You told me once,
“Do not give up on love...
it will find you,
the truest love.”

But when I look into your eyes,
I see it there
you, the love I cannot have.

If only you knew the mask I wear,
how I’ve been breaking in silence,
at my lowest,
still hoping
that it would be you
who finds me in love.

Yes, I’ve grown feelings deep and true,
But I know they don’t live in you.
So I keep quiet, day by day
Not for fear, but in this way

Not silence born from lack of might,
But out of love, and what feels right.
I will not speak unless you ask,
To guard your peace that is my task.

I will not press, nor force, nor chase,
Nor let these words disturb your space.
If truth would make you slip away,
Then in my heart, those words will stay.

I love you more than just to claim,
I value you beyond a name.

I wanted to speak to say I already know
But fear held tight and I couldn't let it show
Afraid to disappoint I stayed in the shade
While time slipped by and memories decayed.

The color in your eyes I try to recall
But even that now begins to fall
I whispered to silence, What made you stray?
Was it my fault you turned away?

I stood still hoping you'd turn around
Longing for footsteps yet hearing no sound
Waiting to be saved heart open wide
But you ran and I stayed left behind

Now I see clearly the truth in the change
You're not the same and I've grown estranged
I waited for you in dusk and in storm
But I’ve changed too I don’t wait anymore.

I fell in love with all you are
Not just the light but every scar
The quiet truths you couldn’t share
I saw them still I deeply cared.

Your heart spoke softly though lips stayed still
A gentle pull I couldn’t will
You hid a part afraid I’d flee
But even then you had all of me.

Trust me when I say it’s true
I’ve loved you long before I knew
Before the world before the name
My love for you still burned the same.

And if your secret held you tight
I held you closer through the night
Because real love, it sees right through
And I was always seeing you.

I smile.
Too steady. Too still.
Inside...
thunder clawing at my ribs.

You laugh with her.
Sweet. Too sweet.
Not mine.
I go quiet.

Ghost in the corner.
Hands folded—burning.
The words rise—
I want that. For me. Only me.

But I choke.
And silence wins.
Again.

A decade
and still,
I keep you.

A locked chest.
A river with no mouth.
A flame in the dark,
burning only me.

Beautiful
yes.
Painful
always.

Petals fall.
Seasons pass.
I never speak.

and I fall.

I saw you
and the day began to glow,
heavy clouds broke open,
pouring sunlight into my soul.

Each time our eyes meet,
I am lifted into a fleeting sky,
where time drifts softly,
and even the wind learns to sigh.

Dear one, I confess
I think I’ve fallen,
and now I dare to cradle
this tender warmth,
once frozen in me,
now awakened by you.

A fire that will not wither,
A light that will not fade,
you are the sun within my sky,
the forever my heart has made.