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Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

crescents.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

vy

how many stars will have to die
because I have wished them all away so
I can experience the darkness and agony you feel
inside whenever I look up at the night sky .

And I am so sorry to you.
To the nights you spend with your hands
clasped tight around your ears because you cannot
stand the sound of my voice trying to get through to
you so you can see me as your lover.

Puffy eyelids and a red nose that have developed
due to your allergy to pollen since you are forced to
stand outside our apartment day
after day scared to come inside to me because you
feel indebted I am sorry,
as well.

For it is not your fault that you don’t remember me
like I remember you and
you forgetting how that tiny scar behind your knee formed
and it bothers you so much now that you have invested
precious dollars into various cosmetics to have it hidden
then faded away. When you used to cherish
that scar and trace it when looking at mine.
Mine.

The scar that is identical to yours
on the tip of my index finger you don’t
remember it’s history so how could I
expect you to recognize me.

How could I expect things to
go back as it was and for us to love
like we did I shouldn't expect much.
But I do.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

it's the moment we all feel.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

kara lynn bird

it's the moment we all feel.

light beams of faith
being stretched before my eyes-
the worlds a tough place
and there's no where to hide...
to where to run to
no way to escape,
the moment of change
i must learn to embrace-
hold still with a passion
that there is a greater reason
something with meaning-
a reason for believing.
a balancing act
between
what's real and what's fake
a hopeless romantic
a heart that's free to the take
i'm in between the life that I am living
the vision of who I want to be
and the life that I am given.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Rainwater

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Jedd Ong

Rainwater

Somewhere in the slums
A little brown kid
With threadbare shorts
And bullet hole
Riddled
Shirt

Dances
Like the perfect
Fred Astaire wind up toy.

He grins like a brightly lit jack-o-lantern.

His cheeks are muddy
But
He grins
Wider and wider
Still,

Looking gratefully
At the sky.

I just need to be reminded that the world's ratio of hugs per gunshot wound is still very, very high.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Dear Father

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

SE Reimer

Dear Father

(a prayer for my wife)*

Wiping the dust
That collects in her mind
She's cleaning his room again
Trying to find
Something passed over
Some kind of sign
Answers to questions
Dear Father Divine

Like a blanket so heavy
Grief weighs her down
Keeps her from hearing
The happiest sounds
Keeps her from knowing
The pleasures of life
Keeps her from seeing
Dear Father of Sight

Hoping to glimpse
Longing to see
Looking to capture
Her dying memory
His fingerprints fade
His smell almost gone
His laughter grows distant
Dear Father of Song

The fear of forgetting
More real than you know
Erasing the mind
To remember no more
Like waves of the ocean
Clearing the shore
Of footprints we've made
Dear Father of Hope

Dear Lord may she know
Your grace and Your truth
May she find in this journey
Her heart wrapped in Your strength
May the sense of Your purpose
Dispel all her fear
May the joy of Your presence
Dear Father be near.

written awhile back; seemed an appropriate prayer to post this beautiful sunday morning. though broken, we hope!!

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

This Is Home.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Marlo Cabrera

This Is Home.

I've been here,
Walking around,
Looking for a place,
A place that I can call my own.
A place that I may no longer feel alone,
A place that I can call Home.
I've been wandering around,
looking for something that slightly resembles it,
but still i haven't found it.
When will I find it?
When will I be able to feel it,
its warmth?
When will I be able to see the people in it?
The people that I call family.
When will I?

But then I realize,
the thing that I have been looking for,
the thing that I have been longing for,
the thing that I have been waiting,
craving,
dreaming,
and fantasizing of,
was here.
In where I have been standing on all along.

I made it!
This is it!

This is Home.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

To Every Beginning There Is An End

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Kwaician

To Every Beginning There Is An End

Where has the time gone
One day present
The next absent
Time flies when it's taken for granted
The fabric in which some were overjoyed
Others had sorrow
In the birth of a new relationship
One has withered away

Feeling the downpour of longing and nostalgia
Evaporating into the drought of anger and regret of things past
Thoughts condensing in the recesses of the mind
To Every Beginning There Is An End

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

We Never Had A Chance (Or A Choice)

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

KB

We Never Had A Chance (Or A Choice)

I never knew
That the rays of the sun
Could make someone’s eyes look so green,
Like the leaves on the trees
Or the grass in the spring.

I never knew
That feelings could run so deep,
Cause when you told me you loved me
I didn’t believe.
How could someone like you
Love a trainwreck like me?

And I never knew
That I could lose my mind so quickly
In cliché kisses in the rain
And the safety of your arms
Wrapped around my waist so tightly.
Having faith in things I could not see,
Like the wind in my hair,
Or your breath on my cheek.

I never knew
That I’d meet the type of guy
Who’d call me out on my crap
And bring tears to my eyes,
Who’d be two times as goofy and awkward as I am,
More caring and daring and honest than I am.

I never knew
How to hand over control
How to hand over my heart
And let you seep into my soul.
Now you course through my veins,
Poisoned blood to my brain,
Telling me that together we make up one whole.

I never knew
That the fire could grow
Til the flames swallowed us up
And spit me out all alone,
The edges of my heart
Singed black and left in pieces,
I scream out from the ground as
Passion’s my weakness,
Destroying all that we were
I watched our empire collapse
And I sat on my throne
Holding handfuls of ash.

And I never knew
Quite how to let go
How to take a bow at the end of the show.
How to walk out gracefully
and let you live on your own.

And I never knew
How to rebuild and forgive,
Visions of us in my mind,
To this day I still cringe.

I recover myself
But the scars from the fire
Streak my flesh, gleaming red
Clashing with my attire.
I don’t cling to the past,
Turn my back on me and you,
How such love could destroy,
I never knew.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

goodbye

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Hannah Turner

goodbye

There comes a point
When you can no longer fight
For someone, when all they
Do is fight against you.
I've reached that point.
Because all I do is bring you wounds
it's time to walk away
your words are like daggers
to my already broken heart
but to you, I know its irrelevant
and as much as I'd love
to escape the present
its out of my control.
Walking out of your life is hard
when we live within the same walls.

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

A Beautiful Mystery

Sep 2013 Sofia Paderes

Hannah Turner

A Beautiful Mystery

There's something beautiful that comes
from observing strangers.
Two lovers sit next to me
As I look out the airplane window.
I wonder if they will get married someday.
Or maybe they already are.

Across the aisle an older woman sits
reading the latest edition of "Sky Mall"
and sipping a cup of coffee.
I wonder if she's tired
or maybe she just wants to get to her destination.

Behind me, a tall young man
is taking a nap-
I wonder what he did the night before
that made him so sleepy today.

Its beautiful really.
The way stories come together,
cross paths, and vanish in this elegant mystery.

I can't comprehend
the power of God
to make the lakes below me
and still know each heart in here so deeply.

And I'm not going to try.

Because I wasn't made to understand everything.
I was made to stand in awe at his intricacy.
And right now, looking at creation in the plane and out-
I can't help but wonder-how anyone could doubt.

"We're all the same, desperate for a change, we're all the same, we need your love"