Cloud burst drenching us,
That day, love glistened, laughter—
Caught in a shower.

i just doesn't feel the same dear
i hope you take no offense
i have come to realize that life moves on
and so should we
hell i'm only human
isn't that the tragedy of it all
so i bear you no ill will my once love
no matter the hell you put me through
i somehow still loved you
but it seems our day has gone past
and it's time we moved on and stop
grasping at memories with as much
success as holding air in hand
i can't keep you alive in my heart
anymore than i could keep you
in my life and i'm at peace with that
so don't drag it out just find someone else
and put your hand in his
and find a future without me dear
because it seems to me that
no matter what we try our fingers just won't
intertwine

"What an interesting development."
I thought to myself, sadly
Because I'm in love, though very badly
His freckles his smile, there, just barely
I told my sister, though quietly, warily
I regret it already, it was bad of me, bad of me
Because I know it's a lie, that I lied cause I'm lonely
And I wanted his freckles, his smile, there barely
So I'm trying to love him, though quietly, warily






It's not going to last
It will be gone in the morning
And I'm sad that I know that
So I go now, in mourning

Running panting, heart racing trying to make out the black
Checking over my shoulder, wind piercing my face as I run trying to escape  
But I turn around and there you are, no matter where I go I can't seem to escape the endless thoughts of you that my mind won't stop replaying loose ends once tied won't stop from fraying and in the end I find my self praying, for I WILL not ever find myself saying that I need you..need you!?..I scream this, to myself if for anyone (for there is no one else) I'm too strong for that.. (I) Need you?
NO this life is my own and ill take what Ive got ill flip these cards that I've been dealt, ill make them work I do not need your help..I don't need you here!! It plays in my head when I stop to  breathe, chest heaving..The running..it kills me but as I turn around I try and will myself not to believe that you are there, always there, standing amongst the trees. No matter the miles..