Don't trust your family,
They will not always be there
for you,
one minute they will say they
believe in you, the next
minute they will be back
stabbing you and say
that they don't believe in you.

Oh, I have seen it many times before,
family doesn't care if you walk out the door,
They will not help you when you need them,
They mock you and tell you how you
have messed up your life, it is like they
are stabbing you with a knife.

Trust not your family, because they
will not be there for you at all in
the future or present.

When I was twenty-two years old,
I found out I was pregnant,
with my second child,
I went to my family for help,
but they turned their backs on me for help,
To them I had done the unpardonable sin,
by getting pregnant once again,
and this was because before I was married
and now I was divorced
and an ***** mother who did not
deserve her baby.
I had two sisters who could have cared for me,
but no they both took a stab at me,
and ruined my life for me and helped
the state to take my baby away from me.

My daughter was placed into foster care
and take care by strangers and then she was placed into
an adoptive home with adoptive parents who could not
love her as much as me
and from them she hear they wished they never had
adopted her because of mental illness she had inherited
from her real family.
My daughter today is thirty two years of age,
she is loss to me and she has cut me off
from her because she will not listen to me.
All I can do is pray that one day before it is too late that
she will return to me.
This is because I love her unconditionally and
have no regrets that I gave birth to her thirty two
years ago.

Monday are here once,
What do they bring with them,
Just a new week with nothing
to add,
Just a new week that may be sad,
Mondays may bring tears with them,
No wonder why I dread Mondays
so bad,
Mondays make me feel sad and
Monday made me break down
in tears and I look forward to
when Tuesday gets here.

What lust can't do
Love can do,
Love can make you feel
good,
whereas lust is temporary and
makes you feel bad about
something that you did do,
Love casts all fear away,
Lust doesn't cast all fear away,
it can cause fear as
if someone is just using you
for ****** pleasure to please
themselves.
I would rather have love than lust
any day.

Sunday Tears,
that is what Sundays are for,
Sunday tears that fall
from my eyes,

Sunday tears
make me want to die,
Sunday tears that break my heart,
that is because we are no more,
Sundays have broken my heart
into parts, because Sundays
have made us depart

Sundays are no longer special to me,
they make me think of you and me,
and that you are not here with me,
I much prefer to Monday morning,
maybe I can get through the week
without weekday tears, but when
Sunday comes again I break down
with Sunday tears.

I am trying not to lose my faith in thee oh Lord,
It has been very hard through my life,
I have lost so many of the people I have loved,
and
You leave me here
May I ask you what more is that
in which you are trying to teach me?

I am not one for money, nor for wealth,
I am not one for lust but I do ask
ask for happiness and peace of mind
to get through my life of hell.

I need to know what more I need to
do so you will call me home
to you oh Lord,
I don't want to lose my faith in thee,
so I ask you to show me the way
back to thee.
I ask that you humble me and turn me
into the kind of person you would want
me to be.

Once I use to go to Mass
every Sunday morning gladly,
it gave me strength and peace of mind,
don't ask me why I  have stopped going
to Mass now,
It does little or nothing for me now,
Every Sunday I would get up,
and get ready to go to Mass,
It was every thing to me,
but please don't ask me now
why I stopped going to Mass
it means nothing to me,
I guess when you died, and I had to
go alone,
it started to mean nothing to me,
as I could not stand going by myself
and no one would want to accompany me.
This is the reason why I stopped going to Mass
because you are not with me.
Mass once meant everything to me and now
it means nothing to me like organized religion
means nothing to me.
Have I lost my faith, no I have not
I have just loss the organized religion in me.