I am not quite there
to answer
when they ask
where I am going
from here
Confusing those around me
and making delays seem more
as pleads for help
than what they truly are

I am not ready
to pick myself up
and set a course
for bigger and better things
and do not wish for your hands
to force me up
out
and about
to do all that I cannot do

I belong down
where I can delay the process
another day
and begin again
when I decide.

Man of Solitude

In utter silence
All known is gone
flesh and blood
no more than memory
living seclusion
day after day
no concept of time
outside your own world
no perception
besides recollections of bygone days

What goes through your mind
with each passing year

What keeps you sane

What do you live for
when all you ever knew
has been taken away

These cold nights
when the rain hits hard
is when I miss it the most
When the wind sighs
and shadows creep over
When I see your face
You surround me
with warmth
with love
The feelings rush through my veins
Closing my eyes
This moment instilled in my mind
will remain with me
on these cold nights
when the rain falls in mourning
Despite my longing
Despite all desires I hold
I know
If I ever see you again
it’ll be too soon

I have realized
the world is a lonely place
In our homes
jobs
schools
preoccupying our minds
People come
they learn with us
they grow with us
We live
laugh
love
and move on
With the world at our fingertips
no matter the hundreds around us
or the ever growing bustling crowds
nothing can be done
to remedy us
from the fact
that though we can try until the end of our days
we will always be the most alone
In our minds

Time has been passing
a  little slower
and walks home
a  little quieter
than what had been before

Words have sunken
a little deeper
and thoughts have lingered
a little longer
since last we met

I cannot place this blame
upon you
nor can I upon the sun
that chose to rise
despite my wishes to hide away
amongst the gloomy grey
of the storm clouds above

But rather
all can be traced back
to me
clinging to all that has been
for fear of all that will be
without you.

You can remember
or you can forget
In your mind
I can stay
in my own cozy nook
or become no more
than the dust upon your shelf

Although I have become fond
of existing in this world of chaos
hand in hand
your decision
is your own
and you
must invite me in
first

I can breathe life
into your world
Or I can take
all life away
Now you
must decide
If it is worth it
for me
to stay.

As much as I want to pry
into your mind
and hold your arms
around me
In hopes
they will stay put,
I can never be

the one who enjoys your favourite records
your black and bitter coffee
and your old tattered novels,
that simply cannot be me

I cannot admire
black and white photographs
or inspire you
with my thoughts
and actions,
so it seems
As much as I want to surround myself
In your favourite thoughts
and memories

As much as I want to
I will not remain
with them
and will not remain
with you
and it is now
that I see
It is now
that I am free