#dissapointment
NO— a scream silenced.
Trembling, tears flowing, a girl stands—
amidst similar screams of people.
Arms hugging herself,
her legs dragging her body out.
The street light reflecting on her,
like a star that has reached—
its end.
Ashen birds land on her shoulder,
like a sturdy branch she stands.
I feel nothing but experienced everything—
with her
What was I?
From her lips curling,
until her eyes let out an ocean—
I watched everything.
Inseparable from her, yet also not—
noticed.
I was there always, yet not taken seriously.
Why? Why do I feel this rage?
Am I not just her—
shadow
that she will never turn to see.
Raziel Vale
Apr 30
Apr 30, 2026 at 1:10 PM UTC
i sob.
disappointed, maybe.
but all i know
all i truly know
is that i sob.
it happened again.
i swore it wouldn’t.
i swore it in the dark
like an oath to no one,
or maybe to the god of time,
but it happened again.
i know, you knew all the words i called myself
they’re true now.
they were always true
they echo on my mouth.
on my mind,
heavy like metal, but ***** like rust.
but there was a time,
a time where I didn’t count days.
there was a time,
where I lived in the lamb’s soft fur,
away from fear.
there was a time,
where you were graced to look at me.
oh, but how the god of time is cruel!
he simply watches, and he knows everything.
but the only thing
the only thing that I truly know,
is that right now,
I sob.
Feb 15
Feb 15, 2026 at 5:13 PM UTC
The critic of life,
ordered for an interview with me,
ecstatic for all my awaiting honesty
I sat down and poured him a piping tea,
then slapped him with cold words of misfortune,
and lost glee
he did not seem suprised,
though he did put on his hat and start to leave
for he had heard it all before,
and was no longer in me intrigued.
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 8:24 AM UTC
this year, another,
time grows, yet she remains,
hopes for a harvest,
yet dead crops
in unmoved soil.
the wind carries,
and unwillfully
takes her along.
this year,
intended as the great,
somehow feels like
a bird who's lost melody.
fearfully, blindly,
walks into those doors,
not wanting to go beyond,
yet still wants to leave
those timeless tears.
Jun 9, 2025
Jun 9, 2025 at 12:41 PM UTC
She wanted to hang out today
but guess what, he was sleeping
i hate him so much
i hate how he looks when hes dreaming
she wanted to kiss him
but was to scared
what if they see and he gets trouble
"im just wondering why haven't you kissed me yet"
i swear i wanted to kiss you
and the thing is we've kissed before
actually we've done a bit more
but that day i just couldn't
and im sorry i was sleeping
i think i was trying to forget
how much i miss you
Jan 19, 2025
Jan 19, 2025 at 6:17 AM UTC
A notebook in my hand
A Monster in the other
What would think of me,
My precious absent mother?
Would she be proud?
Or rather dissapointed?
The answer is neither.
She wouldn't care.
Nov 25, 2024
Nov 25, 2024 at 2:34 PM UTC
I am only Human,
Yes, things can go wrong,
Yes, I do get frustrated, but
I try to be strong.
When things don't go right,
Yes, I do get really mad,
It makes me feel really sad,
It makes me feel
irritated, aggravated
The situation can be bad.
But that's Okay because
We have all been there,
When you gave it your All and
now you just don't care.
If it doesn't work out,
there's always a solution
To figure it out and
bring it to a Resolution
When you've tried
everything and you just
don't understand if it doesn't
work out
just remember:
I AM ONLY HUMAN
B.R.
Date: 9/22/2024
Sep 22, 2024
Sep 22, 2024 at 12:55 PM UTC
Oh Happy Day
What a very Happy day
Now, how many laps do I have to take
And how many acts could I actually save
til I one day savor it
Here, take your HATE you can cradle it
Ive been an angel of patience
still stuck in prayer
Theyll say
she is so much safer
without the danger there
waiting to break
her
Pain is simply in her nature
Apr 30, 2024
Apr 30, 2024 at 1:13 AM UTC
you used to tell me how much you
liked my eyes and sight, just to end
up making them sore and lose their brightness.
you said you had no intentions of hurting me
but here am i, crying till im out of breath.
you said you loved me and that i made you
happy, but you still left me for her.
So tell me, how am i suppose to trust
and love another human being when none of
it was real...
Jan 5, 2023
Jan 5, 2023 at 1:26 PM UTC
This morning tomorrow won't be as expected - it will be far from this tonight and nowhere near as planned. There's no telling when it will be back to its old self. So for now, we'll make do and sleep and dream of another yesterday, because today won't do. It never did. It never would.
Mar 12, 2022
Mar 12, 2022 at 7:00 PM UTC
𝑰'𝒎 𝒕𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒇 e̶v̶e̶r̶y̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶.
𝑪𝒂𝒏 𝑰 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒏𝒂𝒑?
𝑨 𝓅ℯ𝒶𝒸ℯ𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒐𝒏𝒆?
𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝑰 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒆𝒏𝒅 ᴀʟʟ ᴍʏ ᴀɢᴏɴʏ 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒆?
𝑺𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝑰 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒚 ጠሃነቿረቻ 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒅?
𝑩𝒖𝒓𝒚 🅜︎🅨︎🅢︎🅔︎🅛︎🅕︎ 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒈𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕?
𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 🅴︎🅽︎🅳︎ 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍,
𝑬𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 ꪑ𝓲𝘴ꫀ𝘳ꪗ 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰'𝒗𝒆 𝒌𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈.
𝑳𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒉𝒐𝒘 b̸r̸o̸k̸e̸n̸ 𝑰 𝒂𝒎,
𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 ꎭꀤ꒒꒒ꀤꂦꈤꌚ ꪮᠻ 🄿🄸🄴🄲🄴🅂 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏.
f̶r̶u̶s̶t̶r̶a̶t̶e̶d̶, 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔
𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 ᵉˣᵖᵉᶜᵗᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿˢ 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇.
Ⓘ︎ 𝒂𝒎 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒚 sʍɐlɟ,
𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒐 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 𝒏𝒐𝒓 𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕.
𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 n̸o̸ 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆,
𝕴 ᵃᵐ ɐ f̸a̸i̸l̸u̸r̸e̸.
Jun 3, 2021
Jun 3, 2021 at 8:58 PM UTC
Lusteloos, liever dan pijn
*** zou het morgen zijn
Kijkend door het raam
naar mijn weerspiegeling vol schaam
Wetende dat er iets moet veranderen
maar bang om terug te vallen
Te bang om iets nieuws te ondernemen
Te gewend aan de leegte
Iets nieuws, avontuurlijks, positiefs
met kriebels van hoop
en de klim naar het licht
die doorhakken de knoop
en bieden nieuw zicht
lijkt nooit definitief
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 5:31 PM UTC
To the once blooming violet, is it true?
Will she succumb her petals to the burden of time?
Will I be witness to the ripples of this crime?
Is the storm to drown her in skies darkened blue?
Why is the savior the one to endanger?
Why is the heartsease the one heartbreaker?
Why is the kind spirit the true soul shaker?
Why is my best friend to become a stranger?
How can she lose against the clutches of temptation?
When was the divine cursed with humanity?
How could the listener speak with inanity?
When was our friendship twisted into damnation?
Will an invasive **** be victorious in his heist?
Is the **** to convince her of his illusive might?
Is he ******* her salve, to my abysmal fright?
Will I rot of envy from the disgraceful tryst?
Why is life’s story a destiny written in stone?
Why can’t I change the demise plagued within?
Why should her scent become my eternal toxin?
Why shall it degrade me from my flesh ‘til my bone?
How was I yearning for the bliss of her design?
When was I seeded with this addiction?
How was it dreamt into endless affliction?
When did Violet and Lost Girl begin to intertwine?
Epilogue:
And did the lost girl tiptoed through the darkened fields?
Was her in search of the warmth of the sun’s yield?
Did she reach the water? Was it her escape?
Was a giant lily in the wait?
Was it a doomed attempt? No heat, no win?
Were her burdens too heavy? Did she sink in?
And forever bound, was this betrayal to restrain her way?
Or was it a promise of the past to save her day?
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 8:46 AM UTC
"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"
Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.
Sep 14, 2020
Sep 14, 2020 at 8:05 AM UTC
With every step there’s pain
With every stumble there’s disappointment
The day may beat down on us
As the moon and sun dance around
Controlling the world from up above
And there will be days
When your strength might be gone
But with every step there’s hope
And with every stumble we build the courage
To be something more than we ever hoped
As the Earth and the planets
Circle around the celestial galaxies
We should count ourselves so lucky
As least we were here to see it
Aug 21, 2020
Aug 21, 2020 at 3:29 AM UTC
I'm tired of impressing people, or trying to I mean.
But once I win someone over, I'm bored of them
Aug 7, 2020
Aug 7, 2020 at 12:02 AM UTC
I was so sad
But now I'm mad
There's nothing that can change that,
This time last year
I held you near
And now I'm staying clear,
Too near, too close
Everytime we touched I froze
By the end of that we lost our clothes,
There was no promise of your heart
I got too close, forgot that part
We didn't want to be apart,
I told you how I felt one day,
You told me that you felt the same
From then it all went up in flame,
You held my face
I felt your grace
"You are enough" you told me,
Looked in my eyes
Kissed me so lightly
The world just stopped around me,
You could chose us
Since then you've hurt me more than once
The choice you made just showed your lies,
It's like I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time will need to pass
For us to be ok at last,
Don't think we'll be ok at all
You've added to my big black hole
By chosing her to call your home.
Oct 26, 2019
Oct 26, 2019 at 4:55 AM UTC
Everybody tells you from the moment you're born.
When you grow up, do what you're best at.
But honestly, I could've sworn.
That I never intended to be a brat.
Everybody tells you to keep your dreams real.
To not expect fairytales to be true.
So I always made it a big deal.
To push my dream and pull me through.
Everybody tells you to live your dream.
The bodies I walked over.
Even though I heard them scream.
I closed my ears, I wasn't sober.
Everybody tells you to believe in what you can do.
But what fruits could I ever bring?
What have I ever done for you?
All I could ever be is dissapointing.
Aug 18, 2019
Aug 18, 2019 at 1:33 PM UTC
I asked you not to read my diary.
I had a right to tell you as it was written by me.
So what if you are my wife?
So what if the society has tied us for life?
That space is mine and only mine,
I would fiercely defend it all the time,
No I wouldn’t let anyone come near it.
But you did and I feel this was full of deceit.
You covered it up by saying I cheated.
You said you wouldn’t have known if not for it.
But what would you get by doing so?
Some pat on you inflated ego?
And do you know what it did to me?
I felt robbed or I would say molested.
Just the same as I felt as a child,
When that man touched me inappropriately,
I trusted him like I trusted you,
But both of you were the same:
Your intentions were convoluted;
And this entire thing left me feeling violated.
Jun 27, 2019
Jun 27, 2019 at 11:25 PM UTC
You'll get hurt and disappointed too much
That's what you get when you care too much
When you expected too much
May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 8:54 PM UTC
You aren't the first to tell me that...
So I'm trying to forgive and forget.
But it's hard.
It's hard when someone you love
Tells you that your feelings aren't reasonable.
Like I don't already know that...
Feelings aren't always about logic and fact.
Sometimes people just feel things.
Sometimes for stupid reasons.
You don't have to understand why.
I just thought you cared enough
To want to make me feel better.
Instead you let me return to my head
And torture myself for hours.
You left me there when I just needed
To be held for a moment.
I just needed to hear
That everything was okay.
I just needed to know
That you still loved me,
And that you didn't want me to be uncomfortable.
I know all that should be a given.
Sometimes a gentle reminder just helps...
And keeps me out of the dark.
I'm trying my best to not be
The anxious, self conscious mess
That I always am.
I want to turn it off...
But I don't always win that fight,
And I'm really sorry...
And I already hate myself enough
Every time I do fail.
I'm trying.
Please don't give up on me too...
Feb 17, 2019
Feb 17, 2019 at 1:28 AM UTC
humans are complex beings
they can talk,
they can make tools,
and they can do just about
whatever they want
but they are born into a world
of luxuries and disappointments
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 3:00 AM UTC