Well the moon is my shelter
My seeker
My dreamer

Deepest, darkest
Unknown
Unlike the bright glistening sun
                 Dripping
Unlike the shining glass
Unlike the penetrating light
                 Blinding

This is the moon glow
Moon glimpse fairy tale
Dark underwater
Falling

Quiet Masquerade
Familiar emanation
Once forgotten calling
But this is where I came from

Steal yourself my dear.
Bite your tongue and not your lip.
We shall begone by dawn and forever more.

This place holds nothing more for us.
This town is full of memories hollowed by hate.
Steal yourself my dear.

Quick kisses in the halls.
In the theater.
Behind the gym.
At the football game.
At the parties.
In abandoned houses.

There is nothing for us here but quick kisses.
Lost feelings.
And the past.
Most of all the past.

I feel the caress of my own fingers
on my own neck as I place my collar
and think pityingly
of the kind women I have known.

****, this pizza's good*
Shut up Nolan, you're high.

I hate your stupid haircut
You look like a girl

2. I hate your perfect body
And how it makes my stomach twirl

3. I hate your immature friends
And all the gross things that they say

4. I hate that you are way too smart
In the least cocky of ways

5. I hate the way you pinched my waist
That would always make me scream

6. I hate your childish, genuine laugh
And how innocent it makes you seem

7. I hate the way you always knew
The perfect things to say

8. I hate that you're all I think about
Every. Single. Day.

9. I hate that when I see you 'round
I forget how to breathe

10. I hate the way our bodies
Fit together so perfectly

11. I hate that you were always warm
Even when it was so cold

12. I hate that you always do
Exactly what you're told

13. I hate that you're so skinny
But you also seemed so strong

14. I hate that your biggest turn-on's
Were my tan lines and my thongs

15. I hate the way you treated me
So perfectly from the start

16. I hate that you got under my skin
And all the way into my heart

17. I hate the way I love you
So much more than I should

18. I hate the way I ****** us up
Just like I knew I would

19. I hate how much I love you, still
And how you swept me off my feet

20. But what I hate more than anything
Is that you aren't right here, with me

I have no father
I didn't know 'til now
I guess I must have missed it
Though I'm really not sure how

It's not that he is dead
Or left when I was small
But that he's been around my whole life
And still not been here at all

He worked when I was younger,
I only saw him when he was mad
And when my parents divorced,
I only knew him sad

He never once protected me
Or gave me advice on boys
He never held me as I cried
I never found comfort in his voice

I cry as I write this
For I know the truth it holds
It was I who protected him
And it's made me harsh and cold

He has told me that he loves me
Cried to me about his pain
Asked me for my input
And it's driven me insane

All I wanted was a father
To pick me up when I fell down
Instead I got a burden
Who I can't stand to be around

I truly have a decent life,
With friends and loved ones to spare
But I still feel lost and lonely
Craving the father that was never there

I'm afraid sometimes
Afraid that I'll say the wrong thing
Afraid of the pain you'll surely bring
But I tell you I'm brave
And I tell you not to worry

I'm lonely sometimes
Lonely like I'm the only one with eyes
Lonely like my eyes are the only ones that cry
But I tell you that I'm good
And I tell you I can see

I'm sad sometimes
Sad because I'm lonely and afraid
Sad because I'm not as strong as I say
But you still think I'm tough
And I still protect everyone

But I'm happy sometimes, too
Happy because I'm lucky to have you
Happy because you seem like you are true
So I'll smile all the time
And act like I remember fun

I sang the  the paeans of love, all night
"you are such a romantic" my girl said,
morning light, lingered, heard it, got elated,
touched my brow tenderly and said:
"You would make the waves and the shore glad,
wind would waft your songs of love far and wide,
humming leaves would adore you for this lilt,
**love is the force that moves the world, each moment,
sing, sing, let every one wake up and join forces."

Sitting naked in the rain,
I'm trying to break reality
In order to rebuild it
In a way that pleases me.
I dive deep in to my head,
I lie warm in my bed.

I gasp for breath

When I open my eyes
I am again,
Sitting naked in the rain.