My eyes, like camera lenses, can focus on sole object and blur the rest

For so long,
you are all I saw
For so long,
you were the focus
For so long,
I thought I was yours too

But just now
I realized that it was my imagination

but still
when I tried to blur you
and focus on the world
the other things that actually matter

you still are the focus
the crystal clear form
while the rest of the edges are blurred
through my broken camera lenses.

She took me in as a stranger
loved me like her own
thought of me as her own
gave everything to an ignorant and rude little girl

She taught me how to chew with my mouth close
she taught me how to recite the months
she taught me how to write perfectly
she taught me how to eat food
she taught me the basic guidelines of BECOMING HUMAN 101

She didn't get anything back in return
didn't ask for it nor expect it
just wanted me to become my best
just wanted me to become the greatest

the little girl became a teen
she started talking back to a person who most cared about her
she became a little snot who thought she was above it all

Yet, for everything she ever did to me
she altered my life
she changed my destiny
so
this is for you which words are inadequate to express
this is for you for every tear drops and heart breaks I gave you
this is for you who has no vanity whatsoever but truly, genuinely wishes the best for me
this is for you
one person in this world who I believe embodies the word Perfection
this is for you whom words i love you are inadequate

this is for you...

I have this feeling again
in myself that
"If I do finish myself,
A lot of people can be happier,
they can get through their day
better and wont have to deal with
my sadness."

Just this feeling tells me that
everyone i know of..
..is frustrated with me
and they want to lash out
but they know what could happen
so they are keeping their emotions stuck
inside as well

I also know about the amount
of bull crap and swearing
that I get for not listening to someone

and also the amount of respect
that I had

Wait.. Did I have any in the first place?

If i did...
..it doesn't vanish in a day now
does it?

People want me segregated
to be with the person of their choice
or for the person to be with them
and, I am told to move myself
because of inadequate space.

Since when did I become so bad.
That. I have no value.
WHEN!!!??!?!?

*Note: This poem was written a while back, I am currently out of depression.

Oh the delicious cheese!
Its soo tasty!
so.....
different
so..
extraordinary

Its comes with toppings!
to help you eat more

so you can be satisfied
and hopefully not hungry anymore
they bring it to you
on time

so you can enjoy the deliciousness
of this modern marvel.

Enjoy
and eat more.

You are the one I love,
Then tell him so.
Tell Tom that you don't love him
Just LEAVE HIM

No, I cannot.
Because I love both of you!

Stop romanticizing the past either.
Its gone, I know you want to erase it
but its gone, its the past.
Just lets live together.
Please. We can do this.

*A part of the whole play