Somedays I miss you so much
It feels like there is no one else in this world
To talk to
It’s been almost a year
I still think about you every day
I’ve forced my thoughts to be farther between
Because I know the amount of good
It does me
I wish I could stop putting you in the front
Of this in invisible line
I love you so much
Sometimes I close my eyes and I pretend
If I think it hard enough
You will feel that moment too

If I take it day by day
And no one mentions the word longing
I don’t ache for you
Anymore

Rage burns inside me
It’s so easy to spit your own poison back at you
One way or another
It just hurts
Instead I sit here
Fire turns into hot tears
Rushing down my face
Burns ditches in lines
I wonder if karma is real
How do you continue to get away with this

And all I’m worried about is
Having to stand in a room with you
Today is a day
Where I wish my face
Didn’t look like yours
So it wasn’t so noticeable
That I’m the one who looks
Just like you
That you never talk to

I’ll always remember you when we were young
I’ll remember the nights we spent laughing for two years in our twenties
You are in another life
Another dimension now
I saw her tooth brush on the counter
It shared the same cup as yours
Her clothes strewn all over the floor
In the bathroom I looked at myself
I’m thinking
I’m gonna be sick
You are living another lifetime
And all we had was
Two years in our twenties
That I’ll never forget

I use to get so mad
When you’d wake me up
Midnight hours
Asking me questions about myself
Please
I’d say
Let me go back to sleep
Such an annoyed tone
Now it’s 12 am again
But it’s silent
I find myself saying things in my head
Like
Sorry I got so annoyed
And
I miss anyone
Anyone at all
Asking questions
About me
Genuinely

Hey, I haven’t stopped loving you
But every time we speak
You and I
We are with other people
Maybe not this time?