The clouds of my past are raining on me
And it’s raining painful memories

I used to have fun talking to people
I enjoyed their stories
But suddenly
I felt distant
I’m not conversing anymore
I’m just merely answering queries
And i see this reflection standing beside me
Rolling her eyes
Saying
Come on, let’s get out of here
You’re not having fun anymore
Your anxiety is the one talking
And not your interest
When can I finally say
I am completely healed

how can the sunset be so beautiful
even when it means
the day is over
i hope i can be as beautiful as the sunset
when everything for me is over

I am angry all the time
God I am ******* angry
I think I’m going nuts
My head is going to explode
I get angry over small things
God I hate how I feel
I get anxious and sad
And then I’d get angry for feeling sad
I wish I could explain it to you
How I force myself to smile
How I fake my calm
I just want to be as pure as the sun

Depression is rain pouring so hard
Lightning and thunderstorms
Big waves and sinking boat
All at once inside of you
It can be sunny sometimes
But you’re trapped in a room
with no door and windows
Walls are hospital gray
With words spray painted
Only you can see