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suicidal twitch Apr 2014

Freezing

Sudden coldness fills me deep,
My thick warm clothes vanished in the frost,
Losing consciousness I start to weep,
Collapsing to the ground cold and lost.

suicidal twitch Apr 2014

I watch. Again.

I watch as them guys leave me alone. Again.
Why do they do this to me? Will they ever understand?

I watch as they leave me alone in the rain. Again.
Was I born to be alone? To be an outcast?

I watch as the don't invite me over. Again.
Am I here to not have friends? To be by myself?

I seethe with anger as I watch them ignore me. Again.
Is it wrong to want them dead? To **** them with my bare hands?

I breath rapidly as I pick up the knife. For the first time.
Am I willing to do this? They are my friends, right?

I laugh as I repeatedly stab each on to death. For the last time.
I was willing to do this! They were never my friends!

I wake up from that dream.
And I watch.
I watch them. Again.

suicidal twitch Apr 2014

All because of you

I was scared. You wouldn't leave me alone. You never left me alone.
You had no right to walk back into my life. You disgusted me.
I thought you changed. Turns out you were a horrible liar.
You acted as if you owned me. I didn't like it but you didn't care.
When I said, 'I don't love you', you laughed as if I was joking. I never joke about something that serious. And you knew that.
You never understood the word 'no'. I would tell you 'no' all the time. But you most likely thought I was saying yes. Funny that.
I hated you. But, it doesn't explain why I'm texting 'I love you' right now.
You promised to never leave me again. But you did. And now, you're saying the same promise to me again.

Because of you, my life is ruined and my heart broken beyond repair......
*All because of you....

suicidal twitch Mar 2014

CoLd BlOoDeD mUrDeReR

I was always the invisible one,
Walking like a spirit amongst others,
They would hurt me just for fun,
But no one expected me to become a cOlD bLoOdEd MuRdErEr...

The murders started slowly,
Each night another would be gone,
You could call this unholy,
But when being a mUrDeReR it doesn't matter...

I would sneak into their rooms,
Blooded knife raised and brought down into their stomachs,
Afterwards they would be buried in their tombs,
The MuRdErEr would smile insanely whilst being invisible...

Eventually the murderer would be caught,
Taken away to never see the light of day,
They would ask me questions and what I thought,
But all I said was,

*'I bEcAmE a CoLd BlOoDeD mUdErEr...'

suicidal twitch Mar 2014

I love him

I let my hidden tears run down my cheeks,
Why do I let myself be bullied by those freaks?

As I swallow myself in years of pain,
Will anything be the same again?

My eyes clenched shut to stop the visions,
Who picked out my decisions?

I can't deny that I love him,
If he left would my world turn dim?

I can't live in this world of hate,
Is this really going to be my fate?

He doesn't truly understand that I love him so,
Then why do I bother with love when my heart is already broken?

suicidal twitch Mar 2014

Hit

Ever seen a cat get hit by a car?
You hear a SMACK,
And then nothing.
Just silent mewls,
Yelling for help.

I've seen that happen,
The blood mixing with rain water.
The sight blurred by my tears,
The sound of my choked sobs echoing in through the darkness.

Dead it was dead.
Died of shock? Blood loss? I don't know.
But all I know is that it was dead.
Princess was killed.
A hit and run act.

R.I.P Princess.

Last year at 9:00pm on a Friday, my brother's friend had his pet cat hit by a car...

suicidal twitch Mar 2014

Please Stay

Were you not haPpy with me?
Did you not hear my pLeas?
Why did you lEave?
Will you come bAck?
Will you diSappear again?
Will you forgEt me?

I could make you Smile again,
I could love you Too,
I could bring you bAck,
We could be together forever mY love,

*ToGeThEr FoReVeR!