Where are you my perfect creation
I'm stalling for you even when i ain't patient
I saw a picture of you that showed how your amazing
You light the fire to my trail now I'm blazing

My diamond
But Under pressure you become so cold
Your in a rough patch but they can't keep you on hold
But once you embrace... once you have faced ... You shine oh so bold

You don't reflect for the sun the sun reflect from you
That means your the course and of course your the obstacle
Your voice got pain and your beautiful speaks the truth
If your the definition of motivation then it's your body that I'll move

I have lost in the beginning
But you're my win at the end
Broken heart cause me damage
Broken fear is what kept me alive

Broken ways what drawn me to you
Broken love is my way to say I love you

I am a broken man
I am a unfixable soul
I am still growing
I am still loose in my control

I am a question
You are my answer
I am a million puzzle pieces
You are my lesson

I have change to commit
I have cherish to adore my girl
Nervous not to live up to the standards
But losing you is a threat to this world

A toy on a shelf
Nothing cool or new or shiny
She sits silently eyes focused
If you look hard you might find her beautiful
But not special enough to pick up
On the outside she looks fine
No cracks or scratches on her porcelain
No one even noticed she's broken
Her purpose lost
The doll was never meant to sit silent on a shelf
She used to sing a melody
Calm and sweet
Eyes still focused but with a shine
And her song was unique and it was hers
Her voice would fill up the empty room
But now she doesn't sing
Time has filled her cords with dust
She can hardly remember the melody
Her melody
Her purpose
I don't know if she'll ever sing again
But he picked her up one day
Wiped the dust from her glass face
And her focused dull eyes saw a smile
And she didn't sing
She couldn't
But she hummed something
Not her melody
Not yet
But it was a start
Idk if she'll ever find her melody and sing her song
But maybe she can find another song
Another reason to sing
Maybe

...... I need a rotation and reaction
But by default I'm placed in the wrong fraction
Ima soul who intentions are for the good
But let these ******* tell it I'm the devil in the hood

Are you surprised ???
You should look deeper into my eyes
Cuz your bout to witness a dead soul that's bout to come alive

My freedom I swear it comes with a Hail Mary
Future telling but the plot is too
scary
For these tails, but the dust are haters ashes not the fairies
Fictional imagination results for these non fictional can also vary

Towel over my head they want me half dead for the wash board
Cuz my mind is my voice
My words is my roar

Skin black but my bloodline runs white and red
The world say I'm mix
But heaven say my soul is fed

My mother was a phoenix
My father was a wolf
They gave birth to me Yes
I inherit the flight and the dangerous look

Still standing Im branded by different cultures
Jamaican posse gave me the RUDE
While the Natives caught my rotten dreams with the vultures

His hair was wool and long, He wore it like mines
I only get to hear his voice and shake his hand when I spark up the pine
It doesn't matter if you believe me or in my proofs
I've learn the patter of my misunderstanding , Now I became master of creating the truths

What happen to the envy to all imagination
Nothing is worse fearing the person you once loved
I guess the reasons have become to worthless
And the sensitivity is real when you make a picture perfect

If you have the right to dream then you have the right to work it
That's that feeling that makes it worth it
I Try to repent on the true commitments
But that fraud is dangerous if it's not indented

Positive work ethics I see that's a good successful story
Bashing in the moments and bathing in the glory
Now I know it's the world wide mess
I change from hood hoodies to business suits to dress and impress

When Hov made his first Mill I was still in my Batman draws
Now this young cub is following in his own lion paws
I swear last night was so unreal
My jesus your blessing is not invisibles so please take the wheel !!

All she wanted was good head and good ****...I gave her both
All I wanted was good head and good *****... I use to **** her throat....
I brought her from a magic club .....she was dancing
She wasn't feeling my attention till I start talking bout my dream mansion....

She seen the ambition and believe in my story telling positions
I was kind to her body but I think I Con her intuition.. Ohh
It's only us here tonight look at all of the balloons
So Let me finish this parade on your body and leave your sent in the room ...

Let me set this slow
Let me get in my zone
Just get what you want and leave me alone
But With all that drive ma .. I can't let you ride all on your own

So that's your girl tell her to come threw
To many drugs in the atmosphere but I cloud them all on you
**** smoke ,******* lines all on the table
I thought taken drugs wasn't you girl, but I didn't see the label

" She's mean to me, she hates , she always have her back turned towards me
And even when where ******* some how I always end up saying sorry.. Dam ..
But she came and ****** the faith in me when I need it the most ..
I swear to y'all she **** me so good made me see the Holy Ghost .. God dam..
I no longer wanna be human I wanted to die when i first saw her approach
Her presence showed me more of my values and she use me as her host
Cuz this angel from heaven use her *** as her weapon
Where ***** comes in first and your religious beliefs come in second ... God dam "

With all these girls I'm looking for something but I don't know what it is.....
Maybe just maybe it's a love from a Woman I use to get when I was a kid....
My mother was there but she was always to busy
So my sister stood up and took the job show me the love she couldn't give me....

But when it was me and her our world was always perfect
I was a bad *** kid but mamas baby Boi and I deserved it....
But things change when we move south and I just got older..
More attitude more arguments and more verbal disagreement....

I hate you you was the reason why my sister wasn't here...
And step father after step father you been threw broke your heart and it wasn't fair....
But my brother did his part in shown me how to be a man...
And you were away more now more then we both ever plan...

But you hated that he did so cuz I grow up way to fast
And To quickly for you to ever stop me.... (No)
Now ******* calling the house wondering if I can come out
You smile and think it's cute your baby boy got girls falling like parachutes ......

Here I go with all the girls I'v been threw my heart broken is setting in
And one time you try to comfort me but I just would let you in....
It felt awkward for you to even try and touch my skin
And then I thought to myself I just commit gods greatest an biggest sin......

Honor thy parents but where have our love gone I think we left it in Brooklyn
What happen to gift on the weekdays and party's every weekends....
Now you have Gotten older and my emotions more colder
But some where way deep down I'm still your son
But your going to have to reteach me love cuz you haven't see what you have done.......

Look what you've done
Look what you've done !!

You just wanna **** me outta spite...
Problem is I wanna go all night....
And how many times of the night
You call me when you and that ***** have a fight
And I'll still come threw even tho I no it isn't right
Only cuz I have a weakness for you that ain't no if or a might

And while she's fiending for his attention.....
I'm fiending for her positions....
And the same week day ***** he be deep in
Is the same shallow ***** I damage on the weekends
Could be my private dancer..
One phone call and i'll always answer

**** them other ****** cuz I'm down for you
But you ****** them others ****** and made that same sound to
****!!!
As much as I hate to admit it I was wrapped up
We was only suppose to be ******* but that change once I didn't wrap up

But now I gotta back up
Cuz she don't wanna leave him but still  wanna use me as a back up
And I no this but still I can't control this
I hate that he gets the first appointments an I only get the first  notice .... Dam !!!!!


         But baby ....it's yours, it's yours, it's yours , it's yours that's for sure .. Just tell me what you like !!!

I never ask if I can write about you ... Is it alright if i use your name
I never ask if I could talk about you ... Is it alright if I speak on what we became
Now so distance we was once Hollywood estrange  
You was my star,  I enjoyed walking in your fame

Left me out with the waste , this is not what I do
Now I'm in the wrong kind of place just thinking of you
It's a small crime she said , I just hope that wasn't your excuse
I died twice , my heart wasn't ready for what was new

This  is how much talent show around the world goes
Where it's cool to live in a place where the temperature is 18 below
How much cooler do you think if we drink some moe
Put the party on the revel your best peep show

Next she black out and don't remember **** after
She looked in the mirror, hair and make up looking like a disaster
Missing condoms get found in the mattress
She look down and shake her head hoping to fade into the blackness

Vision is blurs but the memories start to get cleared
The worst happen that she always feared
Her daddy is going to be disappointed cuz she follows on her mothers footprints
And ******* hanging on the mirror steady unseen

Reason is she suffers from hard friendship, hard break ups
She don't do anything but continue to put on her makeup
Looking into the mirror thinking its a dream and hope she don't wake up
When he use the same line all the time... It's not you it's me

Heart broken and depression starts to set in
But her emotions that she give just don't want to believe
And as she continue to grieve .......
He moves on with his life .......

P.s.

She calls me with smoke in her lungs
She tells me it's in her nature to run
She said that her love was deep it was more then being sprung
I guess she feared what she didn't no what was among....

Can this cold air bare my feelings
Can this warm air help the healing
Can I face her if she comes back
Can I retrace where we lost track

You made this into a lawyers act what have come between
Us Together was a mutual fact now these opinions aren't foreseen
Love birds huh  .... Is that what the choir sings
My nightmare was Loosen you that's why I blocked away all my dreams

Let me wake up to your fragrant oh girl your amazing
You're supernatural from the body marks I left on you
If we stay inlove let's keep it to us and later on discuss it
You misread what I try to say now your mistrusted

It's a fight we on... It's a fight we must win
From the arguments and leaving each other we continue to become deeper in
My poetry is a will ..but my love for you is a thrill
They say if love can have one act it be the one that kills

Let's grow old together till our body is worn-out and rusted
Cuz your the one I love and your body is what I lusted
Your my angel... I'm your demon
But some how we switch positions once I gave you all my secrets

I can't express a lot on how I feel on this song
But if I continue to write my rights I just no you will fix all my wrongs .. Hold up !!

Why do I try to do good when bad always made my way
And why do I get more hate when its love that makes me stay
And why do I go threw emotions when she just say **** me on her days
And why is it when your doing good is when people always have something to say

Why the **** would I ask for your help if I'm use to getting it on my own
And why would I go party with ***** when I could just ******* right at home
Tell me why you wanna stay but never answer your phone
I called you 34 time now you tell me to leave you alone

Why do I let these ******* in my life so later on they can bounce
It's been so many here I'm afraid to even count
I use to think it was all bout the *** and even threw in the wealth
But I realize it was all the two and even threw in my health

I've been feeling so drain man this pain has gotta go
I entertain y'all with my words but these emotions is what makes the show
Do y'all hear what I'm saying can y'all understand what I have felt
This **** called love has broke me down man I wasn't ready for what the hand have delt

Your suppose to help me steady my life...
And show me what's right ..
I guess it's not the time ...
But I feared I might try ...
To go threw the emotions ...........

Last night I found the troubles of the irony of my life
The fascination of non-fictional figures and new strife
I ask death to keep his promise and bless those who took me out this earth
And if I die....by my own hands don't bless me but replace my curse

See when the lights are down low is when the truth stands behind
But lies of us is better in the light of the shadow we like to disguised
And she once asked me whats love with out recognition
And what's hurt with out any truth behind the decision

And what's your hurt.....
Or are you to ***** to express that emotional feeling
I look at her with pain and a disgusting illing
Because only me and the ones that hurt me no's the horror behind my revealing

My brother and sister promise that they will sing about me
And if my girl is dieing of thirst they will refill her with me
The story's we kept and the memory's we felt
My sister is my number one love
It's crazy how much emotions we delt

And I never new I had another part of me that was older then me
Met him when I was 5 now he's apart of my history at 23
All we shared .. was gun shots blood cots abused and welfare
And as it got better our separations will never compare

So where's my promise .. World where's my promise
You promise me opportunity and equal values
But curse from being called ugly and now handsome limited my statues
So you can understand that my ******* is the only way I show my gratitude

And what happens when the lights are up high and the smoke is down low
Cuz gun powder is what I saw when I road on east New York streets
And who would believe a good kid like me
I was more into bitxhes **** history and open heart poetry

But mistaken and moved to the south
Showed me new patterns so I had to finish my own Brooklyn's route
I did....Taken what I learn in NYC and planted into these tre4 kids
But I never got caught but I guess I got caught for what I use to do did
And challenged me to fix the out come of a new level grid

Now I'm better off in the books of lost souls
And the scriptures of old scrolls and new roles
Still catching duty of my past fixtures in my head
And I can't seem to let these demons go even if I was dead

But ill follow these angels to see the  games they play
Cuz ill never fade away...  ill never fade away ...ill never fade away .. Ill never fade away....

Just sing about me
Just sing about me
Just sing about me
Just sing about me
................I promise

I ask my mama
Will a girl love me the way I loved her
Will I be underpaid for of my many favors
Will my intelligence make me a great debater
Will I understand the things I can't understand now later

She said baby boi
Your joy will come from a woman
Who knows each moment that you love her
And it's not the favors you should be paid for only the kind in your heart that make you a savor
And some people will see your intelligence in the form of a trader
But all the things you don't no now there's  a plan for you to understand later

What's the honor in playing the victim
What's wrong with the world who's banded by the system
Am I the guy who is on the top when they list them
And what's a blessing if a curse gives you the same wisdom

Please don't be blinded
I'm not asking questions I'm just answering what's missing
Like a faithful man who don't wanna cheat in the room full of women
And knowing he should leave but feeling like he's being tested
He thinks if H.I.V is not invested In me , then whys should I be effected by the three

My words are my tyrants
If  I became a Titan will the gods claim me
Or will one god strike me down and try to blame me
For the many faiths that we try to make
And end up digging deeper in our hell hole where  the flamed cook us like shake

Idk man Iv became soo numb numb numb
Understand its been over run by **** and *** *** ***
The many scratches on my wrist Iv number them by 8
And if ****** is what gets me then it would be my own case