This love is ****** and raw
This love is so sweet
This love is youthful
This love is free
This love is spontaneous yet steady
This love is complete
This love—
Is on repeat

These pills don't take away the pain
Yeah
These pills don't take away the pain
Ohhh girl
These pills don't take away the pain
Please help
These pills don't take away the pain

☁️

If I promised you things
Would you leave everything you have
And come with me
Please
Come with me

☁️

Hide behind the smiles
You'd rather hear a lie
You'd rather feel no pain

☁️

Sometimes
I push myself
To see how far I can go
To see how high I can get
Sometimes
I force myself
To take one more
To see how far I can go
Sometimes
I hate myself
And see no point in this
So I take one more
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I push for more
To see how high we can get
Sometimes
When I'm with you
All I want to do
Is go to the sky
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I think of her
But you can't know
Sometimes
When I'm with you
I hate myself
And see no point in this

☁️

Cresting over the skin with a razor, a young woman learns the ins and outs of the society she is in, the blood and tears it takes to be seen, and for someone to love her back, all the while, a Swiss boy, age eight or nine, steals their mother’s makeup and paints on a smile, knowing just how, on the inside, the norms are becoming ever more fragile.

Every night I think of you, when I lay down in bed. It feels so empty here now, your face won't leave my head. At the time we were too young, still green in this unforgiving world. You thought it was best to grow apart, now I need something new to live for.

☁️

Aware of everything
But paying attention to one thing  
Balancing on this ball we call life
Most do not know
What it takes to create the spark
A life worth living
Filled with desire and passion
Always leaving your mark

I want to get my way
Tonight
Girl
Bring your body
Lay yourself down
Take another hit

Hold it till your face turns blue
Grab me harder
If you need
Loose yourself
When I'm in you

Just bring your body
And lay yourself down
Yeah take another hit

You're on another level girl
Let's go again
Another round
Just you and I
For this time

Just bring your body
And lay yourself down
Yeah take another hit

This is not over
I can give a little more
Because I want to get my way
Girl please
I want to get my way

☁️

We created this world together
I got a little lost
But come with me
Let's create a memory
For that's all this will be
Girl let the smoke take over
You want to be free
Sit back and relax
You have to come and see
Push your lungs to the max
This is just a memory

☁️

You have never looked this good
I think I'll make you stay
Show you off
Show you the life
Promise you things
Make you feel safe
You should have known
Not to trust me
If you stay
I'll lay you down
Show you the life
The thrill
The climb
The fall
You will cry
Please don't cry
You're safe
Baby girl
You wanted this

☁️

Morning after morning, the wrinkled man rises with the sun, pours a cup of coffee, sitting—listening for the train to roar by, the same track a much younger man, is cramming his brain full of numbers by, to get where he wants to go, an engineer, who was fascinated by trains at an early age.

Do you feel safe inside my arms?

☁️

Careful observations of the
changing leaves
A daily reminder that
our lives
Are not so different than
the trees
Beauty on display above that
chilled ground
Just to fall from our
high perch
Just to be
cut down

what a subtle surprise
the slightest growth
on my window sill

young minds
and plants alike
need nutrients to grow

it is
my responsibility to
keep these plants alive

it is
my responsibility to
allow these young minds to thrive

dancing about
             light on my
                                feet.
dancing about
             is this a      
                                dream?
dancing about
             will you join
                                me?
dancing about
              your love set me
                                free.

Often
I find myself pondering
The sheer madness
Of mankind
Have we reached the pinnacle
Or
Is there more for us to find

You ask
Do you remember me
The truth hurts
So I lie to your face

☁️

Sometimes I just write to write
To help me get through the night
The need to be set free
Like a bird flying over the city
Leaving the world below
Going someplace new to grow
I'm in need of something more
This chance is what I've been waiting for

Sometimes I just write to write
Because these days I don't know what's right
So many things they don't want us to see
They don't want me to be me
I think I'm at an all time low
I don't know which way to go
What is there to live for
Girl help me find more

☁️

Sometimes I don't know what to believe
Should I have listened
With you girl things are never as they seem
Should I have listened
Girl don't you see, we are suppose to be a team
Should I have listened
Let's go back to when this all felt like a dream
Like a dream
Baby please
Just like a dream

Oh this can't be a dream

My friends tell me things
I don't know if it's the truth
No matter what they say
I just can't leave you

☁️

To those out there that read about my world, and keep coming back for more.


Thank you
I mean that from the bottom of my heart
Without you all
I would not have made it this far
Things are getting better
Even though
Sometimes I wake up
Not remembering a thing from the night before
But what some don't realize
Is that this is what I live for




ohhhhhhh
ohhh

ohhh yeahhh




I'll have you coming back for more

☁️

Nothing is the same anymore
This used to be fun for us
You start to stair off into the darkness
I begin to share my dark secrets
This place is foreign
The excitement is there
Your curiosity has clouded your judgment
I take advantage
Slowly and slowly
Doing what I please
While you beg for my love from your knees
Don't beg I say
Don't beg
I know you want it all
I warn you to be careful
You grab me even tighter
The pain is upon us
So baby hold me tighter

☁️

You got me girl
You got me girl
Stay, don't go
You got me girl
I need more
I need more
You say you want love
I need more
I can give you more
I can give you more
Let me prove
I can give you more

☁️

you deserve more than me

☁️

what in life brings you pleasure?
a certain touch, one that cannot be measured
what in life brings you pain?
her taking off, so you could wait
for her return
in vain

From here on out
Nothing is the same
Another level is what they want
Luckily I know what that is
So girl I will let you feel me
But you can't wash the sins
Of the past I have
Babe don't read all the things I say
This is a new me
So it doesn't have to hurt
And the more you want of me
Is what will continue to push me
You know that my old world is there
Whenever we want
But you and I
Have something new
And you know I can get you right
Baby we can have it all
So from here on out
Nothing is the same
And you and I
Have something new tonight

☁️

"Where are my friends"?
"Where are my friends"?

Girl
I am all you have
Ohhh
Baby I am all you have
I am the thing you want
And I will let you have it all
Just know
Your friends don't know me
Yeah your friends don't know me
Baby you
You don't know me


Oh girl where are your friends
I don't like your friends
They don't know about us
They can't know about us
Listen
Just listen
The way you move
I love the way you move
Are you ready
Baby are you ready
Girl you need me
Please, need me

☁️

Take one more
Pour one more
Feel one more
Just one more
Girl, one more
You are one more
Just one more
Oh one more
You are just one more

☁️

The warm night fuels are youthful spirit  
The fun has just began
When it’s all said and done
You will wish that you had run

Cover your lies
So you shall try
There is no one to hear
You cry

No where to go
Or look for help
To scream out
Or find yourself

Do you recall all the mistakes
Do you think about them day by day
Every summer night
Day by day

Can't you see that you're all that I have now
No ones here but you to feel my pain
All I ask from you is a simple favor
Maybe take away my pain for the day

Can't you see that I am trying
These days I don't know who's to blame
The world could have been ours and much more
I ask myself why did you stay

Can't you see that we lost it all
The spark we once had has now fade
I look for answers in darkness
The future for us is not great

Can't you see that you're all that I have girl
So please don't leave me this way
My life has been full of disappointment
Without you there's no need for me

☁️

Never thought I'd feel this way
Her eyes
Strong enough to knock me down
I hope she can see through my lies
I said I'd call
Why does she trust me
Why does she love me
Today
I am hers
And tomorrow
I'll be a memory

☁️

I can't imagine
     what it's like for you
Both your parents gone
     no one to fight for you
But what you don't see
     is I was always there
No matter what you said or did
     I always cared


Yea girl I always cared
Yea girl I always cared


"What you did today
I can't forgive
Boy don't think you can play those games
Running back to those same old girls
Playing those same old games
I told myself I wouldn't do this again
And baby I'm not trying to pick a fight
You say this world ain't perfect
And sadly, looking at us
You are right"

Last night when I saw you
There were tears in your eyes
I had to find a way
To cover up these lies

We had built this life
Fueled with lust
Filled with pain
So little trust

Who is to blame

Reflecting on how I feel
Looking at what we had
Thinking the love was real
Now I lost myself, loving you

Now I lost myself, loving you

All you say is
Never again
You say this isn't love
But something brings you back
Every time
You're just a *******
So pain is what you're looking for
Tears running down your face
Is nothing new
Girl all you say is
Never again
You say you can't find love
But something brings you to me
Not just tonight
But every night
Because you're just a *******
So pain is what you're looking for
So bring your self to me
I can take your pain away tonight

☁️

As you grow,
you find things move faster and faster
You come to appreciate,
the people that bring you laughter
The ones that give you love,
and make you feel like you really matter

It is important to note,
that these people are far and few between
So as you grow,
Just remember the future is unforeseen

Somehow
I have managed
To forget the weight
All the self doubt
All the self hate
I begin to crumble
You begin to manipulate
Stuck in this cycle
Somehow
Has become my fate

This is it
This is goodbye
I get it
Why even try

These clouded thoughts
As I think of what to say
To you
Before you leave me today

I miss the feelings
Knowing you were there
Thinking about me
When you close your eyes

Without you I am not quite sure
What to do
When the cold wind blows
Who knows where I will go

Girl

Ooohhhhoo girl
Don't take any more
This may be our last chance
To make this work

☁️

I'm no good for you.


So leave me.


I'm never going to change my ways.

☁️

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You,
may not realize
That when the lights no longer shine,
no one will be there to hear your cries

You,
you shouldn't cry
Because you love it,
girl I wanna see you try

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for
You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for

Feel the climb
Yeah
I want to hold you
You say you know everything
But I don't let you feel her
Baby close your eyes
You say you know
So I'll love you today
We lost control
Yeah
We lost control
I want her
I feel her
While I hold you


If
If she only knew
What I did the night
The night I met you
She doesn't do the things you do
And I've got everything you want
But tonight I will love you girl
Can you give me what I want

☁️

Don't fall in love
Baby please
Don't fall in love


You know I'll leave
Oh girl
You know I'll leave


You know
I'll leave

☁️

Sophisticated lovin’
I hope you see
I hope you listen
This love is a prison
Call me your prisoner
Call me your prison guard
Under your spell
You manipulated every outcome
You manipulate your lover

Maybe today will be different
Maybe today things will change
Your face runs through my mind
Maybe today will be the day

☁️

You sit and admire
The way she moves
Unlike anything you have seen
How has the creator
Made such a perfect being
Along came the temptations
Forbidden was the word
Do not touch was meditated
How could one resist
Something so pure
Judgement clouded by lust
The Word all but forgotten
Lucifer at his wicked best
This however
Not a devil
Or a snake
But your last mistress
You little cheat

The fabric of my pillowcase
Matches your eyes
As I close mine
My mind begins to memorialize

Like adolescents we were
Jumping over a fire
Hand in hand
The love and desire

Embracing one another
Now part of the scenery
The sun begins to fall
Oh, the irony

Gliding through the night
Our tongues collide
With dew on the grass
We hold on for the ride

Follow me
Girl please follow me
Nothing is the same
Some nights I feel no pain
This is just a broken tape
This is just a broken tape
And girl I will give you all I have
All I have
All I have
Baby you're going to make me go insane
So please give me all of you

But only for tonight

You would follow me
Oh you

You would follow me

☁️

Everything goes fast now
School goes fast
Girls come fast
Money goes fast
The clocks turn fast
That smoke hits fast
The come down is fast
The pain you feel won’t last
The thought of her face, my dark past
In this world
Everything is fast

☁️

The fall came without notice,
both caught unaware.
How could something so special,
turn in to such a nightmare?
On the outside,
they hid it well.
But we all knew,
the demons they both shared.