I feel like ive been thrown in a loop. Like idk when it happened. But.

So like. I was talking with a friend today. H. And so.

We were talking about the universe and dying and ****. And. "Like i get what you mean" but. Nah. So. I explained what i heard once that was really cool. So. I compared them by saying. "Like, yours is a circle. And mine is like a loop." Yours. It goes around and around and around. No beginning, no end. Okay. Fine i guess "see your point" BUT mine. Like. Its a loop. Little loopty loop. So. You start out and then you cross at one point, like the beginning and then you keep going. Like it diverges. Untill you cross again at another point and then you go to new parts again. I. What was i saying?

I digress. I need a new notebook. I hereby decree. That this will be the first page entry thing of the next new little book i get. Yay.

I lied. Another one here i come.

**** it

Why.


Okay. So actually. I havent lied yet. Cool?

Am i strong enough? Do i have the will?


Okay. So i did lie. It will be just that last one. Yes.
For sure.

I am not your piece of clay to mold to your own design.


Im more than you can imagine. Maybe more than you could comprehend.

And dont you just try to turn it around. I told you all along. You just didnt listen. You didnt, couldnt, refused to accept that. Accept me.



You wanted more than i was. You wanted an image of me. One you made up. And then fawned over. One that you loved. One that was created and modeled all on your own.