Love seen through your eyes, I sit and believe your lies
Lies for sure I know, but I never let it show
I gave you my all, and you let me fall
Your telling me to be free, but I don’t want to be
All I do is try, I may as well die
Deep within or not so far down, I think I deserve a crown
For all ive faced, and that time I misplaced
They think I have it easy, but they don’t know about evie
My little girl I brought to life, before I was a wife
Letting her go was hard, I put up a guard
All the things my little girl would’ve seen, all she could’ve been
My poor evie rose, imagine her toes
The things id do for just one hold, before I grow to old

You stare at me with empty eyes
As you pull your hand away from my thighs
You look at me in despair
We were the perfect pair
Looking at you now
I dont know how
Your face so slim
Feeling empty within
Did you really love me?
Should i flea?
Stick around and plea?
Why did you do this to me?
These are questions
Causing me aggression
Its just hard to show my expression
When you look at me like this
All i want to do is kiss
But i know it couldnt be that bliss
Standing with the gun, Why do i feel like the only one?
I think im almost done, Do i pull it or run?
They say run its more fun, But time shall only see
What i might be, Dead or alive i plea
I wish you'd get on one knee and ask "will you marry me"
I remember that time, Standing in a line
I caught your eye, I sent a message but no reply
I always try, But really why should I?
Goodbye family and friend, This is truly the end
Its for me not you, Im sorry to be like this but its true
I truely loved you....Goodbye this is the end.

shes only 15 her whole lifes ahead of her
she hates school because the people there discredit her
her boyfriends tries to show thats not how it seems
but everyday she just gets lowered with her self esteem
he lets her know that every night will have a brighter day
she's even tried to overdose and take her life away
shes feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed
then he takes his hand and places it beside her head
he tried to hold her but with every touch she still resists
and then he sees the scars that bury deep within her thigh
shes feeling numb he tries to beg and plead and ask her why
shes says this way i have control of pain i feel inside
nobody seems to get you you feel youre on your own
but listen pretty lady you dont have to be alone
so baby dont cut you can do anything just promise me baby you wont cut
i know your heart is hurting you think the road has ended
you may just feel that blade youre holding is your only friend
but baby dont cut you can do anything
just promise baby you wont cut again
the next day at school shes feeling better than the day before
even cracked a couple smiles as she walked through the corridor
but all that seemed to end as she dropped her books when she walked into class
and every student in the room just seemed to point and laugh
she wouldnt take it anymore
she sent her boy a text she said i love you with my body heart and soul
to death he thought nothing typed i love you then he sent it
by death he didnt know that she had literally just meant it
she ducked her next class ran home into her bathroom
thought to herself she wouldnt break her promise thatt soon 1 cut 2 cut 3 cut 4
the blood started dripping from the tub to the floor
her boyfriend had a feeling in his stomach that he hated
he followed it and ran down to her house he never waited
the front door was open he heard the water running
he stormed into the bathroom and he's heart just started gunning
he put her arm around his shoulder he just tryin to lean her back up
yelling out her name as he lays her beside the bathtub
he feels his whole world jusy took a hit from and avalanche
he screaming out so heavily somebody call an abulance
feeling mad angry like somebody let her on to this
her eyeballs are rolling drifting out of consciousness
thinking to himself why the hell didnt she just stop
at will the tears just keeping on rolling as they head to the hospital
paramedics rush her in doctor calls emergency
shes loosed a lot of blood the place is looking like a ****** scene
an hour later the doc walks over with a sour face
and says excuse for the words that im about to say
im sorry for your loss the boy just starts collapsing
his own girl his own world just took a crashing
saying to himself that its his fault and that he let it up
baby i thought you made a promise you would never cut

I want a baby girl or boy
I know it wont be just a toy
I finally got my chance
But oh your glance
When i joke and say
I think you got me pregnant today
Your stopping me
I want a responsibility
You force me to do it
I tell you and i get hit
I want to keep it but you say no
We should at least give it a chance to grow
I want you to love him or her
This is all going to a big blur
This is way out of proportion
I pretty much had an abortion
Hidden
Bottled up inside
Are the things I never said,
The feelings that I hide,
The lines you never read
You cant see it in my eyes,
Nor read it on my face,
Trapped inside are lies,
Of the past I can't replace

With memories that linger,
And won't seem to go away,
Why can't I be happier?
Today’s a brand new day

Yesterdays are over
Even though the hurting is not,
Nothing lasts forever,
I must cherish what I've got

Don't take my love for granted,
For soon it will be gone,
All you've ever wanted,
Of the love you thought you won

The feelings I have now
Won’t disappear overnight,
But somehow, someway everything will be alright

I'm leaving now
To slay the foe
Fight my battles
High and low

I'm leaving parents
Hear me go
Please wish me luck today

I've grown my wings, I want to fly
Seize my victories where they lie
I'm going guys, but please don't cry
Just let me find my way

I want to see, and touch, and hear,
Though there are dangers, thoughts, and fears,
I'll smile my smiles, and wipe my tears
Please let me speak my say

I'm off to find, my world, my dreams,
Carve my niche, sew my seams
Remember as I sail my seas,
I'll love you all the way

Roses are known as beauty
They have a smell of beauty
And a look of beauty
But no one looks at it's stem before they pick it
You just reach out and grab it
Roses have a smell of beauty
and a look of beauty But bellow that beauty there is pain It comes from a thorn
A thorn ****** you sending a pain through your finger
Falling for the beauty of a rose has a consequence
Falling for a rose is small
But you have to be awware of the things around you
Falling for a rose can lead to falling for a lion
In a child's eyes a lion is a big cat
As you grow older you know that lions ****
Looking through the eyes of a child is dangerous
Grow strong in your eyes as they are how you see
But being weak in your eyes leads to temptations
temptation leads to hurt and pain Look through strong eyes as they are safe

In this world full of hurt and pain, I need someone who would help me through the rain. To comfort me when Im sad, Doing everything just to make me glad. In this world I need a Brave Knight, Who would never give up any fight. A knight who would dry away my tears,
Helping me to overcome my fears. A knight who loves me for who I am inside, With him there's nothing more I need to hide. A person who will still be standing strong, Eventhough everything has gone wrong. I need someone who is willing to give me more, Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor
No love
sitting here staring at the closed door, i dont even know what for
the thoughts in my head are what make me feel dead, but then i remember its just in my head not what anyones said.
the times at school when u look at me like a fool, the hipster that made me take a fall embarressing me infront of all
its all you that made me like this, stuck here wondering what life is?
round and round the thoughts go, just like the room bellow
the drugs are cause of the lack of hugs, while i do it tough i get no love
while i feel like im drowning in the noon day sun you are all out just having fun
leaving me here to struggle alone my mind blown
stuck in this room feeling so small, and you stand up and walk so tall
confiendent and strong i just smile and play along
fake it til you make it they say well i do everyday! but look where its got me now
here alone in this room eating a thing they call a shroom
it takes away the pang of the day
now its night fall and im not looking as tall
i take it out on those i love and blame it on the drug
i know the morning will come but it wont be any fun
just like any other day i will just lay
staring at the room around and listening to every single sound
freaking out and affraid feeling betrayed
here goes another day wasted and feeling low why dont i say good bye and just fall bellow

For words i can not speak, my life why should i keep?
you treat me like dust and leave me no where to go but.... lust
but my father is a King  and i belong to him
for he saved my soul and placed a special call
just like a princess protects the land God placed his helping hand
keeping me safe and sound placing a spiritual crown
giving me gifts to give now i know why i should live
not for me but for my father
My King....