I wish I could feel this
What's real anymore?
Maybe, just maybe
All I need is your kiss

Maybe, just maybe
You could save me from this dark abyss
Please hurry, please save me
From this dark abyss

Please hurry,
Please save me
These ropes hang from the ceiling
Ropes don't you see

These ropes hang from the ceiling
You left me with no feelings
No other way for me to move on
That's why, ropes hang from the ceiling

No other way for me to move on
This might finally be the time
For me to get gone
So goodbye world, make sure my name lives on.

In this world
Nothing is still
You don't know
In this world
Nothing is real
You need to know
In my world
No one is real

☁️

something happened Tonight
nothing I do is Right
the light I see is Bright
to exit this world I Might
forgive me, I lost the Fight

☁️

As the clock strikes 2 a.m. in San Jose, the mother of four calls it a day, counts up her earnings, and takes the bus home to her flat, where her oldest son, age fifteen, has put his siblings to bed, and just as he begins to relax, he remembers tomorrow there is a test, one he has not studied for, one he has no need for, his job is to be the man of the house, but his teacher will fail him no doubt.

This is your first time
Just remember
This is your first time ....

Girl
Hold me tight
As we race through the night
On your first time
You may get a little lost
With your heart racing
Your cautious thoughts begin to fade into the night ....

Now you are in my world
And I'm asking you to stay
I know it is your first time
Girl come take a couple drinks
Relax your grip
But please don't slow down
There's only one thing that I want
And with one more you will find out
You see in my world no one is safe
I think you can see by my face
That this is not only your first time
But our last

☁️

Lay next to me
Hold on to me
Beg to me
Get high with me
Take it off for me
Feel me
Open your mind with me
See the world with me
Please don't leave me
Baby please
Don't cry with me

☁️

You still owe me an explanation
Before you ruin another night
All the questions
All the pain
No need to start again
When we both know
Where it will end
Secrets exposed
All the stones unturned
All the memories
Let them burn

we built these walls
we built it all
we built these cities
we will one day, watch them fall

we hold it all in
we hold back the pain
we hold back the anger
we must learn, we must gain

we must learn
we must grow
we will in time
we will show

escape from the city
escape from the insanity
escape from these walls
escape from it all

I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
Girl when I see your face
See your face
Oh girl when I see your face
See your face
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one

☁️

"I really, really needed you tonight baby...

You said you'd call...

No one said love was this hard"



I told you not to fall in love
I told myself not to lose control
You beg me to fall in love
I try to leave you
I try to show you
I try to tell you
Not to fall in love

☁️

I no longer,
live with doubt.
Because of this,
I am stronger.

These night winds,
howling.
In the distance,
the thunder claps.

These storms,
have left me with cracks.
Like scars,
from the past.

I no longer,
live with fear.
Because these storms,
have made me stronger.

Even though I don't ask you to stay
Just know girl
You mean the world to me

☁️

Baby leave the thoughts of him behind
It's just you and I tonight
Say that you love me
Say that you love me
Everyone wants you girl
Haven't you heard them call
You could have them all
But it's just you and I tonight

☁️

I remember her that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

We grew our separate ways
Sayin' you want to be on your own
Only I was still in love
Because of this I learned so much

I often think about those moments
And how things might of been  
A night doesn't go by
That I don't want you here with me

But then I think back to that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

You don't know
No one will stop us
Enter this world
No one will stop us
Give into the lust
No one will stop us
Do what you please
No one will stop us
Use me
No one will stop us
Take another drink
No one will stop us
Get on another level
No one will stop us

☁️

As I sit and stare at this blank page
I begin to think about one thing
Do I leave and follow my dream?

                                                                                            Or stay with you?
These days I don't know what to do

these cracks grow deeper
with my decisions
i do not mean to come off selfish
but this is my sick addiction
the darkness is catching up
i try and run
these demons are creeping up
and the pain has just begun
something is holding me
dragging me down
how can i break free
i need out of this town

Amazing to think
You could have had me
But somehow
We both escaped

Look at me now
I’m only 21
So let me be me
Let me be free

I’m trying to fly
Away from everything
Fly high, so high
Leaving the pain below

I can’t wait to see what’s in store
The future is bright
For the 21 year old
Me

Pain and love coincide

☁️

Girl there is something I need to tell you
These days are getting longer and longer
This come down has never been harder
I told you I would quit
Because this is no longer fun
I'm the broken heart King
And you should know
There is no saving me

☁️

Murmurs flow
Across your trembling tongue
This dampened glow
Will you overcome
Demons are creeping up
You better run

This is as real as it gets
All we do is break down your bodies boarders
Babe
Don't cry in front of me
Should I tell you
I feel none of this
Yeah
Ohhhh
Girl
I'm only 19
And
I only want one thing
You see
You are so easy to me
You say you feel safe inside my arms
Girl
You can feel safe inside my arms

☁️

I see you here and there
You are everywhere
Wherever I go
Your face will show
No matter what I do
I can't stop seeing you

☁️

Because of your past,
                                     you built these walls,
                                     and held it all in.

But then you came across me,
                                                     and began to see,
                                                     that things could maybe be different.

The flame started to burn.
                                              
            ­                                 We felt as if we could conquer it all.

Moonlight reappears
You and I both know
If it feels right
Embrace and go

Liquor pours
Your favorite record plays
Compose yourself as I grow tall
Look

As our silhouettes dance on the wall
Tonight we can live our dreams
But forgive me
It just seems

That you are holding back
Please don’t hold back
Let it out
Live our dreams

You crave all the attention,
all the money, all the fame.
But somewhere within there is a tension,
and you begin to feel the shame.
These days you struggle to make a distinction,
when you look for someone to blame.
But let's not forget to mention,
that all you wanted was the money and the fame.

I lucked out
With a friend like you
Striking gold
You are superior
You are something to behold
Conversations in the dark
Come with convincing choice words
Please—tell me again
All the things that you prefer

I'm far from perfect
I'm far from perfect
But you see
I don't want to be

There are so many things
There are so many things
You don't know
You'll have to wait and see

And with time you may find out
And with time you may find out
All the different sides
To me

Seductive
From the start
Knowing every
Word to say
Your wicked ways
Chasing new love
Day by day
Finding reasons
To push me away

This desk has no name,
no face,
no personality associated with it;
it hurts,
it stings,
it drains all my energy away.

Girl
For you
Pain and love coincide
I ask you why
Every night
When you come
And see me
That you have to go as far
As far as you will let me
But what you don't see
Is that I'm begging you please
Baby please
Don't let go
As your tears fall to the floor
This cycle only ends one way
And girl just the other day
When you were lying on the floor
Holding on
Trying not to loose control
But you see
That this cycle is the way
To cover up the pain
Only thing is
You don't see
It's killing you either way

☁️

Yeah I'm in the clouds tonight
I don't want to fall
Girl lets play a game
It's been over a year
I never thought I'd see your face again
I had to get away
Escape the life I made
You knew you couldn't hang
Do you still love me
Do you still love me
When the lights fade
And you can't see my face

☁️

I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been
I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been

Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways
Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways


I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl
I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl

☁️

This was written with a new pen


People question me
They will always question me
I must make a change they say
Evolve into something more
All while staying true
Staying true to the core


I let you in
Now you know everything
No more secrets
No more lies
I'm only 19
So girl this is all you will get from me

☁️

Why write
Why write
These thoughts appear
Sufficiently slight

Baffling bite
Baffling bite
Nothing else
Feels right

Glimmering lie
Glimmering lie
Both on the floor
Why even try

These thoughts appear
Nothing else feels right
Why even try
Why even write

I'm not the kid I used to be
Yea I'm not the kid I used to be
Don't come to me
Girl don't come to me
Sayin you want to set
To set me free
But what you don't see
What you don't see
Is that I'm not the kid I used to be
Girl I'm not the kid I used to be

☁️

Oh you're right on time
We were just about to leave
To a place unlike anything you have ever seen
You won't want to be alone
So baby hold me tight
I've got you tonight
But watch out
For the pain I feel
Only comes at night

☁️

I saw you everyday hiding behind that smile
You were out here trying to make better of what you had with no help
But what you didn't see is things won't change
You kept running back to that same dude
Playing those same old games
I never understood the times
You would call me up, I questioned why
In your voice I heard cries, desperate cries
And now that you are gone
I realize why

☁️

Thank you to the person
Who waters the flowers
Sustaining the colors
And feeding the hummingbirds

I watch you girl
I watch you girl
From across the room
Please notice me
Please notice me
I'm drowning over here
Baby if you knew
Baby if you knew
How I feel about you
You are what I want
You are what I want
I just wanted you to know

☁️

Don't make me slow down
It's already too late
Don't make me slow down
It's already too late
Don't make me slow down
This was already your fate

☁️

Why do you come back to me?
Everytime you leave, tears are running down your face.

☁️

How is it so
That you are the calm
And the storm

A force to be reckoned with
Show me your ways
Then show me more

You built these walls
So high
Yet I still try

To learn your ways
And how to ride out
The storm

At the core
Hunters we were
Facing the daily job
Fueled by the desire to live—
And pass on
What separates us
From them
Is our delicate tongues
The ability to dream—
And desire a feeling of release

the heat is rising, again and again
as the sun says goodnight.
our bodies boarders, together
holding on tight.
following our goosebumps, touch
leads the way.
more and more, we become one
endless love.

Where is the love
is the love?
Oh where is the love
is the love?
Why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh love

I need you to run back to me
back to me
Oh love
Please don't move on
Girl
I need you to run back to me

☁️

cautiously consider, controversial cues
cautiously consider
what you see
on the news

detailed decisions, determined direction
detailed decisions
still no hiding
imperfections

elaborate excuses, emphatic energy
elaborate excuses
the lies are
extraordinary

cautiously consider
what you see on the news
detailed decisions
elaborate excuses

When you lay sleepless throughout the night
Do you think about me?

☁️