My strained eyes refuses the sleep
Today, I remember people saying
"You are such a bad bad sleeper"
and Today, I can feel
How bad bad sleeper I have become
Reflection. That is what keeps me awake

How terribly we smiled
How terribly we fell in love
How terribly it all passed away
and still. How terribly it lingers.

Still photographs cannot hide the chaos
-the turbulence which I should be hiding
the world can see in those eyes and the strained smile!
Reflection. or its probably just me-
Over thinking. but i am sure it was love

I am sure I can love. I did love.
I made many mistakes but love;
but love, my love, its the sweetest
and i ruined my love for her love
because my love alone.
it was intolerable.

Not the eyes that would blink anymore
But see as the image shuffles across them
Wide open drips red as you stare
Things you desire to learn crawls beneath

Wouldn't it be nice to drop few tears
the moment of pleasure would grow so near

Watch the tension as he ties the world
Decaying world that has fallen apart
Fluttering hands embracing two dead souls
Wrecked pieces sprinkling upon his brow

Wouldn't it be nice to buy new dreams
Happy wouldn't look ragged anymore

As you pry, diamond turn to coal
Can you care enough even to know
As jigsaw flies away from place
deafening words sings of new found love

Hit him with frisson of new found love
What got him lost; which never he found

what is that you make me feel
you rip me apart and fix me
with same words and voice
with silence and with time
and sometimes I think
is it the peace of afterlife
or just chaos imposed by your ways
you are the sculpture of goddess
that I was taught to worship
and why there demons on your breath
why is that I found you
what was there in losing me
what is in the love you blame
if you find pleasure in surrounding me
why didn't you just hold my hand
what is that you feel of me

you give me pain of repentance upon ***** fragrance
and why do I smile when you speak inside
You took me and my darkness
is it just to fill me with new

why did I find you
when did I lose me
what is that you gave me
why are you paradox to me
sandwiched I am in between
is it just one final desire to hold you
is it the eternal flame of search
what is that you make me feel
a radical transformation
or am I just lost within

Baby,
May be you are the only one
I can dream of
or May be its you I choose.

In my dreams.
'I' am real
'You' are real. 'We' too, sometimes.

As you slowly dwindle
Reality ***** me. hardships.
I hear them saying
you. are my greatest mistake
if so, i say to myself,
i would repeat it till forever.

my destiny takes pride on you
my greatest mistake.
And I still go back to times
we made mistakes together.
to cherish forever. estranged.

Well!
Dreams are made in heaven, just saying.
So are far from reality.

At times like this
When I slowly vanish
within me, from me
I feel her love and -
our love, (our)

Her voice, such dope.
The song she sang
when I first met her.

Not long after that
I approved all the cliches of love
in my own way, and took pride
on my new found zeal.
How sweet! (how sweet)

And in the blink of eye.
"Blink" like blink of eye!
The world which I forgot
Never turned back, but
I had to return back.

Thank you lady.
You left me words to write.

the dust bloomed amidst the green
the shadow rose and parted from me
and me, i stared inside
i was hallow all in between..
i was not me for what I mean
i was only puppet to be..
...-"no turning back" was the decree
a gush of suction from my queen
with love and affection
set me free . OM!

Feelings are easy thing to deal
Remember when the young sun shone
the luster which it possessed, bright charming gentleman
scramble your memory and open your eyes to mirror
gone. like speck of gold dust.
Feelings are easy thing to deal
hard is not to feel.
when the old guy sam asked
"when was the last time we kicked some *****."
scratch your head to find no blood to spill.

CLOSE YOUR EYES
Take a deep breath in.
HOOOLDD!
Breath out!
Declaration:feelings are dead.only memory lived!