maybe i prefer it when they all ignore me
than make all those comments that they

feel require an answer
when i often have none

today it rains heavily
i can hear it by the
window

this changes plans

i like things spaced
out, categorised

gives me a feeling of control
when there is none, do you

think that is why the questions
too

once he said to stay safe and i
thought, well hey, no one is safe

yet i said nothing back to him

i never say anything to him no
more, like he is not even there
no more

so i shall stay domestic here today
while rain falls
outside

8.22 am

a scandal
to be so
late