Moonlight reappears
You and I both know
If it feels right
Embrace and go

Liquor pours
Your favorite record plays
Compose yourself as I grow tall
Look

As our silhouettes dance on the wall
Tonight we can live our dreams
But forgive me
It just seems

That you are holding back
Please don’t hold back
Let it out
Live our dreams

how have I forgotten
foolish me
my lips across your skin  
just memories
you would think we would have learned
from the past that we had made
that we were not meant for each other
and that's the price we pay

Oh you're right on time
We were just about to leave
To a place unlike anything you have ever seen
You won't want to be alone
So baby hold me tight
I've got you tonight
But watch out
For the pain I feel
Only comes at night

☁️

Nothing is the same anymore
This used to be fun for us
You start to stair off into the darkness
I begin to share my dark secrets
This place is foreign
The excitement is there
Your curiosity has clouded your judgment
I take advantage
Slowly and slowly
Doing what I please
While you beg for my love from your knees
Don't beg I say
Don't beg
I know you want it all
I warn you to be careful
You grab me even tighter
The pain is upon us
So baby hold me tighter

☁️

Do you feel safe inside my arms?

☁️

Why do you come back to me?
Everytime you leave, tears are running down your face.

☁️

When you lay sleepless throughout the night
Do you think about me?

☁️

Seductive
From the start
Knowing every
Word to say
Your wicked ways
Chasing new love
Day by day
Finding reasons
To push me away

You have never looked this good
I think I'll make you stay
Show you off
Show you the life
Promise you things
Make you feel safe
You should have known
Not to trust me
If you stay
I'll lay you down
Show you the life
The thrill
The climb
The fall
You will cry
Please don't cry
You're safe
Baby girl
You wanted this

☁️

You are too ******* yourself
Just let the past go
All these walls you have put up
It's hard for me to know
What you are really feeling inside
No emotions for you to show
Running in circles you say
Just let the past go
You're just running in circles now girl
Just let the past go

☁️

I saw you everyday hiding behind that smile
You were out here trying to make better of what you had with no help
But what you didn't see is things won't change
You kept running back to that same dude
Playing those same old games
I never understood the times
You would call me up, I questioned why
In your voice I heard cries, desperate cries
And now that you are gone
I realize why

☁️

I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been
I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been

Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways
Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways


I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl
I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl

☁️

we are judged too often
for seeing in color
and the differences all around
are you starting to follow?

try and connect with it all
open your eyes, just be free
why not apprecitate
everything you see?

even though you may feel
as if your efforts are too small
do you remember your mistakes
do you recall?

what needs to be done
when it comes to everyday life
is love everyone
is it too hard to try?

I see you here and there
You are everywhere
Wherever I go
Your face will show
No matter what I do
I can't stop seeing you

☁️

You said please
All you say is please
You say I am yours
Oh baby I can be yours
But just tonight
I want you tonight
Just don't blame me baby, please don't blame me
You shouldn't have followed me
Now all you can say is what if
I don't say or think, what if
So bring your body here
All we do is pretend here
I thought you knew I'd play you
And that this was never for you
You hate selfish people you say
You love me, you say

☁️

these cracks grow deeper
with my decisions
i do not mean to come off selfish
but this is my sick addiction
the darkness is catching up
i try and run
these demons are creeping up
and the pain has just begun
something is holding me
dragging me down
how can i break free
i need out of this town

Don't make me slow down
It's already too late
Don't make me slow down
It's already too late
Don't make me slow down
This was already your fate

☁️

Hide behind the smiles
You'd rather hear a lie
You'd rather feel no pain

☁️

Sometimes
I push myself
To see how far I can go
To see how high I can get
Sometimes
I force myself
To take one more
To see how far I can go
Sometimes
I hate myself
And see no point in this
So I take one more
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I push for more
To see how high we can get
Sometimes
When I'm with you
All I want to do
Is go to the sky
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I think of her
But you can't know
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I hate myself
And see no point in this

☁️

Be honest with me
Every word I say is real
You urge to talk to me
And our time is here
Baby are you here for me
I need to know just how you feel
Do you think your future is with me
I want to know if this is real

☁️

Why write
Why write
These thoughts appear
Sufficiently slight

Baffling bite
Baffling bite
Nothing else
Feels right

Glimmering lie
Glimmering lie
Both on the floor
Why even try

These thoughts appear
Nothing else feels right
Why even try
Why even write

There was nothing between us,
on that cold November night.
With the city in the distance,
everything we did felt right.

We both made promises,
that we would never grow our separate ways.
How could we have known,
what was to come in future days.

Together we were too young,
still green in this unforgiving place.
Once our love began to fade,
we knew the choice we had to face.

But how could we forget,
about that cold November night.
With the city in the distance,
everything we did felt right.

Leaves falling, symbolic death
A human taking their last breath
Look around
As the wind blows us round and round
Where you stop, no one knows
The journey you will undergo
Maybe one day, we all will see
That we should have held on
To that little tree

☁️

You loved me first

Under that spring night sky
You fell harder
As my breath moved across your skin
Under that spring night sky
I was no longer a stranger
When we broke down our bodies boarders
Under that spring night sky
If only you could see yourself in the light
Of the stars above you tonight
Under that spring night sky
I thought I was in love
I never knew it would be the only time
Under that spring night sky
When I kissed you goodnight
And went on without you in my life

☁️

Why would someone
Put a bird in

A cage

Even with a velvet floor
The bird will lose its way

How can one call for help
When they have no voice?

In this dark world
Helpless cries echo
Helpless cries echo throughout the night
Silence filled with fear
No one knows what's right
You say the end is near
You say you see the light
When you have no voice to scream
For help that you may need
The silence is taking over
A couple more pills and you'll be free

☁️

This was written with a new pen


People question me
They will always question me
I must make a change they say
Evolve into something more
All while staying true
Staying true to the core


I let you in
Now you know everything
No more secrets
No more lies
I'm only 19
So girl this is all you will get from me

☁️

cautiously consider, controversial cues
cautiously consider
what you see
on the news

detailed decisions, determined direction
detailed decisions
still no hiding
imperfections

elaborate excuses, emphatic energy
elaborate excuses
the lies are
extraordinary

cautiously consider
what you see on the news
detailed decisions
elaborate excuses

You could have had me so simply
You let me walk away that day
They say things about me
I don't listen to what they say
You know the real me
So you say
You don't know the real me


You can't know the real me

☁️

I no longer,
live with doubt.
Because of this,
I am stronger.

These night winds,
howling.
In the distance,
the thunder claps.

These storms,
have left me with cracks.
Like scars,
from the past.

I no longer,
live with fear.
Because these storms,
have made me stronger.

You ask
Do you remember me
The truth hurts
So I lie to your face

☁️

together as one
fragile we were
still green to the world
so we ran with the lust

together as one
growing we were
are roots now deeper
this lust turned to love

together as one
as the years flew by
we created this life
a mother you now were

together as one
as our last days approach
what a life we both shared
together as one

Baby leave the thoughts of him behind
It's just you and I tonight
Say that you love me
Say that you love me
Everyone wants you girl
Haven't you heard them call
You could have them all
But it's just you and I tonight

☁️

Thank you to the person
Who waters the flowers
Sustaining the colors
And feeding the hummingbirds

Morning after morning, the wrinkled man rises with the sun, pours a cup of coffee, sitting—listening for the train to roar by, the same track a much younger man, is cramming his brain full of numbers by, to get where he wants to go, an engineer, who was fascinated by trains at an early age.

Murmurs flow
Across your trembling tongue
This dampened glow
Will you overcome
Demons are creeping up
You better run

Amazing to think
You could have had me
But somehow
We both escaped

Look at me now
I’m only 21
So let me be me
Let me be free

I’m trying to fly
Away from everything
Fly high, so high
Leaving the pain below

I can’t wait to see what’s in store
The future is bright
For the 21 year old
Me

You don't know
No one will stop us
Enter this world
No one will stop us
Give into the lust
No one will stop us
Do what you please
No one will stop us
Use me
No one will stop us
Take another drink
No one will stop us
Get on another level
No one will stop us

☁️

Sophisticated lovin’
I hope you see
I hope you listen
This love is a prison
Call me your prisoner
Call me your prison guard
Under your spell
You manipulated every outcome
You manipulate your lover

Often
I find myself pondering
The sheer madness
Of mankind
Have we reached the pinnacle
Or
Is there more for us to find

It is concerning how our society’s flaws keep surfacing. And what do we do? We sit back— in awe, due to the perplexity of it all. This cycle— this ****** cycle— will be upsetting forevermore.

I remember her that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

We grew our separate ways
Sayin' you want to be on your own
Only I was still in love
Because of this I learned so much

I often think about those moments
And how things might of been  
A night doesn't go by
That I don't want you here with me

But then I think back to that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

"I really, really needed you tonight baby...

You said you'd call...

No one said love was this hard"



I told you not to fall in love
I told myself not to lose control
You beg me to fall in love
I try to leave you
I try to show you
I try to tell you
Not to fall in love

☁️

The warm night fuels are youthful spirit  
The fun has just began
When it’s all said and done
You will wish that you had run

Cover your lies
So you shall try
There is no one to hear
You cry

No where to go
Or look for help
To scream out
Or find yourself

Do you recall all the mistakes
Do you think about them day by day
Every summer night
Day by day

I'm way too young
I'm way too young
Love all around
I can't stand the feelings

I'm way too young
I'm way too young
Love all around
I can't stand the feelings

Still way too young
We are way too young
You say you want love
But we run from our feelings

Still way too young
We are way too young
You say you want love
But we run from our feelings

☁️

From here on out
Nothing is the same
Another level is what they want
Luckily I know what that is
So girl I will let you feel me
But you can't wash the sins
Of the past I have
Babe don't read all the things I say
This is a new me
So it doesn't have to hurt
And the more you want of me
Is what will continue to push me
You know that my old world is there
Whenever we want
But you and I
Have something new
And you know I can get you right
Baby we can have it all
So from here on out
Nothing is the same
And you and I
Have something new tonight

☁️

Through the grass you maneuvered your way.
Preying on the weak, pleasing yourself,
day by day.
One must stay strong.
When faced with such allure.
One must remain true, true to the core.
By doing so,
you might regain control.
Overcoming obstacles and much more.
The knowledge gained unknown.
For when man conquers this,
where will the power go?

I can't imagine
     what it's like for you
Both your parents gone
     no one to fight for you
But what you don't see
     is I was always there
No matter what you said or did
     I always cared


Yea girl I always cared
Yea girl I always cared


"What you did today
I can't forgive
Boy don't think you can play those games
Running back to those same old girls
Playing those same old games
I told myself I wouldn't do this again
And baby I'm not trying to pick a fight
You say this world ain't perfect
And sadly, looking at us
You are right"