I watch you fade from me
You no longer call me by my deity
Once so attuned
Words rendered unnecessary for understanding
But now
I beg for some connection
and don’t even receive a reply
May 27, 2020
May 27, 2020 at 11:54 PM UTC
the
difference
between
tequila sunrise
and
tequila before sunrise
is
a
broken
heart
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 11:27 AM UTC
You broke me and I admit it...day in day out chasing after you gets exhausting, trust me I get it. This relationship we have may very well be toxic, but I knew in the beginning when we first started this... this TORTUROUS game that you handed me, wothout a book of rules, because I learned the cost of it...But at the end of the day that game is the only thing that makes it worth being alive.... I'm trying to find a way out, a way to dance my way through without as much pain, a way to live without so much sorrow, a way to be ALIVE, because I don't want to JUST survive...anymore... but your voice so sweet and tempting, wrapping me up, pulling me in, leaving me with goosebumps and butterflies..... Its bliss... But love your games can be so cruel...you seemingly throw yourself at some and abandon others to rot, cold and alone, with nothing more than empty promises to keep them warm... Love you are bittersweet... But somehow I can't seem to get enough.
Jan 8, 2020
Jan 8, 2020 at 4:28 PM UTC
This was the prettiest I've ever seen you.
It was the most passionate we ever got.
The greatest hug you ever gave me.
The saddest goodbye I ever said.
Last Night broke me.
It broke me in so many ways.
And it might be some time,
Till I'm ok.
Your neck, your thighs, your lips.
It was that night you never want to forget.
Something I wish went on till today, tomorrow.
Why was it the end?
Last night was your last goodbye.
Your last kiss. Your last hug.
The last I love you.
The end of what we are.
I long for the day you come back.
That will be it.
I could kiss you.
I could say I love you again.
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 10:19 AM UTC
there is a cupboard in your mothers house
filled with the softest towels one could imagine.
you always said: just pick one!
then i would stand for a little while in front of it
trying to figure out which one would make me feel like home the most.
i loved that.
i'll miss that.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 3:39 PM UTC
i know
i must let you go
disconnect everything
we been
from my soul
get to know
my own again
sit firmly
in my throne and then
be happy
Oct 5, 2019
Oct 5, 2019 at 7:17 PM UTC
I can’t seem to relieve the blues
So stuck upon the edges of my eyes;
Perfume flowers is all you left on my hand,
Their fragrance of Innocence
Is fainter and fainter,
Yet the skies can’t even seem
To bacon back these blues of mine,
It’s a sadness who chooses
To have it’s riverbank
Upon my eyes.
Jun 3, 2019
Jun 3, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
I am here
For you
How shall I help?
What type of balsam do you want?
Sweet injections for your ego?
Or bitter sirups for your soul?
Or maybe an operation in your mind?
But an amputation of your sorrows?
I am not qualified for that!
You have to bear the pain
Pain killers will **** you
Let the feelings sore on
Rot
And fall off
I shall collect them
And throw them away
To the dogs of forgettable times
And the snakes of ellsuive memories
Let them feast
They are hungry
For smelly things
You limp away
And move on
For love can grow again
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 6:16 AM UTC
This sunset reminds me of a story which has no beginning, nor ending but it was a story
lots of words were written with souls
two damaged souls dying to be together
but they were never together, never was, never will be
their hopes became dust
fly through the air
gets into their lungs
choked
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 12:47 PM UTC
You picked me up when I was low,
You took me higher than I’d flown,
But how was I to know,
You would only to let go,
Let me fall so deep,
Then leave me to weep,
Take me so high,
Knowing it was a lie,
Leave me in pain,
Its happened again,
Made me trust you,
Only to brake it,
Told me you loved me,
Only you faked it.
Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 7:34 PM UTC
He fell in love with the wrong girl.
He's never going to know.
His lips burn a thousand degrees.
And hers are made of snow.
They came to an agreement
To keep things on the low.
But together they're a tall rose bush
That's never going to grow.
They winded up the river
Racing against the flow.
Taking breaks between kisses
To row.
He looked at her
Like he was waiting for the wind to blow.
She couldn't bear to see him like this.
She had to let him go.
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
I am a work in progress
a public draft
often edited
for the wrong reasons
by the wrong people
with the worse grammar
-Custodio
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 4:14 PM UTC
A lasting illusion that never fails
hiking through the mountain of cowardice
anger came back and strikes, to tell its side of the story
while frustration doesn't last a second on the stand to wield its case
may Honorable Emotions decide what to do
The Grand Jury has plead the ever so handsome and charming defendant Mr. Lies not guilty
cheering for his grand victory stays home and drinks his daily feed of denial and neglect until he hunts down the next victims for his woe, sorrow and raging desires to be fulfilled
Until next time.... we might save others dear hearts
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 8:56 PM UTC
I do love you a lot
A lot more than what your capable of imagining or perceiving
But it doesn't mean
That i would beg you
To love me in return
If you do not want to
I can cross countless limits
Fight a thousand furious battles
And endure the pain of ghastly looking lacerating wounds for you
But my self worth is more important to me
Than you think
I wont lose it for your half hearted love
I deserve more than that
I hope you'll realize it someday
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 5:32 AM UTC
“I am free”
My icy wings tearing through the dark blue sky, the
permafrosted landscape below me getting smaller and
farther away and the Sun, its warm, amber rays glistening
on the horizon, beckoning me with its warm touch.
I look back-
Every second counts
I look back-
I see your cold eyes
Frozen pits of mud, obsidian, sparkling like diamonds and
just as hard.
Body of steel.
No blood,
No life,
Uncaring
Unfeeling
Scorpion.
Froze my wings with your poison tail, your vicious words
covered in sugar, stabbing.
Stole my heart
Oh how frail I was.
I look back-
At the small castle we built, the fireworks, the rose garden,
the old dusty freight, the dim light of the bar where I asked
you to be mine, the bamboo princess (I still have your
pillow), the food trucks and that homeless guy who is
probably dead, the pictures, the mix-tape, the color yellow,
No Doubt, the empty movie theater, the Moon in
Sagittarius where we held each other so close and you
said I smelled of patchouli and that caused me to feel
happiness because it is one of my favorite scents and I
was so glad you liked it too, the warms nights in your cold,
cold room and your hands, your hands…
Will never freeze my wings again.
I look back-
I became human for you and you acted as if I were just
some pigeon or robin or pheasant, you acted
As if our castle
Was made of sand,
Meant to be dissolved.
But how would I know?
The language you speak is all ones and zeros,
The feelings you feel are all bones and marrows
And I am blood
I am skin
I am emotion, Venus
The beauty within.
I look back-
-at you Pluto
Not even a planet
Cold and frozen with eyes of granite
Wires and copper made up your soul
And unfeeling data rules your flow.
I look back-
I asked you how you felt and received
An error four-oh-four.
That process never mattered to me,
Yet always left me craving more.
I look back-
Were my emotions not obvious?
Or were your feelings ambiguous
Intent so dubious
You viewed me as frivolous
Yet you’re continuous
With your cold touch so ferrous
Incompatible
I could understand…
I look back-
Scorpion, you’ll be okay.
As you sit in your world,
All alone, just like you intended,
You let your past rule you.
I look back-
How could we be friends?
Lovers to friends
From seeing the universe inside of someone
To just hanging out once, maybe twice a week.
No, we cannot be friends because that’s just weird.
I look forward-
The Sun has set.
My wings so cold
They’ll thaw and heal in time
And then, Scorpion, maybe we’ll see each other again.
Mar 4, 2018
Mar 4, 2018 at 6:27 PM UTC
Another person has fallen victim to the heartbroken syndrome.
Not me,
but the girl who’s sitting next to me at the bus station at 1 am in the morning.
The first symptoms she showed were slight.
Constantly staring down at her phone.
Desperation seemed to reflect on her face.
As if waiting for something.
A call.
A text.
Anything.
I knew she had reached stage 2 when she abruptly stood up.
Paced back and forth.
Back and forth.
Back and forth.
Not caring about anyone who watched.
Calling someone who clearly would never answer her.
The more she dialed, the more sick she got.
She escalated pretty quickly to the final stage once she bursted into tears.
Looking for reasons as to why everything went wrong.
Sobbing her eyes out.
As her body and feelings gave out.
Letting fall one last tear.
While she gave her last sigh.
She’s not the first victim I’ve seen.
I myself have fallen prey to this disease.
It is an illness that everyone is bound to have,
at least once in their lifetime.
And she will have to learn that,
The only cure,
The only antidote,
The only remedy,
Is time.
Feb 4, 2018
Feb 4, 2018 at 10:17 AM UTC