You are strong
And yes,
you feel weak right now

But, you are strong
Nothing will wear you down

Connection
Breeds
Creation

Bees
To
Flowers flaunting
pollen

I don’t feel like
I have a seat on any bus
There is no slot
For me to fit into
Where do I go?
What do I do?

And be thankful you are alive
Because
Without you
They would have never met at all
If it hadn’t been for you
He’d still be getting married
And they would just be coworkers

And in either scenario
You realize
With or without you
He’d have gone on
Life would have gone on

I am tired again
I am weary in my bones
Lay me down here
I will wrap my arms
Around myself

Once upon a time
I almost ran away with you
We almost made a home together
We almost met our lives in the middle

We weren’t even salvageable children
But foreboding adults

There you stood at the altar
And it was never decided
Did I rip you away from it?
Or did you step away from it?
“We all made our choices”

But we still ran with it,
and
We almost did it,
We almost got there,
We were Icarus,
And our inextinguishable love,
It was the sun,
We burned up in it

I hate our phone calls now
I hate the spaces in between the small talk
“How is everything” I love you “******”
I hate being here while you are there
I hate how almost isn’t quite enough
For it to be all the way

I love you

What does it mean,
To love yourself