something happened Tonight
nothing I do is Right
the light I see is Bright
to exit this world I Might
forgive me, I lost the Fight

☁️

Never thought I'd feel this way
Her eyes
Strong enough to knock me down
I hope she can see through my lies
I said I'd call
Why does she trust me
Why does she love me
Today
I am hers
And tomorrow
I'll be a memory

☁️

She was crying when I left her.
She has forgotten how to smile.
She said she wouldn't change.
She would rather hear a lie.
She would rather feel no pain.
She hears me say don't fall in love.
She see's me live my life.
She knows we have no future.
She wants to live a lie.
She begs me to stay.
She begs me to stay.
She begs me to stay in her lie.

☁️

Maybe today will be different
Maybe today things will change
Your face runs through my mind
Maybe today will be the day

☁️

At the core
Hunters we were
Facing the daily job
Fueled by the desire to live—
And pass on
What separates us
From them
Is our delicate tongues
The ability to dream—
And desire a feeling of release

Looking up at the stars
That dreamy
Glow
Now with closed eyes
Imagining a prior
Self
Whispering from afar
Murmuring about neglected
Dreams
Unfazed but now understanding
That I am
Unafraid

Feel the climb
Yeah
I want to hold you
You say you know everything
But I don't let you feel her
Baby close your eyes
You say you know
So I'll love you today
We lost control
Yeah
We lost control
I want her
I feel her
While I hold you


If
If she only knew
What I did the night
The night I met you
She doesn't do the things you do
And I've got everything you want
But tonight I will love you girl
Can you give me what I want

☁️

I've been cursed by the memories we made
I need someone to replace
The emptiness you left me with
No matter how much I take
These memories won't fade

☁️

Cresting over the skin with a razor, a young woman learns the ins and outs of the society she is in, the blood and tears it takes to be seen, and for someone to love her back, all the while, a Swiss boy, age eight or nine, steals their mother’s makeup and paints on a smile, knowing just how, on the inside, the norms are becoming ever more fragile.

This is as real as it gets
All we do is break down your bodies boarders
Babe
Don't cry in front of me
Should I tell you
I feel none of this
Yeah
Ohhhh
Girl
I'm only 19
And
I only want one thing
You see
You are so easy to me
You say you feel safe inside my arms
Girl
You can feel safe inside my arms

☁️

Everything goes fast now
School goes fast
Girls come fast
Money goes fast
The clocks turn fast
That smoke hits fast
The come down is fast
The pain you feel won’t last
The thought of her face, my dark past
In this world
Everything is fast

☁️

I want it
So I'm going to get it
I need it
So I'm going to get it
I found it
So I'm going to get it
I see it
So I'm going to get it
I see you
So I'm going to get it

We created this world together
I got a little lost
But come with me
Let's create a memory
For that's all this will be
Girl let the smoke take over
You want to be free
Sit back and relax
You have to come and see
Push your lungs to the max
This is just a memory

☁️

Pain and love coincide

☁️

Take one more
Pour one more
Feel one more
Just one more
Girl, one more
You are one more
Just one more
Oh one more
You are just one more

☁️

Sometimes I just write to write
To help me get through the night
The need to be set free
Like a bird flying over the city
Leaving the world below
Going someplace new to grow
I'm in need of something more
This chance is what I've been waiting for

Sometimes I just write to write
Because these days I don't know what's right
So many things they don't want us to see
They don't want me to be me
I think I'm at an all time low
I don't know which way to go
What is there to live for
Girl help me find more

☁️

I'm not the kid I used to be
Yea I'm not the kid I used to be
Don't come to me
Girl don't come to me
Sayin you want to set
To set me free
But what you don't see
What you don't see
Is that I'm not the kid I used to be
Girl I'm not the kid I used to be

☁️

Even though I don't ask you to stay
Just know girl
You mean the world to me

☁️

I'm no good for you.


So leave me.


I'm never going to change my ways.

☁️

Expectations
These expectations
Have a ruthless grip
On me
Like a snake
Around my neck
You led me closer
To the inferno
Despite it all
We continue on
Leaving the garden
Behind

As the clock strikes 2 a.m. in San Jose, the mother of four calls it a day, counts up her earnings, and takes the bus home to her flat, where her oldest son, age fifteen, has put his siblings to bed, and just as he begins to relax, he remembers tomorrow there is a test, one he has not studied for, one he has no need for, his job is to be the man of the house, but his teacher will fail him no doubt.

When the lights fade
Will you be there for me
When the lights fade
Will you be there for me

Girl
Sometimes all these lights fade
Really showing off
All the problems I made
Inside my world with you
All these lights fade
Oh yeah

When the lights fade
Will you be there for me
When the lights fade
Will you be there for me

I'm begging will you be there for me
I need something that you have
Yeah
I need it here for me
You see these lights have faded over me
But what you don't understand is that
I never liked the spotlight anyway
But please

When the lights fade
Will you be there for me
When the lights fade
Will you be there for me

Girl, when the lights fade

Please be there for me
Yeahhh
When the lights fade
Baby please

Will you be there for me
Cause
I need you there for me

☁️

Sometimes I don't know what to believe
Should I have listened
With you girl things are never as they seem
Should I have listened
Girl don't you see, we are suppose to be a team
Should I have listened
Let's go back to when this all felt like a dream
Like a dream
Baby please
Just like a dream

Oh this can't be a dream

My friends tell me things
I don't know if it's the truth
No matter what they say
I just can't leave you

☁️

You,
you have a lot to learn
Things need time,
that fire must burn
You have these rules,
saying I have to wait my turn
Show me what love is,
I too have a lot to learn

This love is ****** and raw
This love is so sweet
This love is youthful
This love is free
This love is spontaneous yet steady
This love is complete
This love—
Is on repeat

Where is the love
is the love?
Oh where is the love
is the love?
Why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh love

I need you to run back to me
back to me
Oh love
Please don't move on
Girl
I need you to run back to me

☁️

You sit and admire
The way she moves
Unlike anything you have seen
How has the creator
Made such a perfect being
Along came the temptations
Forbidden was the word
Do not touch was meditated
How could one resist
Something so pure
Judgement clouded by lust
The Word all but forgotten
Lucifer at his wicked best
This however
Not a devil
Or a snake
But your last mistress
You little cheat

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You,
may not realize
That when the lights no longer shine,
no one will be there to hear your cries

You,
you shouldn't cry
Because you love it,
girl I wanna see you try

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for
You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for

Girl

Ooohhhhoo girl
Don't take any more
This may be our last chance
To make this work

☁️

All you say is
Never again
You say this isn't love
But something brings you back
Every time
You're just a *******
So pain is what you're looking for
Tears running down your face
Is nothing new
Girl all you say is
Never again
You say you can't find love
But something brings you to me
Not just tonight
But every night
Because you're just a *******
So pain is what you're looking for
So bring your self to me
I can take your pain away tonight

☁️

You crave all the attention,
all the money, all the fame.
But somewhere within there is a tension,
and you begin to feel the shame.
These days you struggle to make a distinction,
when you look for someone to blame.
But let's not forget to mention,
that all you wanted was the money and the fame.

As mountains of paper continue to cover her desk, a student blurts out, “Why is my grade like this?”, the teacher knows she is behind, with grades, social life, motivation withering on the vine, but the students do not care, because Christmas is near, and when the next semester rolls around, another mountain will appear.

it is difficult to remain focused, during
Mornings like these.
a little sad, a little mad, during
Mornings like these.
memories come and go, blurry images, during
Mourning's like these.

I want to get my way
Tonight
Girl
Bring your body
Lay yourself down
Take another hit

Hold it till your face turns blue
Grab me harder
If you need
Loose yourself
When I'm in you

Just bring your body
And lay yourself down
Yeah take another hit

You're on another level girl
Let's go again
Another round
Just you and I
For this time

Just bring your body
And lay yourself down
Yeah take another hit

This is not over
I can give a little more
Because I want to get my way
Girl please
I want to get my way

☁️

In this world
Nothing is still
You don't know
In this world
Nothing is real
You need to know
In my world
No one is real

☁️

You are my new drug
Without you I can't breathe
But sadly what you don't see
Is that my new drug
Is not the only thing I need

☁️

It is as if
My most golden time
Was when I had absolutely
No need for gold
All that altered my life
Was the glimmer in your eye

Girl there is something I need to tell you
These days are getting longer and longer
This come down has never been harder
I told you I would quit
Because this is no longer fun
I'm the broken heart King
And you should know
There is no saving me

☁️

I watch you girl
I watch you girl
From across the room
Please notice me
Please notice me
I'm drowning over here
Baby if you knew
Baby if you knew
How I feel about you
You are what I want
You are what I want
I just wanted you to know

☁️

You leave me exhausted
I want to be alone when I wake up
Baby you want to cry
I do not know what I am doing
This is not your home
You have no more to prove
Baby you start to cry
I do not know how to help
You thought this was your home
There is nothing more for you to do
Baby you fell to the floor
I watch you take one more
You could not accept
That this world was not for you
You did not know how this would end
Baby please
Do not leave this world we are in

☁️

The days and the nights, just a blur
The days and the nights
Just a blur
You thought there was more to us
You ask why
You ask
Why
I can't reply
But baby please
But baby
Please
Don't leave me tonight
One little storm can't put out this light
One little storm
Can't put out this light
I tell myself, this will be the last time
But time after time we find ourselves here
But time after time
We find ourselves here
Who's to blame
When the storm rains on us it pours
When the storm rains on us
It pours
Don't pretend to have no shame
The rain is relentless these days
The rain is relentless
These days
I hope that we can see this through
You and I
You
And I
We both know
One more storm like this
One more storm
Like this
Will be the end of it

☁️

Please
No more of this pain you left me in today
I've seen to many tears hit the floor
You know every word that I will say
Girl I thought you said you wanted more
Baby please don't leave me this way
Please don't walk out that door
Just give me one more day
But without tears hitting the floor

☁️

I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
Girl when I see your face
See your face
Oh girl when I see your face
See your face
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one

☁️

You still owe me an explanation
Before you ruin another night
All the questions
All the pain
No need to start again
When we both know
Where it will end
Secrets exposed
All the stones unturned
All the memories
Let them burn

Girl
For you
Pain and love coincide
I ask you why
Every night
When you come
And see me
That you have to go as far
As far as you will let me
But what you don't see
Is that I'm begging you please
Baby please
Don't let go
As your tears fall to the floor
This cycle only ends one way
And girl just the other day
When you were lying on the floor
Holding on
Trying not to loose control
But you see
That this cycle is the way
To cover up the pain
Only thing is
You don't see
It's killing you either way

☁️

These pills don't take away the pain
Yeah
These pills don't take away the pain
Ohhh girl
These pills don't take away the pain
Please help
These pills don't take away the pain

☁️

She was young
She was so independent
Parents cry—
About the wrongs she committed

They don’t try
They never try

But she doesn’t mind
She is young
And parents cry—
When their children outgrow their fantasy

We kissed
Shared the love
The passion
We fell
Into depression
A living hell
So many questions
Feelings of betrayal
No answers
This is a cancer

☁️