Just came by to say
I miss you again

I miss you today
I miss you every day
I love you and I say it out loud to myself sometimes
Growing up makes me want to put sticks in my eyes
Because it should all be easier than this
It should be easier for me to see you
And I wish we could go back
To the camper
Sitting outside
Talking for hours
But this time instead of being an idiot
I would go to the back with you
Lay down in the room
I really love you man and I miss you
And I miss you I miss you I miss you
The more I say it, I’m just trying to drill it in
I hope you can hear it

I love you so much it hurts
I fold back into myself
I fold over and over and over
Please let me hear your voice

I never realized how much you look for me
In everyone

Another six months
Another year
I’m almost thirty
And then I’ll be practically forty
Please, I miss you

Because I wake up in the morning
And start my day thinking about you
Somewhere between packing lunches
And taking Gabriel to school
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night too
I think you must be somewhere there
Me on your mind as well
I will never be able to love anyone else the way that I love you
The worst part is being able to move on, knowing nothing will ever be good enough
Nothing will ever be the same
Nothing will ever matter as much
I have moved on to focusing on my sons life
To get him to his happy place
I wonder when I will look up and see my own wrinkled hands
Even then, I know I will miss you
That’s what breaks me, knowing we will go from old to young
It makes no sense, you are my soulmate you know
Even after all this time, even after all these years
It’s all the same, how I feel inside about you
All the dust you kicked up, has settled
And I know now that you see me there too
It’s why you can’t help yourself
Please call me
Call me call me call me
We can talk and be full

I miss you so much
I’m begging so badly I would pull my heart out if you need
Give me a chance
Let me talk to you
Call me please
I can not stop thinking about you