Complexity and pain
sheltered away
Born of water
So calm and mysterious

Piercing waves
Engulf
with each icy blow
Born of fire
will never return
such pain

For in all the realities lived
and all the chances offered
to melt the ice
and condense the sea

Spreading flames
to all the misery
all the resentment
being free of torment
is a life never to be lead

As far as the greatest of opposites go
Fire and Water
Knowing of the harrowing truth
that each vexed action
will keep them farther apart

In the end
The fire
in its passionate desire
will burn again
with no limitation
and the sea
in its mysterious beauty
will remain still
and alone
with no warmth in sight

I am sorry
if this came out of nowhere
since I have witnessed my worst fears
become me

I have nothing
that can be used
to keep you around
to make you happy
to stay with me

Leaving now would save myself the pain
of being left alone
and save you from the weight
You have carried on your shoulders for so long

I believe that when a human
has moved on once
He is capable of doing so
again
for life has a way of dulling the pain
over time

In the long run it was always a better choice
to save
yourself
For I
am not worth
your saving.

I cannot promise to shelter you from the world
but I can shelter you
now
On the cold autumn nights
In my arms
keeping you safe
from your inner demons
for now
and hope
you hold these memories
In your pockets
for the turn of seasons
When I leave with the wind
once more.

The streets now are empty
Every time I walk the path
where I met my friends
rushed to work
fell in love
sneaked home late

The wind blows harder than before
opening my coat
Exposing me to the cold
inevitable truth
That life is ever changing

Everyone has moved on
And here I stand
On the path
Where my memories lay
in the past
where I feel safe
where nothing is prone to change
and I remain
afraid to take the final step
Away

Now and then again
I remember
when I was young
And thought
kindness and virtue
were the keys to happiness

But the harshness of the world
built the calluses
that keeps me alive
today
Refusing to accept
the goodness of the everyday man
And I wonder
have I really grown

Crowds of the
happy
successful
loved
and
        there
                     I
                           am.
There for myself
supporting myself
loving myself
I am my own shoulder to cry on
and person to turn to
Because after all
I
am
all
that
I
have
all that will not harm
all that will not leave
all that is permanent
and certainly
all that will remain.

Time has taught me
to hide all
that makes you human
Hiding your pain
thoughts
opinions
and fears
away
from prying eyes

Time has taught me
when one suffers
they suffer
alone
proving humility
to never show it
or else face accusations
of being prideful of sadness

Time has taught me
not to want
ask
or beg
for things which cannot be changed
things to not break
or people to not forget

Time has taught me
to smile
for everyone but yourself
giving in to life’s flawed designs
surrounding us
and to simply fade
Into its depths