summer

summer May 2016

All These Memories That I Gotta Let Go Of

i
don't
want to
think about
what i have to
say to you for the
time being because
that means having to
think back to everything
and all the emotions rise up
again and i don't know if i can
handle that right now in the midst
of all things complicated coated heavily
with all your lies and all the things you hide
because that means having to let go of it all, and
having to let go of you and to be honest, i don't know
if i am completely ready to do that, to lose you for more
than a lifetime, to lose you forever, for infinity, and to say goodbye

summer May 2016

I Don't Deserve You.

i blame you for my mistakes,
because i can't become face to face,
with the realities of the issues,
on the ground are tear crumple tissues,

your soo good to me,
it's almost hard to believe,
i yell at you when i'm angry,
almost want you to let me leave,

but i'm glad you don't,
and i know you won't,
you love me and that's it,
like a puzzle piece, we fit,

i hate how i treat you some times,
i feel guilty like their crimes,
and i am sooo terribly sorry,
and i know you worry,

i don't deserve you,
and i always knew,
you would be here forever,
and you won't leave me, never.

summer May 2016

A Poem (10w)

With his touch,

i wasn't lost,

but really only found.

summer May 2016

What Happened

we used to talk everyday

and

now we don't.