Dear him..

I never thought that my mind would come to this conclusion but..

I thank you.

I hold onto a pocketed smile for the times we laughed, then an untamed sorrow for when you cried.
though in the end, it took quite the while to understand why? Why all of it happened, why all of the progress withered like that of a tumbleweed in merciless breeze.
...

It were Unsettled aswell as unwilling to be tamed, now here I stand, pondering upon whether do I not feel any course shame?
All of this senseless anger rooted within my very being, Senseless?? No I carry more than perceived from beyond that tiny fluorescent-ly lit screen.

He who were the one that offered those long car rides and gave those silent affections.. to me...
That little girl, one whom were trapped within a big wide world of those watching...waiting....expecting? to see buckling from within the chain.

For that now rusting chain being the one mourn, yet not the one I came to acknowledge.
One whom I can only glance at from afar, him..

So I thank you, Dad...
Or shall I even have the attachment left to call you that?