Last night when I saw you
There were tears in your eyes
I had to find a way
To cover up these lies

We had built this life
Fueled with lust
Filled with pain
So little trust

Who is to blame

Reflecting on how I feel
Looking at what we had
Thinking the love was real
Now I lost myself, loving you

Now I lost myself, loving you

we are all running around, blind
in a place so fragile
this world
all these lies

the darkness comes from inside
and i can feel it tonight
so hold on
hold on tight

i remember the ways we touched
every time
as if it was our first time
together as one

i cannot begin to explain
the feelings i feel today
i have nothing here without you
i have no spark to inspire my day

these cracks grow deeper
with my decisions
i do not mean to come off selfish
but this is my sick addiction
the darkness is catching up
i try and run
these demons are creeping up
and the pain has just begun
something is holding me
dragging me down
how can i break free
i need out of this town

on mornings, like these
i sit
among the trees

Autumn, about to unfold
the leaves
are turning gold

the breeze, brushes by
as if
the woods are saying hi

i cannot describe, mornings like these
when i sit
among the trees

we are judged too often
for seeing in color
and the differences all around
are you starting to follow?

try and connect with it all
open your eyes, just be free
why not apprecitate
everything you see?

even though you may feel
as if your efforts are too small
do you remember your mistakes
do you recall?

what needs to be done
when it comes to everyday life
is love everyone
is it too hard to try?

This is it
This is goodbye
I get it
Why even try

These clouded thoughts
As I think of what to say
To you
Before you leave me today

I miss the feelings
Knowing you were there
Thinking about me
When you close your eyes

Without you I am not quite sure
What to do
When the cold wind blows
Who knows where I will go

we built these walls
we built it all
we built these cities
we will one day, watch them fall

we hold it all in
we hold back the pain
we hold back the anger
we must learn, we must gain

we must learn
we must grow
we will in time
we will show

escape from the city
escape from the insanity
escape from these walls
escape from it all

together as one
fragile we were
still green to the world
so we ran with the lust

together as one
growing we were
are roots now deeper
this lust turned to love

together as one
as the years flew by
we created this life
a mother you now were

together as one
as our last days approach
what a life we both shared
together as one

I no longer,
live with doubt.
Because of this,
I am stronger.

These night winds,
howling.
In the distance,
the thunder claps.

These storms,
have left me with cracks.
Like scars,
from the past.

I no longer,
live with fear.
Because these storms,
have made me stronger.

Don't go trying to stop me
from breaking free
Like a bird in a cage
let me spread my wings and be me

One night you came to me asking why
and you began to cry
I know words hurt
so I lied to your face

Another trip around the sun
and my lies have come full circle
We knew the time had come
the flame that was once there is now gone

Love is a tricky game
when two people come together
One moment you are crying on the floor
the next it has you begging for more

I wish I could feel this
What's real anymore?
Maybe, just maybe
All I need is your kiss

Maybe, just maybe
You could save me from this dark abyss
Please hurry, please save me
From this dark abyss

Please hurry,
Please save me
These ropes hang from the ceiling
Ropes don't you see

These ropes hang from the ceiling
You left me with no feelings
No other way for me to move on
That's why, ropes hang from the ceiling

No other way for me to move on
This might finally be the time
For me to get gone
So goodbye world, make sure my name lives on.

The fall came without notice,
both caught unaware.
How could something so special,
turn in to such a nightmare?
On the outside,
they hid it well.
But we all knew,
the demons they both shared.

As I sit and stare at this blank page
I begin to think about one thing
Do I leave and follow my dream?

                                                                                            Or stay with you?
These days I don't know what to do

I'm far from perfect
I'm far from perfect
But you see
I don't want to be

There are so many things
There are so many things
You don't know
You'll have to wait and see

And with time you may find out
And with time you may find out
All the different sides
To me

You crave all the attention,
all the money, all the fame.
But somewhere within there is a tension,
and you begin to feel the shame.
These days you struggle to make a distinction,
when you look for someone to blame.
But let's not forget to mention,
that all you wanted was the money and the fame.

You could have it all,
but you don't believe me.
Why keep running and running?

"I wanna be free"

Let me give you some advice,
do what feels right.
But don't give up on me,
as the fire burns bright.
So join with me,
as we take on the night.

Oh
      you know he,
                             he is not me
Oh
      you know he,
                             he is not me
You
       cannot have love,
                                       without pain
You
       cannot have love,
                                       without pain
Why
        make up lies,
                               about your past
Why
        make up lies,
                               about your past  

Oh girl
            you're just running in circles
Oh girl
            you keep running in circles

I can't imagine
     what it's like for you
Both your parents gone
     no one to fight for you
But what you don't see
     is I was always there
No matter what you said or did
     I always cared


Yea girl I always cared
Yea girl I always cared


"What you did today
I can't forgive
Boy don't think you can play those games
Running back to those same old girls
Playing those same old games
I told myself I wouldn't do this again
And baby I'm not trying to pick a fight
You say this world ain't perfect
And sadly, looking at us
You are right"

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You,
may not realize
That when the lights no longer shine,
no one will be there to hear your cries

You,
you shouldn't cry
Because you love it,
girl I wanna see you try

You,
spoke of a vision
A vision filled with lust,
and no commitment

You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for
You're just a *******,
so pain is what you're looking for

I struggled to recognize
myself in the mirror this morning.
Nothing feels the same.
Even the coffee has lost it's taste.
It's as if you added the flavor to my life.
All the colors do not shine the way they once did.
Without your vibrant smile,
I now hardly see the light of day.  
The echoes in the silence have grown closer,
I need a way to ease this pain.

There was nothing between us,
on that cold November night.
With the city in the distance,
everything we did felt right.

We both made promises,
that we would never grow our separate ways.
How could we have known,
what was to come in future days.

Together we were too young,
still green in this unforgiving place.
Once our love began to fade,
we knew the choice we had to face.

But how could we forget,
about that cold November night.
With the city in the distance,
everything we did felt right.

How I missed the sand beneath my feet
Waves crashing in the background
These sights
They can't be beat
Look out the window
The moonlight shore
Something about this place
Has me wanting more
There is nothing stopping you, Grace
We have so much here to live for

You,
you have a lot to learn
Things need time,
that fire must burn
You have these rules,
saying I have to wait my turn
Show me what love is,
I too have a lot to learn

As you grow,
you find things move faster and faster
You come to appreciate,
the people that bring you laughter
The ones that give you love,
and make you feel like you really matter

It is important to note,
that these people are far and few between
So as you grow,
Just remember the future is unforeseen

I remember her that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

We grew our separate ways
Sayin' you want to be on your own
Only I was still in love
Because of this I learned so much

I often think about those moments
And how things might of been  
A night doesn't go by
That I don't want you here with me

But then I think back to that evening
Those auburn eyes
That velvet touch
Words can't describe that feeling
That feeling I miss so much

how have I forgotten
foolish me
my lips across your skin  
just memories
you would think we would have learned
from the past that we had made
that we were not meant for each other
and that's the price we pay

I'm not the kid I used to be
Yea I'm not the kid I used to be
Don't come to me
Girl don't come to me
Sayin you want to set
To set me free
But what you don't see
What you don't see
Is that I'm not the kid I used to be
Girl I'm not the kid I used to be

☁️

Where is the love
is the love?
Oh where is the love
is the love?
Why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh why did you run away from me
away from me?
Oh love

I need you to run back to me
back to me
Oh love
Please don't move on
Girl
I need you to run back to me

☁️

I saw you everyday hiding behind that smile
You were out here trying to make better of what you had with no help
But what you didn't see is things won't change
You kept running back to that same dude
Playing those same old games
I never understood the times
You would call me up, I questioned why
In your voice I heard cries, desperate cries
And now that you are gone
I realize why

☁️

Every night I think of you, when I lay down in bed. It feels so empty here now, your face won't leave my head. At the time we were too young, still green in this unforgiving world. You thought it was best to grow apart, now I need something new to live for.

☁️

What is there for me to do? There's so much in this world you have not seen. How can you speak about love? Without you, I'm full of pain. And emptiness remains. I beg for your forgiveness. I begin to feel the shame. I said we were too young. But I'm begging you to stay. Please don't leave me in this empty world. Let's try another day. Do you see that if you don't speak of love, everything will be ok?

☁️

I'm way too young
I'm way too young
Love all around
I can't stand the feelings

I'm way too young
I'm way too young
Love all around
I can't stand the feelings

Still way too young
We are way too young
You say you want love
But we run from our feelings

Still way too young
We are way too young
You say you want love
But we run from our feelings

☁️

Can't you see that you're all that I have now
No ones here but you to feel my pain
All I ask from you is a simple favor
Maybe take away my pain for the day

Can't you see that I am trying
These days I don't know who's to blame
The world could have been ours and much more
I ask myself why did you stay

Can't you see that we lost it all
The spark we once had has now fade
I look for answers in darkness
The future for us is not great

Can't you see that you're all that I have girl
So please don't leave me this way
My life has been full of disappointment
Without you there's no need for me

☁️

Maybe today will be different
Maybe today things will change
Your face runs through my mind
Maybe today will be the day

☁️

You see the cracks on the walls
Oh how I've weathered so many storms
A few to many, have hit too hard
Leaving me with cracks
And scars from the past
Nothing makes sense anymore
These storms, they come too fast

☁️

I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been
I've been looking
For you girl
Where have you been

Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways
Please be patient
With me girl
I lost my ways


I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl
I've been searching
Night and day
Where are you girl

☁️

Sometimes I don't know what to believe
Should I have listened
With you girl things are never as they seem
Should I have listened
Girl don't you see, we are suppose to be a team
Should I have listened
Let's go back to when this all felt like a dream
Like a dream
Baby please
Just like a dream

Oh this can't be a dream

My friends tell me things
I don't know if it's the truth
No matter what they say
I just can't leave you

☁️

Sometimes I just write to write
To help me get through the night
The need to be set free
Like a bird flying over the city
Leaving the world below
Going someplace new to grow
I'm in need of something more
This chance is what I've been waiting for

Sometimes I just write to write
Because these days I don't know what's right
So many things they don't want us to see
They don't want me to be me
I think I'm at an all time low
I don't know which way to go
What is there to live for
Girl help me find more

☁️

I see you here and there
You are everywhere
Wherever I go
Your face will show
No matter what I do
I can't stop seeing you

☁️

I've been to beautiful beaches
I've felt the sand beneath my feet
Standing there in that open breeze
I've never felt more free

I've seen enormous cities
I've rushed around all day
Standing in that electric crowd
I've never felt this way

I've climbed the greatest mountains
I've had my breath taken away
Standing nearly in the sky
I've never seen the earth this way

I've come to realize one thing
I've been running and running from something
Standing on the moonlight shore
I've never felt this way before

☁️

I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
I find it harder to smile everyday
Everyday
Girl when I see your face
See your face
Oh girl when I see your face
See your face
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
I tell you you are the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one
Baby girl you aren't the only one
Only one

☁️

How many poems can I write
How many poems can I write
About the girl I want to call mine
Maybe one more time
I can write
Until she finds me
She will one day see
All these poems that I write
All these poems that  I write
Were all for her
Just please girl don't ask for anymore

☁️

Please
No more of this pain you left me in today
I've seen to many tears hit the floor
You know every word that I will say
Girl I thought you said you wanted more
Baby please don't leave me this way
Please don't walk out that door
Just give me one more day
But without tears hitting the floor

☁️

The days and the nights, just a blur
The days and the nights
Just a blur
You thought there was more to us
You ask why
You ask
Why
I can't reply
But baby please
But baby
Please
Don't leave me tonight
One little storm can't put out this light
One little storm
Can't put out this light
I tell myself, this will be the last time
But time after time we find ourselves here
But time after time
We find ourselves here
Who's to blame
When the storm rains on us it pours
When the storm rains on us
It pours
Don't pretend to have no shame
The rain is relentless these days
The rain is relentless
These days
I hope that we can see this through
You and I
You
And I
We both know
One more storm like this
One more storm
Like this
Will be the end of it

☁️

You are too ******* yourself
Just let the past go
All these walls you have put up
It's hard for me to know
What you are really feeling inside
No emotions for you to show
Running in circles you say
Just let the past go
You're just running in circles now girl
Just let the past go

☁️

something happened Tonight
nothing I do is Right
the light I see is Bright
to exit this world I Might
forgive me, I lost the Fight

☁️

How can one call for help
When they have no voice?

In this dark world
Helpless cries echo
Helpless cries echo throughout the night
Silence filled with fear
No one knows what's right
You say the end is near
You say you see the light
When you have no voice to scream
For help that you may need
The silence is taking over
A couple more pills and you'll be free

☁️