I act, I react— I did not impact your life the exact way you did mine. You attract me.
I act, I react— You were the one fact I could never forget and I was abstract. I know I was only there to distract you from your other lover who did not love you as much as I.
I act, I react and I follow the path that subtracts you from me.
I WANT YOU TO LAUGH LIKE YOU USED TO AT THOSE CAT VIDEOS AFTER I MADE YOU WATCH A HORROR MOVIE. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH LIKE YOU WERE WATCHING YOUR OLDER BROTHER FALL OFF HIS BIKE. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH AT ME BECAUSE IT DIDN'T HURT AS MUCH AS IT SHOULD HAVE. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH LIKE YOU FORGOT WHAT WE WERE LAUGHING ABOUT. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH LIKE YOU WERE LIVING IN A WORLD WHERE THE ONLY TIME YOUR MOTHER WENT TO THE HOSPITAL WAS TO HAVE YOU. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH LIKE YOU FORGOT YOU DON'T TALK TO ME ANYMORE. I WANT YOU TO LAUGH. I WANT YOU. I WANT. I—
i stay up late, lately waiting for the day when i call you the wrong name— the wrong syllables in the right mouth. because that's the way i was taught and this is the way i will teach you.
If I were your lover, And you were across the seas— I would swim my whole life in the ocean's long breeze— I would drown for your smile Oh, regardless of degrees— Just to love at your feet, At your heels, at your knees.
When we were nine, you left your mother's home and told the world you were going travelling. I still wait— Hoping that maybe one day you will return with your sanity.
I have been waiting twelve years for you—and nineteen years from now, I will be nineteen—because today is the day I start living, sanely.
Your skin is soft and mine is rough to the touch—but somehow you still let me taste you with these rosebud fingertips which have kissed pinkies pricked thumbs.