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speakeasied Aug 2013
I miss placing your hand in mine
and feeling warmth and flesh
instead, I receive a taste of death,
now you're cold to the touch and
your knuckles peek out just a little
too much to hide anymore.
I can remember tickling you and
not being able to feel your ribs
underneath your paper skin but
even if I were to write all over you
I don't think I could make you come to
life like the characters in my head
because over time, they've become
more alive than you are now.
Before, there were days when you
used to never get sick and I would
beg for whoever was in charge up
there to give you the slightest sore throat
so that I could stay at a friends
and now, the only you that I know
is the one I'm afraid to say goodbye to
in fear it will be the last time-
and I don't think I could ever wish
even the slightest sore throat
upon you again.
speakeasied Aug 2013
speakeasied nights haunt us like
the ghosts we conjured through your
old ouija board that we balanced between
the space that separated us and I remember
I thought if we were any closer to one
another I might as well die happy and
you could summon me instead with the
planchette underneath your trembling
fingertips as you cry above your head
begging, begging, begging for me
to "just come back"
and I would try my hardest to come
into contact with your silky smooth flesh
just to see if you would think it were me,
but instead I ended up trembling
underneath your fingertips as you
raised your hand to the heavens as I was
begging, begging, begging for you
to "just relax"
speakeasied Aug 2013
mason jar dreams stuck inside
of broken things that you call love
we stored away our future
inside the promise of yesterday
and watched our relationship
slip through our fingers like the
sand on the beach that we dug our
fists into (I think, secretly, me and you
were pretending it was one another's flesh)
and through it all, we come home
with fake smiles and dying flowers and
the excuse of "it was the last bouquet"
hanging on our lips like severed promises
instead of admitting that the ugliest bunch
is always the cheapest (and I know that
we both knew you were lying, even though
we would never confess it) and maybe those
wilted petals were more fitting for our love
than roses because let's face it
the moment you were able to call me yours
is the second we realized our love didn't
have any of the necessary ingredients
to keep either of us
alive.
speakeasied Aug 2013
Honest to god, I love people. As a teenager, you might catch me saying otherwise in times of frustration or lack of hope for the human race, but in all actuality, I love people. The sheer fact that all of us are immensely different yet so innately similar never ceases to turn my mind upside down and possessing the ability to fall in love with strangers has made me, in turn, fall in love with writing about them.
Walk down the street and find somewhere to sit, now observe. You see an old man pass by, walking his jubilant puppy and almost instantly, your brain is making judgments about him. Maybe his wife passed away and the puppy is his only company and now he is walking her trying to calm her down but it isn't working because she's a puppy, and well, energy is an expanse for them. But wait, now an elderly lady approaches them and kisses the man on the face. Strike one. The dog lifts up a leg and leaves its scent on a tree. Strike two. Now, the dog lays down and is panting like crazy, but from here you can tell that its fur is already graying. Strike three. You thought you knew everything about him, when really, you didn't have a clue.
That's the beauty of mystery - the guessing game and the eventual strike out. You're amazed at the fact that you know so much about humans, and yet, at the same time, so little. All of us are walking contradictions and labyrinths within ourselves. It's a shame, really, how most people don't explore their own personal mazes - but there's one thing all of us do love to do: explore everyone else's.
speakeasied Aug 2013
You were speaking in a different tone
and your words weren't the same.
I could tell the second you answered
and yet you doubt my abilities.
Anger pulses through my blue veins,
longing to find something, anything.
They say that hate requires more energy
than loving someone does,
but darling, how badly I wish it required less.
All day long, I've been smiling more than usual
and singing to myself until you came around.
Positivity does nothing for me when it is
up against the pollution of your love.
I am slamming my fingers on the keyboard
wishing that it was the soft flesh covering
your fragile bones I sometimes love to caress.
I am screaming inside of my mind
and no one, no one is hear to listen but me.
My blood has reached the boiling point
and it's all spilling, spilling, spilling
into bittersweet ambivalence.
speakeasied Aug 2013
I am the smoke
curling from your lips.
I move into every shape
in an attempt to gain your
attention, and hear you say,
"look at that, so beautiful"
with that expression of
admiration in your amber eyes
as I slowly fade away.
I twist and writhe
in the wake of your trembling
breaths and hover in the air
around your body
as if I am holding you,
even though I am too far
to do such a thing.
See, the smoke and I,
we are the same in
many ways.
The difference, though, lies
in the ease of how the
smoke can escape.
speakeasied Jul 2013
Two nights ago,
I discovered the definition
of summer.
Regardless of what
Merriam tells you,
it is not just "the warmer
half of the year."
In fact, summer lies
within the smallest details
of a perfect day
and the broadest spectrum
of all drunken nights.
It is the warm concrete
underneath your thighs
that burns at first but
"hey, you'll get used to it."
It is the cigarette carelessly
placed between your
cherry-red lips
and the way we sang as
loud as we could in
your driveway at
3-in-the-morning.
It is the restlessness
of being in one place for
too long mixed with the
comfort of somewhere you
know like the back of your hand.
It is our "couple minute long" talks
that turn into hours
and the epiphany I had when
I realized it's okay to be okay
but it's also okay to not be.
It is the moment I told you this
revelation of mine,
and how you smiled at me
like a 2-year-old and responded,
"this is why I love you."
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