we weren't going to work
i lied to myself and said i was ready when i wasn't
i lied to you and said i didn't care
you told me you liked me and i pretended i didn't hear
because, and this is funny, i thought you were lying to me
Jun 3, 2019
Jun 3, 2019 at 12:31 AM UTC
i dream of you every night
in my bed is your smile, your voice, your laugh
your hands follow my thighs, my hips, my face
we're happy
i wish i had more than these synthetic moments
but you'll only ever be dream
we'll only ever be a dream
it's when i wake up that the nightmare begins
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 10:48 PM UTC
We spend our whole lives chasing the drug of love.
Sometimes we get distracted, and end up addicted to misery instead.
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 12:02 AM UTC
Legend has it that she is lovely,
she is warm,
she is inviting.
I've heard that she can make the colors seem brighter,
the bread smell sweeter,
the sun feel warmer.
They say she will ruin your life in the best way possible,
that she can flood your brain as if she were the shimmering nectar that is for only the gods,
that she can make you do things that you never thought you'd have the nerve to do.
Someone told me that once you meet her you need not know anyone else.
I've seen glimpses of her.
Walking down the boardwalk in the form of two teenagers holding hands.
Sitting on a park bench like she was a couple married for 50 years.
But, though I know what she is supposed to look like,
I have not met her.
And I do not believe I will ever have the chance to know her.
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 11:22 PM UTC
Again,
this morning,
I woke up wanting to kiss you.
I rolled over in bed,
hoping you would be there,
but knowing you wouldn't be.
I closed my eyes once more,
so, at the very least,
I could pretend.
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 11:03 PM UTC
i feel my heartbeat in my head
i try to think logically
but my heart tells me what's meant to be
and i can't change a single thing
i feel my heartbeat in my head
i can only hear my heartbeat in my head
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 4:16 PM UTC
as i sleep next to you,
i wonder what you really think of me
at a certain moment, you love me
you tell me i'm beautiful, whilst your fingers form perfectly into the crevices of my body
you smile with content, as i wiggle into your arms and let out a sigh of resolution
you grab my hand, as we close our eyes and lie in perfect naked harmony
but when we wake up tomorrow morning, will you still feel happy?
will you call me back after the three-day-waiting-period that men think is not a suggestion, but a necessary precaution?
will you even think about me after i walk out your front door?
because i will think about your green eyes that looked at me with desire
i will yearn for your warm hands that comforted me when i needed them
i will look at my phone, wondering if i will get so lucky as to hear your voice
but something inside of me keeps telling me that this moment, this night is all i will get
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 12:25 AM UTC
I want you to stay.
But why are you running away?
Nov 9, 2016
Nov 9, 2016 at 7:26 PM UTC
I’m already gone
Don’t try and catch me
I’m a free bird
Trying to find my way
Don’t stop me now
Or I’ll never fly again
Nov 9, 2016
Nov 9, 2016 at 6:20 PM UTC