i **** up
everything
and i feel
as though
it all
would be
so ****
easier if
i was
never born
or ceased
to exist.

i've caused
hearts to break
and tears to be shed.
why can't
i just
die?

did i ever
seem like an appealing option
to you?
or was that merely a figment
of my imagination?
what does she have that i don't?
is she more suited for your height?
is she more beautiful than i will ever be?
are her thighs half the size of mine
making it easier for her to wrap them around your waist
as you support her tiny body?
well it hurts.
and i barely know you.
you led me on.
why.

I ******* hate you so much
You made me open my veins
And now you've crawled inside

"I could get any *** except the one I want."