#avoiding
I don’t want to be yours
Stop reaching for me
I’m screaming for nothing
What am I even doing
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 12:29 AM UTC
im not sad
nor mad
just disappointed
since im the one youre avoiding
I understand youre hurt
just dont make me feel like im the ****
Apr 22, 2020
Apr 22, 2020 at 9:57 PM UTC
Walking about campus
Minding my own business,
When suddenly
A person appears in my vision
My thoughts go by rapidly
I am at an internal division;
Hide or run
Pick one
So, since I fear what may come of running,
I hide
My heart is gunning
Friend lets me hide, making comments on the side
As said person passes by
I want to cry
Flashbacks hit like a boulder
My friend touches my shoulder
Tells me said person is gone
And I was seen, hiding like the meek little fawn I am
Then in my last class
I take the restroom pass
Walk out and into the open air
For now without a care
Go around the corner
Instantly put my head down line a mourner
Face white, like a wraith
I have no faith
In myself
I want to run and hide in a shelf
Because there's that person again
That I just can't seem to escape
Almost like they're waiting...
Hopefully not for me
I put my head down
Pass them by
Silence
Once inside the safety of the restroom
I feel like there is no room
I corner myself
For a second, I put my heart on the shelf
Back against the wall
I go back to an old habit
Hiding like a rabbit
Eventually coming out
Looking about
Then returning to class
After school
The air is cool
I sit at a bench
Read something in French
Wonder what it means
Then I look to my left
Don't know when they crept
So close to me
But they left me be
4 feet away from me
Chilling me to the bone
I just want to be left alone
Eye contact
Then quickly broken
By me
Hoping they'll leave me be
Nothing is done or said
But still I am filled with dread
Unsure why
But still, I cry
They leave, walk away
Thought they left my day
I go to my sister
To carry her bag
So the walk wouldn't be a drag
Then, 4 feet away
There is that person
Talking to a friend of mine
Great, just fine
I take the bag and go
My sister goes with the flow
And we leave it all behind us
Until the next dawn.
- Jay M
February 29th, 2020
Feb 29, 2020
Feb 29, 2020 at 8:44 PM UTC
I don't need more negativity in life
I have enough in me already
I am cutting you off
Avoiding till cannot
Nov 9, 2019
Nov 9, 2019 at 1:41 PM UTC
I’m a face in the crowd
With the holier than thou
Who scream so loud
That they’re proud
I look around
Then look at the ground
We disagree
Differing
On different needs
They’re an aggressive breed
Making others bleed
For what they believe
So I flee
Into solitary
Avoiding Ares
I become less brotherly
As I forget the suffering
In my submerged submarine
Where I can’t hear the thundering
Of social interaction blundering
I’m exiled in style
Haven’t seen people in a while
Which makes me smile
Skipping their trials
Walking for miles
Without the vile
Spewing their bile
I walk through peaceful pastures
Far away from our corporate masters
Dodging all the disasters
That make us die faster
I focus on the pastor
To live happily ever after
I lose my relatability
In a state of tranquility
From the holy trinity
Helping me see infinity
And start living differently
Instead of living miserably
Using ignorance for protection
I start to lose connection
To important lessons
That met my deflection
Or circumvented detection
As part of my rejection
Of society’s infection
I try to avoid negativity
But I can’t set the living free
If all my life is giving me
Reflects my selfish greed
Living under tranquil trees
Away from their hypocrisy
And false democracy
Always mocking me
From afar
Leaving the door ajar
For me to heal some scars
But for that I’ll have to leave Mars
And mingle with the stars
That float in the distance
While I watch their imprints
Making the night sky different
I avoid their pain
Becoming lame
Playing a game
Of staying tame
So I circle the drain
Without leaving a stain
May 18, 2019
May 18, 2019 at 11:52 PM UTC
Paper. Pen.
Let's write out our feelings.
"I'm having a rough time."
Cell phone
Online recipes.
I should cook that soon.
Hotel websites.
Free breakfast? Eh I'm vegan now so just fruit.
Swimming pool? I'm sure it'll be busy
Fitness center. Leo wants to run in the morning.
Booked. Could be a good night.
Paper. Pen.
Right. Writing.
"I can tell journaling is helpful
because I'm resistant to doing it."
Text messages.
Leo thinks they were too mean to me.
I think I deserve it.
I love you.
Paper. Pen.
Hm. I should write some poetry.
Photos.
Wow look at how my face has changed, let's make a collage.
Oo what else.
Body pictures.
Pre-surgery picture.
Damm I've really sculpted up.
Reconsiders feeling gross physically.
Arguable.
Paper. Pen.
How easy it is to ignore you.
How easy it is to ignore myself
And not listen to my feelings.
May 4, 2019
May 4, 2019 at 10:58 PM UTC
I've been trying to avoid you
to avoid getting hurt
but I can't stay away
even if I'm in pain
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC
how can i avoid you
when you’re in my thoughts
24/7
how can i avoid you
when i see you everywhere
i look
how can i avoid you
when i’m in love with
you
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 3:05 PM UTC
I know you got all
my messages
My phone calls
My texts
My SMSs.
But what bothers me is,
Why are you ghosting me
All of the sudden
Like we’re complete strangers?
Like you have received
A call from a telemarketing
Company?
@jobiranyc (10/16/2017)
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 9:54 PM UTC
I have been seeking comfort for so long
I don't want to deal with the hard things
The unpleasant or mundane
In some ways, I was never taught how
But I can't shake this feeling that I need more
Seeking comfort brings on stress, anxiety, pain
I can't handle all of it
I've been struggling to change for a long time
What will it take?
I want to be ready
I decide to do things
But following through is easier said than done
How much more will I allow to fall before it's enough?
I say it's enough.
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 8:41 PM UTC
I want you to stay.
But why are you running away?
Nov 9, 2016
Nov 9, 2016 at 7:26 PM UTC
I can feel the chemicals ***** under my skin,
I can feel the sunshine pouring in.
Another day another dollar,
another distraction to silence the callers;
All those people who want to know where I've been, or all those who genuinely ask how I've been.
I've avoided these truths at all cost,
If I never look back I'll never have to face what I lost.
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 5:46 PM UTC
when he says he wants to put you
in a poem, don't believe he'll
put your petals to his nose, inhale gently,
and enumerate the tickling scents
waltzing in his nostrils.
believe he'll put your stem to his tongue
lick the thorns slowly
to open his masochistic
metallic blood.
believe that he'll spit
that blood on the floor
or in a teacup to
sit out for hummingbirds.
believe he'll paint you
naked in verse
clothe you in meter
and strip you once more.
believe that no poem
is refuge
and that your ugliness
and his ugliness
will not make a poem
beautiful.
Sep 2, 2016
Sep 2, 2016 at 3:21 PM UTC
He's always with my friends,
And I'm always with them,
And I kind of see him every single day.
The funny thing is this,
That I have a secret wish
To see how long—if—he can stay away.
One Sunday he slept late
And boy, I felt great
Knowing he'd miss church with us together
But smiling with chagrin
I saw him back again
When everyone meet up to eat our dinner.
I mentioned it that night
Before he I left his sight,
And he suggested—with us laughing together—
That someday, both of us
Should, without a fuss,
For fun, passively avoid each other.
Today has not been long
But so far I've been strong
And haven't sought him out, or told him so
But I know that tonight
We'll meet again, alright
And once again the count shall be zero.
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 3:54 PM UTC
I would like to say
I am not avoiding you...
Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 10:18 AM UTC
what are you pretending not to know
what are you constantly hiding from the people you think love you
because you never know for sure
you never know for sure right?
and that bothers you
it's what you pretend not to know
you know they love you
you know they do
why must you pretend
why must you avoid
why must you not be strong enough to to accept reality
you pretend not to know almost every bit of news
you pretend not to know the obvious stated right in front of you
what are you afraid of
do you fear rejection
is that why you act so oblivious
is that why you act so ignorant
I AM ASKING YOU WHAT ARE YOU PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW
BECAUSE HONEY, I KNOW YOU
I KNOW WHAT YOURE HIDING
JUST TELL ME
WHAT ARE YOU PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW
I'm sorry, but the act is over
please take off the mask
it's for your own good
I promise
and you know that
you're just pretending not to.
-mxy
Mar 22, 2015
Mar 22, 2015 at 9:14 PM UTC
I get more work done
when I'm avoiding other work
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 11:44 PM UTC
I show a strange fascination
In those I leave behind
And those who leave me wondering
What answers I will find
Will you seek me?
Did you?
Do you share my thoughts?
Do I follow pointlessly?
It's probably right the way that we drifted apart
Though I don't care for dancing around each other like a dying art
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 5:16 PM UTC
There are things I try to avoid
many things in fact
I try to avoid the creepy guy staring at me on the bus
I try to avoid my teachers outside of school
I try to avoid gum on the sidewalk
I try to avoid you sometimes
Sometimes to protect myself
Other times simply to do it
There are things I try to avoid
one of them is you
and I am sorry you have fallen into that category
but I am not sorry for the reason why
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 9:05 PM UTC
Why?
Why do you hurt yourself?
Why?
Why must you bleed?
Why?
Why do you cry a lot?
Why?
Why do this to me?
Why?
Why can't you talk about it?
Why?
Why do you like your scars?
Why?
Why would you want to keep them?
Why?
Why do you avoid me?
Why?
Why did you do it?
Why?
May 31, 2014
May 31, 2014 at 5:57 PM UTC
He's here..
He's back.
I have to tolerate him sitting next to me again.
Our director says just tell him what you want him to do.
Like he'll listen to me.
I don't know what I'll do.
If I can do anything
And he's here until Monday..
What am I gonna do?
I can't breathe when he's around.
He is the creator of my butterflies that inhabit my stomach.
What will I do?
He's back.
He's here...
Someone **** me please?
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 8:04 AM UTC