I just wanted to know
Why

I hope you think about me
Every
Single
Day

Dear God,
If you have any mercy
Please
I don’t want to think about him anymore
I want to forget his voice
His eyes
His laugh
His smell
Help me let him go
Help me heal
Please show me
I won’t feel this way forever
That he wasn’t the one
That I can get over him

I will get married again.
I will have children again.
I will have a family.
I will grow old without you.
And you.
You will never know what you want.
You will become an old story I tell,
When my grandchildren ask me,
About life
And love.

I loved you.
I loved you.
And
I will never know, what would be.

You are lucky.
Lucky I’m willing to crawl back into my safety
Away from you.
Lucky I haven’t told her everything again.
You are lucky.

Dillan,
You are a coward
I will
Never
Ever
Forgive you.

I cry so deep
I feel the river flowing through
My chest
Deep, white water, ripping through me

I can’t believe you did this
You did this again