Mind racing with my feet below me
pacing back and forth
Focus out of control,
Paranoia creeping in.
My flaws, my mistakes, my past
Like a jacket that will never leave my back.
Do they know, about my faults, have they seen who I really am.
What is all of it, when I am gone
The thoughts will escape our heads
And our souls will be taken far away.
So I'm leaving these old mistakes,
For somethin so great.
Hope.

Magnetically drawn
by your goddess curves.
Mind weaving
slick scenarios.

Time seperates more than you'd imagine
I'd swear every day feels like a mile
We've become out of touch now and
You're out of my reach yet again
When all that I ever wanted was your hand
Time allowed me to have it only once
But you'd be mine, I could see through my eyes
I could imagine it for that moment
And I imagine that moment in daydreams
Infinite hearts crossed in my head
Our lives played out like campy broadway shows
But daydreams are nightmares in waking hours
The pain of lucid moments like grasping empty space
The cup will fall, the water spill
It's stepping on glass just to breathe
I have years of memories to draw upon
Times spanning distances that'd bring us closer
But memories are like looking through a telescope
So time seperates more than you can imagine

I could sit and laugh as you stumble down the hall,
I could smile at all the times you hit wall after wall.

You see the picture and think you’ve got it figured out,
But when you find another dead end, you realize it was only another bout.      

I’m the perfect artist, painting perfect pictures on my walls,
Just when you think you’ve found the real exit again, everything falls.

I’d chuckle at your troubles but I’m discovering my own plight,
I’ve painted so many exits, created so many lies; I can’t remember which is right.

You’re fed up and I’m getting scared, once again, it’s a dead end
You see this and I show that, neither of us knows if it’s after the next bend.

So I’ll run in my own maze, never finding the truth, only the fake,
I could sit and laugh, but I won’t because I’m about to fall and break.

Any voiceless winter morning,
Any brazing summer afternoon,
Any affectionate draft of spring,
Any lamentation of rain,
Any stifling ray of sunlight;
I’m lost in you.

Every time the sun greets me,
Every meal I relish,
Every sweater I haul into,
Every letter I dive over,
Every musical note that transcends me;
I’m lost in you.

All the sadness pinching like a kiss from the frost,
All the pain erupting like skin torn by a shiv,
All the happiness rising like an inextinguishable fire,
All the confusion obstructing like the bars of a cell;
All, every, and any moment when I’m left in solitude,
I’m lost in you.

Floral print dresses
for the girls
who stare past me.