Replaced
In all the roles I used to fill
And hearts I used to occupy
In all the minds of those
who mine is always thinking of
Sincerely
Horrible
Fat
Ugly
Stupid
Deceived
Fat
Morbidly obese
in ways most people
can't contemplate even
if they tried
Tired
To the point where
my muscles ache
and everything is a chore
Including breathing
Lost
Like a pin
dropped in the sea
Just
so gone
that no one will ever
even try to find me
Alone
Because my best friend
has a new one
And my boy
well
he's just fine
Stupid
For ever thinking
that I was worth
more than I am
That I was worth
anything at all
Freedom
To destroy myself
in ways
I couldn't
I wouldn't
Before
Well, he's doing fine. Better than ever, infact. She's got a new bestie. Makes sense. I can't go anywhere, and this new girl can. Plus, I'm MORE DISGUSTING THAN EVER AND I WISH I COULD GET HIT BY A VEHICLE GOING CONSIDERABLY FAST DOWN THE HIGHWAY SO MY BONES COULD CRUSH AND I'D FINALLY BE ABLE TO SAY I LOOK AS BAD AS I FEEL.