This scary thing I cannot see
The worry is inside of me
Despite the panic all around
From this big mess we will come out
There's no escape, no where to go
The best thing is, to stay at home
When head goes crazy, take a walk
Call someone close and make small talk
If you're as sensitive as me
Check up on updates once daly
We need to know what's going on
But mind your soul, try to stay strong
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 4:57 PM UTC
Pushing your opinions on others
To you, that's all that matters.
You wanted to be heard,
I gave you a chance to prove your point.
Every word that I say,
You manage to twist your own way.
How rotten a person must be,
To weaponise words said by me.
Trying to hurt me, thriving on anger
I did not satisfy your hunger.
Told you "Enough"
I need non of this "Drama"
I'm not here to heal your old trauma.
For mistakes that I made I paid up plenty,
The action you took for me is just petty.
Prove your point to someone else,
I'm done dealing with this mess.
Feb 15, 2020
Feb 15, 2020 at 1:05 PM UTC
Old habbits die hard
There are thoughts on my mind
One thing I need to learn
Is the power of control
To lose oneself in someone else
Used to make a lot of sence
I never felt this way before
To be locked out will work no more
I have the key to my own soul
Picked up the pieces on my own
Back in touch with my emotions lately
Faced my fears, no need to save me.
Dec 7, 2019
Dec 7, 2019 at 10:39 AM UTC
I was warned
I did not listen
I was told
To keep my distance
Not to trust him
I ignored it
And now I know
I am alone
Nov 5, 2019
Nov 5, 2019 at 7:59 PM UTC
What shade is my soul
I don't really know.
Sometimes it's dark,
Sometimes it's bright.
Just like the year
Has it's four seasons,
My soul changes shades
For no real good reason.
Just like a dog
That has been abused,
When you are near me
My soul's not amused.
I'll stay away,
You'll do the same.
You no more care,
My soul's shade is grey.
Oct 31, 2019
Oct 31, 2019 at 2:35 PM UTC
We had big plans
You loved me once
I loved you too
I thought you knew
It went away
I chose to stay
Until you chose
Gave up, I froze
I see a dream
You're nowhere to be seen
Your dad is there
He was a friend
Momo's there too
I miss them both but you
Who knew I cared
I think I'm scared
I had a family briefly
Thank you for sharing them with me
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 7:52 PM UTC
You say a word
And I ignore it,
Your fake "Hello"
I want no more.
I need my space
You to erase.
Things changed,
You faded.
I stayed
And waited.
Cared for you,
How much, you knew.
I'm done,
Be gone.
You're just a shell,
My walking hell.
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 7:20 PM UTC
Why do you think I'll be quiet this time?
All that you said were filthy old lies.
I've written a letter, it's addressed to her,
The truth that she maybe needs to know?
Before making a choice to spend her whole life with you,
A person who wished that I was his only truth,
How do you guys just turn off all your love?
And chose someone who clearly wasn't enough.
I'm sick of your lies, you broke your promise,
To stay as a friend, you treat me like nonsense.
You've made your choice, I want to make mine,
To set the truth free, so that I can fly.
You had your chance to make the things right,
But made it all worse by staying aside,
I'm not some trash and you need a lesson,
Promises broken can turn really messy.
You'll make my life hell, I know that for sure,
When that all happens I'll be living no more.
Oct 27, 2019
Oct 27, 2019 at 6:48 PM UTC
Within a year I lost it all
My heart, my mind, my joy and soul
I feel so hollow and alone
I need to do this on my own.
My world was shattered not by one
These criminals and I are done
The punishment they'll get is none
I was a toy, for them it's fun.
The joy of life I cannot see
And I'm the one who needs to be
My own best friend to feel so free
The happy ending to my story.
Oct 27, 2019
Oct 27, 2019 at 8:46 AM UTC
I cannot do this anymore
Digging myself into a hole
Allowed myself to hope
Instead I ended up broke
It's both our fault but most is on me
My wish was that we were meant to be
My worst and best days shared with you
Were everything that I knew.
Made me feel complete, so full of life
Little did I know, that was my own knife
I told myself "Just keep it light"
My heart and soul just shined too bright.
But then it hit me like a storm
That you will never call me home
You are exactly where you want to be
Your heart and soul were with me temporarily.
This was a game, I think I lost
Now I'm ready for the worst
You chose the easy way out, so do I
To get you out of my heart and my mind
I wish you happiness with whoever it may be
I don't think I have the strength to see.
I will be first for someone new
Before that happens, I'll forget you
Turns out that you never loved me
It was my perception of reality
I told you goodbye and then I hung up
No txt or a phone call, you never faught back
The saddest thing is, that this is the end
In just one moment I lost love and a friend.
Oct 27, 2019
Oct 27, 2019 at 8:42 AM UTC