thought i was fed up of mince pies

& lost my appetite



though having the day off work today

fancied one from frozen

reduced at last to fifteen pence

as that time is well and truthfully

over



thawed

i like to place upside down to remove

the tin foil ready for recycling

then cut crossways into quarters

it looks like those tiny meat pies

goblins, from tins



i don’t eat those of course

with it being meat & vague

ingredients which would

come clear if i read the

label



i eat the little bits

with mine coffee



& think that the pastry reminds

me of the 1960’s when tarts were

very usual



without much flavour



i think most of it is none of my business

although i hear folk are getting very

heated about it all

maybe i prefer it when they all ignore me
than make all those comments that they

feel require an answer
when i often have none

today it rains heavily
i can hear it by the
window

this changes plans

i like things spaced
out, categorised

gives me a feeling of control
when there is none, do you

think that is why the questions
too

once he said to stay safe and i
thought, well hey, no one is safe

yet i said nothing back to him

i never say anything to him no
more, like he is not even there
no more

so i shall stay domestic here today
while rain falls
outside

8.22 am

a scandal
to be so
late

seems i have made some rules
for my online activity and find
that chatting to you is exempt

from these invented regulations

so i work here for one hour early
again a while at dusk

when

nice things happen
stove is lit
washing is in
folded
cat is out

door locked against
& all settles in

i do not use private messages
for work
except a fella on tug hill,
in a friendly manner only

i make no remarks
on improvements & refurbishments

i hope you are enjoying your time away
from work, and that the length of your
sentences vary

liking jazz should listen more
maybe google will help me
in that respect

remember those days dancing
at least wednesdays & fridays
with a bit of luck after payday
saturday too
with the new pullover
bought from the men’s
department

the fashion had not then
entered the overall market

maybe we came ahead of our time
without understanding all the
implications

i got thinner
& lost my job
for dressing funny

that was before the laws
changed. i disliked the
place
anyhow

it smelled funny
and now i know why he
always sent me to the store
upstairs to work where no one
saw me

the other girl dressed like all the others

it seemed i dressed funny

& danced to jazz
particularly well to
modern
i felt

as not many even tried

those days

oh really
oh really

i feel i cannot get involved
give remarks. i know when
something gets me. embeds
a while

after a moment of reflection
say ‘bravo’

all the chat and critique
will only spoil that spot
for me

i reply to you for i like the
simple passing to and fro
with understanding

the talk on heating & coyotes

what good is all the bashing for

though

i must say that i take most remarks

on board &
as a compliment
that someone read
and bothered

i got bashed for not reading
yet i do that too when i am
able

hugging may be more productive
really
oh really



later the chimney sweep comes
to sweep the chimney

it came as a badge on a card so pretty.

the rainbow







do you believe those stories like some

invented to keep us calm, in our place



there is a lot of stuff in genesis that i

could have copied and pasted here



yet i will rather say that all things are

on a spectrum

of colours & ideas



nothing is one colour only,      as decided

in invented rules.  for we are all different



& use the rainbow as a symbol to remind

folk and to bring us together in time



hopefully.



he liked the badge

this thing

out of shyness

& that no one will respect any thing serious

from me while i am outside



that is where i feel to be



i notice that i stood a space away

and drawn in will joke & play



hoping to look happy that

all will like me



having been a dancer

taught to smile

whatever

to carry on



then a waitress

taught to smile

to carry on whatever



never serious



do not make that mistake

show them who you really

are



though



the joker has ten nominations



really oh really!!