saw my friend and his service dog today
i mentioned how a dog like that
might be beneficial for me.
he said im not disabled.
if only he knew
about the constant panic i keep behind my eyes
for fear of being laughed at
tthe feeling of not being able to breath
like an elephant sitting on your chest
the fear of being talked to by someone i don't know very well
the heart racing
hands sweating 
breathing too fast
how do i get out
terror
i face every day. 
but must internalize as i was taught.